Headache Hell

I guess I am one of the unlucky ones that cant hide from life the moment a migraine rears it's ugly face!

I woke up fighting one of those annoying little headaches... that blow up into a full blown migraine by 3!
Needless to say, it sucks!!

I managed to get both kids through their school work, groomed a dog, went and picked up Courtney from school, took them all for icees... then, once Stacy got home and I got attitude when I asked him to make dinner because I couldnt even see straight, I got to lay down for a whopping whole 20 minutes... while Stacy pounded away in the bathroom and kept coming in and out of our bedroom looking for tools!

Ah, yes... my lovely life.

I think the whole headache thing started with having to pay bills. My favorite task... NOT!
The tension begins when we are on a 'spending freeze' because of the bullshit with my mother. Got to love paying a mortgage on a house for her to sit on her ass and watch unlimited cable TV channels. And I am sure she is cranking the electric heat... because what the hell does she care if we can afford to sent the kids to their extra activities...?!?! She is on her ass... planning her next 'major' health crisis... While we are trying to figure out how to pay the fines because of her bullshit!
Yes, this makes me quite hateful!!!
I love how she tells me I have never done anything to help her when it is my ass keeping a roof over her freakin head! And it is MY kids... her grandkids that ultimately pay the price because all of the "extras" are the first to go.
I think it is safe to say that I hate her. I think she is the most selfish thing to walk the planet. I cant believe she would put us through all of this, cost us a shit load of money... all to keep her ass on a couch and out of a workplace!!! And to think I was actually trying to help her!!! What the hell was I thinking!?!?
On top of paying bills I get the added bonus of a migraine. Hmmm.... and my mother tries to tell me I have no idea what a migraine is about. RIGHT!!!
Only, I dont have someone to watch my kids and take care of my household "duties"! Like she ever even had a household to take care of. Nope. And I am the clueless one.
Goodness... I live every day with some sort of pain... I have been blessed with Fibromyalgia... LUCKY ME!!! I have to SUCK IT UP... maybe some other certain ppl should give that a try.

Yes, I am super pissy.

Hopefully... once I am done doing my husbands work laundry and cleaning up from dinner... I will be able to find a dark, quiet spot to curl up and sleep... in hopes I wake up feeling better so I cant do it all over again tomorrow!

But ya know what...
I did have a few wonderful moments in our new bathroom with the kids!!! Nathan was hiding in the sink box. Brittany reached in a handle hole and poked him. Nathan stuck his hand out of the other handle and asked me to hold his hand because he was scared. I laughed so hard I thought my head was going to explode!!! I soooooooooo LOVE my kids!!! They make every day worth living even the most painful of ones!

Ohhhh....
Another awesome moment today--- Nathan "taking science to the kitchen" in a fun "chemical reaction" experiment!!! Oh yes.... baking soda and vinegar!!! LOL!!! I LOVE that thoughtful and excited expression he gets on his face!!

AND....
Walking into my shop to see Nathan all curled up with HoBo the beagle! I am so glad my son has compassion for animals in need!

PLUS.....
Our bathroom make over is about complete. Toilet is installed... not just any toilet, but a taller toilet so when I am having bad back days... going to the bathroom will be a bit easier! :-) Ohhhh the little things in life.

I am a very blessed lady. I thank God every day for putting me right where he did!! I know that there are times when I want to throw in the towel... or I think things just arent very fair. But, in the big picture... things really arent that bad!

Things with my mother... just another bump in the road. She will eventually, one way or another, be out of that house. And we will eventually sell that house.
THEN, things will be even better... and we can move on to writing the next chapter in our lives... and doing it a whole hell of alot less stressed!

Tomorrow-
Grocery list and grocery shopping... after a fun filled day of school with my kids!!! (We are learning all the ins and outs of decimals in math!!)
Maybe I will look at and compare grain mills some more... even though I cant buy one just yet. LOL!