Today we say good bye to 2011!! WOW... the year flew by!!! I cant wait to see what 2012 has in store for us.
Today we went up to BoxCar Rocks hiking!! It was an awesome day!!! I got to use my new lens for my camera. IT IS AMAZING!!!!
Tomorrow we have another hike planned... up to Love Rock. If I dont die trying to get up there! LOL!!
I am also hard at work to get our new diet program implemented for the new year! I vacuumed sealed a bunch of candy and put it in the freezer. AND... once all of the colored cereal is gone... we wont be buying anymore! ;-)
I think tomorrow I will also try to get some "candy" made that is acceptable in the program. I am really hoping to see a change in Nathan's behavior once we get it all going strong.
I guess that is all for now!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Friday, December 30, 2011
Notes of interest
From my current book... "Toxic In-Laws"
"Because self-centered people are so dependent on outside admiration and approval, most of them are consumed with how they look to others."
"Sometimes toxic in-laws' self-centeredness can come perilously close to paranoia. Because everything is about them, they often accuse you of deliberately upsetting them."
"Some people are so emotionally constricted and so heavily defended, they simply dont have the capacity to walk a block, let alone a mile in someone else's Nikes. Recognizing and understanding these limitations with both you heart and your head will go a long way toward helping you resolve the question, 'How can they treat me this way?'
One of the answers is: They treat you this way because they are either oblivious or indifferent to how much pain they are causing. They cannot feel what you are feeling, and they have a gaping hole inside, where their empathy should be. As a result, they are free to cause suffering without the constraints of such minor inconveniences as guilt or remorse--feelings that would not allow them to go so far without suffering themselves."
This book is GREAT!!! I no longer ask myself..."what did I do wrong?" OR "What is wrong with me?"... I ask... "What is wrong with them, that they dont see me for the good person that I am?" OR "What is wrong with them, that they dont see how much I love my husband and how happy I make him?" !!!!
I am just about half way through the book!! And already have learned so much!!!
Stacy and I are also scheduled to start couples counseling to help us learn to deal with the insanity!! It really does cause a lot of issues between us... because neither one of us knows what to do!
I am so excited!!! MORE PERSONAL GROWTH!!!
2012 is going to be an awesome year!!! :-)
"Because self-centered people are so dependent on outside admiration and approval, most of them are consumed with how they look to others."
"Sometimes toxic in-laws' self-centeredness can come perilously close to paranoia. Because everything is about them, they often accuse you of deliberately upsetting them."
"Some people are so emotionally constricted and so heavily defended, they simply dont have the capacity to walk a block, let alone a mile in someone else's Nikes. Recognizing and understanding these limitations with both you heart and your head will go a long way toward helping you resolve the question, 'How can they treat me this way?'
One of the answers is: They treat you this way because they are either oblivious or indifferent to how much pain they are causing. They cannot feel what you are feeling, and they have a gaping hole inside, where their empathy should be. As a result, they are free to cause suffering without the constraints of such minor inconveniences as guilt or remorse--feelings that would not allow them to go so far without suffering themselves."
This book is GREAT!!! I no longer ask myself..."what did I do wrong?" OR "What is wrong with me?"... I ask... "What is wrong with them, that they dont see me for the good person that I am?" OR "What is wrong with them, that they dont see how much I love my husband and how happy I make him?" !!!!
I am just about half way through the book!! And already have learned so much!!!
Stacy and I are also scheduled to start couples counseling to help us learn to deal with the insanity!! It really does cause a lot of issues between us... because neither one of us knows what to do!
I am so excited!!! MORE PERSONAL GROWTH!!!
2012 is going to be an awesome year!!! :-)
Thursday, December 29, 2011
2012 Garden!!
I put together our Burpee order!! Anyone interested in a "seed swap" let me know!! Lord knows I sure dont use an entire pack of seeds!!
-"Easy Peasy" Peas
-"Peas-in-a-Pot" Peas (look interesting, gonna try it)
-"Cherry Stuffer Hybrid" Sweet Peppers
-"Red Delicious Hybrid" Sweet Peppers
-"Big Guy" Hot Peppers
-"Detroit Dark Red, Med Top" Beets
-"Burpee's Big Boy Hybrid" Tomatoes
-"Sweet Seedless Hybrid" Tomatoes
-"Fresh Salsa Hybrid" Tomatoes
-"Super Sweet 100 Hybrid" Cherry Tomatoes
-"Coconut Ice Hybrid" Sunflowers
-"Sunforest Mix" Sunflowers
-"Burpeeless Beauty" Cucumbers
-"Salad Bush Hybrid" Bush Cucumbers
-"Picklebush" Bush Cucumbers
-"Sweet Treat Hybrid" Carrots
-"Blue Lake 47" Bush Beans
-"Heavyweight II" Bush Beans
-"Big Daddy Hybrid" Onions
-"Kentucky Blue" Pole Snap Beans
-"Elephant" Garlic
-"Big Max" Pumpkins
-"Burpee Butterbush" Butternut Squash
-"Bush Sugar Baby" Watermelon
-"Easy Peasy" Peas
-"Peas-in-a-Pot" Peas (look interesting, gonna try it)
-"Cherry Stuffer Hybrid" Sweet Peppers
-"Red Delicious Hybrid" Sweet Peppers
-"Big Guy" Hot Peppers
-"Detroit Dark Red, Med Top" Beets
-"Burpee's Big Boy Hybrid" Tomatoes
-"Sweet Seedless Hybrid" Tomatoes
-"Fresh Salsa Hybrid" Tomatoes
-"Super Sweet 100 Hybrid" Cherry Tomatoes
-"Coconut Ice Hybrid" Sunflowers
-"Sunforest Mix" Sunflowers
-"Burpeeless Beauty" Cucumbers
-"Salad Bush Hybrid" Bush Cucumbers
-"Picklebush" Bush Cucumbers
-"Sweet Treat Hybrid" Carrots
-"Blue Lake 47" Bush Beans
-"Heavyweight II" Bush Beans
-"Big Daddy Hybrid" Onions
-"Kentucky Blue" Pole Snap Beans
-"Elephant" Garlic
-"Big Max" Pumpkins
-"Burpee Butterbush" Butternut Squash
-"Bush Sugar Baby" Watermelon
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Here and GONE-- Yesterday's blog
Well... the big day that took weeks to prepare for... is OVER!!
My kids were pleased with their gifts, and how the day unfolded. They love all of their gifts! I think the Kindle Fire's were a hit... seeing as how none of them have put them down for very long. Britt already downloaded a book... and it reading her lil heart out. Nathan found some fun games... ad educational ones. Courtney is obsessed with comics and videos.
Stacy got their new desktop all set up... AND the dictation software!!! They all got a boat of clothes from their favorite stores (Aero and Gap). The icee makers are a big hit too!!
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE ALL OF MY HOMEMADE GIFTS!!!! Brittany made me a BEAUTIFUL stool!! And Nathan made me a ceramic thrown bowl... and a trinket box with a lid! LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM!!!
Stacy got me a new... bigger... awesome... tele lens for my Nikon!! I can not wait to use it!! Came with a hood and filter!!! I am soooo stoked!!!!
Our morning yesterday was spent with my family. They came up and we did our gift exchange. We brought some tears to my grandfather's eyes... which was AWESOME!!! We framed 2 pictures of him and Britt and Josh heading out hunting together! Again... not many kids can say they went hunting with their Great Grandfather! I LOVE that mine can!! I can only hope and pray Nathan will get to experience it too.
Once the house cleared out... we ate our dinner. Very simple and stress free lasagna! Loved it!! No stress and little mess!
After we all had full bellies... we took a NAP! The kids busted in our bedroom at 6:01... because we said we werent getting up until after 6...LOL! The dogs had us up before 5... because that was when the kids got up... and they could hear them and apparently shared in their excitement! LOL
After our nap we got up, got ready, and headed to see Grandma Sarah! It was a nice visit and she seemed very happy to be surrounded by everyone. It quickly became noticeable that she was pretty tired. I got my baby fix with holding Coraline for a bit.
Stacy, the kids and I also got to sit and chit chat with some of our favorite ppl (Rodney, Jen and the girls)! We are both so blessed with the relationship we have with them. They are GREAT, non judgemental ppl that accept us and our decision no matter what they are... and then are supportive of them... and us! THAT is what family is all about!
Sooo... once Grandma's kitchen cleared out some... we all sat out there with the few that were left and had a bunch of laughs!
Once we finally left we headed to BK for icees... BUT, they were still closed. So we hit Koppy's for drinks... and then headed to the end of Eville for a light show. It was an awesome end for an amazing day!
I am so ready to undecorate and get things back to normal now. I know... sounds harsh.
Oh... Stacy did sneak in one last gift to me... HIS FREAKIN COLD!!
What will this week bring...
I am getting a few new piercings... and I think 1 or 2 of my kids will be too.
Jen and I plan on taking the kids to the Bounceplex this week too. It is something we did with them last year over Christmas break... and they had a BLAST!! Looking forward to doing it again.
I also plan on taking the kids shopping! They have money burning a hole in their pockets. LOL!
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
So... obviously there was a shit load of stress for Stacy and I over the past few weeks. I am sure it was noticeable to everyone around us. My kids were sure feeling it... which REALLY pisses me off!!
I am who I am. My husband accepts me for who I am. And loves me for who I am.
-I dont much care if people think I "attack" them, because I send an email with my thoughts and feelings in it. They are my feelings... I dont need to PROVE them! Cry me a river... oh wait...those tears dont mean a damn thing to me. But please, allow them to work their magic on someone else that doesnt need to be involved in the BS.
-I dont much care that people think I should take certain, specific steps in letting them know what is going on in our life. Umm... OUR life... no one else really needs to know our business. Just RESPECT our wishes... you dont need to know the reasons, thoughts, or feelings behind them. RESPECT!
-I know that I am not particularly liked... and people do not think I am the right choice for Stacy. This is only because I can not be beat down to conform to what others want!
-My husband may be able to be emotionally blackmailed... but that shit doesnt work for me! WHO DOES THIS SHIT TO "FAMILY"?!?!?
I am so thankful that we have agreed to get an outside oppinion and advice on this bullshit situation. What this means at this point... THINGS are NOT ok! And Stacy may act like they are... because that is his way of dealing with things... BUT, I dont have that ability.
Let me tell you... there WILL be some major boundaries set!! I am reading a great book... "Toxic In-Laws"... and it is really eye opening to me... and I think it will be to my husband too!!
I am sure that Stacy and I will work it all out... and continue on our happily ever after. But, I am also sure that A LOT of things will be changing. BOUNDARIES will be put into place. Maybe we will relocate and change our lives completely... just to have peace. The bottom line is OUR family... the kids and us... are what is priority. We will have PEACE... no matter what we need to do to get it!
OK... on to a new day. I need to get my washer and dryer going... and somehow get some order back in our house!!! Start finding homes for all the new stuff that found its way into our house! Maybe get rid of a bunch of clutter.
Oh... one thing is for sure... our bunnies need some exercise!!!
We will be enjoying the sun... Hope everyone else will too!!
My kids were pleased with their gifts, and how the day unfolded. They love all of their gifts! I think the Kindle Fire's were a hit... seeing as how none of them have put them down for very long. Britt already downloaded a book... and it reading her lil heart out. Nathan found some fun games... ad educational ones. Courtney is obsessed with comics and videos.
Stacy got their new desktop all set up... AND the dictation software!!! They all got a boat of clothes from their favorite stores (Aero and Gap). The icee makers are a big hit too!!
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE ALL OF MY HOMEMADE GIFTS!!!! Brittany made me a BEAUTIFUL stool!! And Nathan made me a ceramic thrown bowl... and a trinket box with a lid! LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM!!!
Stacy got me a new... bigger... awesome... tele lens for my Nikon!! I can not wait to use it!! Came with a hood and filter!!! I am soooo stoked!!!!
Our morning yesterday was spent with my family. They came up and we did our gift exchange. We brought some tears to my grandfather's eyes... which was AWESOME!!! We framed 2 pictures of him and Britt and Josh heading out hunting together! Again... not many kids can say they went hunting with their Great Grandfather! I LOVE that mine can!! I can only hope and pray Nathan will get to experience it too.
Once the house cleared out... we ate our dinner. Very simple and stress free lasagna! Loved it!! No stress and little mess!
After we all had full bellies... we took a NAP! The kids busted in our bedroom at 6:01... because we said we werent getting up until after 6...LOL! The dogs had us up before 5... because that was when the kids got up... and they could hear them and apparently shared in their excitement! LOL
After our nap we got up, got ready, and headed to see Grandma Sarah! It was a nice visit and she seemed very happy to be surrounded by everyone. It quickly became noticeable that she was pretty tired. I got my baby fix with holding Coraline for a bit.
Stacy, the kids and I also got to sit and chit chat with some of our favorite ppl (Rodney, Jen and the girls)! We are both so blessed with the relationship we have with them. They are GREAT, non judgemental ppl that accept us and our decision no matter what they are... and then are supportive of them... and us! THAT is what family is all about!
Sooo... once Grandma's kitchen cleared out some... we all sat out there with the few that were left and had a bunch of laughs!
Once we finally left we headed to BK for icees... BUT, they were still closed. So we hit Koppy's for drinks... and then headed to the end of Eville for a light show. It was an awesome end for an amazing day!
I am so ready to undecorate and get things back to normal now. I know... sounds harsh.
Oh... Stacy did sneak in one last gift to me... HIS FREAKIN COLD!!
What will this week bring...
I am getting a few new piercings... and I think 1 or 2 of my kids will be too.
Jen and I plan on taking the kids to the Bounceplex this week too. It is something we did with them last year over Christmas break... and they had a BLAST!! Looking forward to doing it again.
I also plan on taking the kids shopping! They have money burning a hole in their pockets. LOL!
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
So... obviously there was a shit load of stress for Stacy and I over the past few weeks. I am sure it was noticeable to everyone around us. My kids were sure feeling it... which REALLY pisses me off!!
I am who I am. My husband accepts me for who I am. And loves me for who I am.
-I dont much care if people think I "attack" them, because I send an email with my thoughts and feelings in it. They are my feelings... I dont need to PROVE them! Cry me a river... oh wait...those tears dont mean a damn thing to me. But please, allow them to work their magic on someone else that doesnt need to be involved in the BS.
-I dont much care that people think I should take certain, specific steps in letting them know what is going on in our life. Umm... OUR life... no one else really needs to know our business. Just RESPECT our wishes... you dont need to know the reasons, thoughts, or feelings behind them. RESPECT!
-I know that I am not particularly liked... and people do not think I am the right choice for Stacy. This is only because I can not be beat down to conform to what others want!
-My husband may be able to be emotionally blackmailed... but that shit doesnt work for me! WHO DOES THIS SHIT TO "FAMILY"?!?!?
I am so thankful that we have agreed to get an outside oppinion and advice on this bullshit situation. What this means at this point... THINGS are NOT ok! And Stacy may act like they are... because that is his way of dealing with things... BUT, I dont have that ability.
Let me tell you... there WILL be some major boundaries set!! I am reading a great book... "Toxic In-Laws"... and it is really eye opening to me... and I think it will be to my husband too!!
I am sure that Stacy and I will work it all out... and continue on our happily ever after. But, I am also sure that A LOT of things will be changing. BOUNDARIES will be put into place. Maybe we will relocate and change our lives completely... just to have peace. The bottom line is OUR family... the kids and us... are what is priority. We will have PEACE... no matter what we need to do to get it!
OK... on to a new day. I need to get my washer and dryer going... and somehow get some order back in our house!!! Start finding homes for all the new stuff that found its way into our house! Maybe get rid of a bunch of clutter.
Oh... one thing is for sure... our bunnies need some exercise!!!
We will be enjoying the sun... Hope everyone else will too!!
Monday, December 26, 2011
Here and GONE!
Well... the big day that took weeks to prepare for... is OVER!!
My kids were pleased with their gifts, and how the day unfolded. They love all of their gifts! I think the Kindle Fire's were a hit... seeing as how none of them have put them down for very long. Britt already downloaded a book... and it reading her lil heart out. Nathan found some fun games... ad educational ones. Courtney is obsessed with comics and videos.
Stacy got their new desktop all set up... AND the dictation software!!! They all got a boat of clothes from their favorite stores (Aero and Gap). The icee makers are a big hit too!!
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE ALL OF MY HOMEMADE GIFTS!!!! Brittany made me a BEAUTIFUL stool!! And Nathan made me a ceramic thrown bowl... and a trinket box with a lid! LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM!!!
Stacy got me a new... bigger... awesome... tele lens for my Nikon!! I can not wait to use it!! Came with a hood and filter!!! I am soooo stoked!!!!
Our morning yesterday was spent with my family. They came up and we did our gift exchange. We brought some tears to my grandfather's eyes... which was AWESOME!!! We framed 2 pictures of him and Britt and Josh heading out hunting together! Again... not many kids can say they went hunting with their Great Grandfather! I LOVE that mine can!! I can only hope and pray Nathan will get to experience it too.
Once the house cleared out... we ate our dinner. Very simple and stress free lasagna! Loved it!! No stress and little mess!
After we all had full bellies... we took a NAP! The kids busted in our bedroom at 6:01... because we said we werent getting up until after 6...LOL! The dogs had us up before 5... because that was when the kids got up... and they could hear them and apparently shared in their excitement! LOL
After our nap we got up, got ready, and headed to see Grandma Sarah! It was a nice visit and she seemed very happy to be surrounded by everyone. It quickly became noticeable that she was pretty tired. I got my baby fix with holding Coraline for a bit.
Stacy, the kids and I also got to sit and chit chat with some of our favorite ppl (Rodney, Jen and the girls)! We are both so blessed with the relationship we have with them. They are GREAT, non judgemental ppl that accept us and our decision no matter what they are... and then are supportive of them... and us! THAT is what family is all about!
Sooo... once Grandma's kitchen cleared out some... we all sat out there with the few that were left and had a bunch of laughs!
Once we finally left we headed to BK for icees... BUT, they were still closed. So we hit Koppy's for drinks... and then headed to the end of Eville for a light show. It was an awesome end for an amazing day!
I am so ready to undecorate and get things back to normal now. I know... sounds harsh.
Oh... Stacy did sneak in one last gift to me... HIS FREAKIN COLD!!
What will this week bring...
I am getting a few new piercings... and I think 1 or 2 of my kids will be too.
Jen and I plan on taking the kids to the Bounceplex this week too. It is something we did with them last year over Christmas break... and they had a BLAST!! Looking forward to doing it again.
I also plan on taking the kids shopping! They have money burning a hole in their pockets. LOL!
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
So... obviously there was a shit load of stress for Stacy and I over the past few weeks. I am sure it was noticeable to everyone around us. My kids were sure feeling it... which REALLY pisses me off!!
I am who I am. My husband accepts me for who I am. And loves me for who I am.
-I dont much care if people think I "attack" them, because I send an email with my thoughts and feelings in it. They are my feelings... I dont need to PROVE them! Cry me a river... oh wait...those tears dont mean a damn thing to me. But please, allow them to work their magic on someone else that doesnt need to be involved in the BS.
-I dont much care that people think I should take certain, specific steps in letting them know what is going on in our life. Umm... OUR life... no one else really needs to know our business. Just RESPECT our wishes... you dont need to know the reasons, thoughts, or feelings behind them. RESPECT!
-I know that I am not particularly liked... and people do not think I am the right choice for Stacy. This is only because I can not be beat down to conform to what others want!
-My husband may be able to be emotionally blackmailed... but that shit doesnt work for me! WHO DOES THIS SHIT TO "FAMILY"?!?!?
I am so thankful that we have agreed to get an outside oppinion and advice on this bullshit situation. What this means at this point... THINGS are NOT ok! And Stacy may act like they are... because that is his way of dealing with things... BUT, I dont have that ability.
Let me tell you... there WILL be some major boundaries set!! I am reading a great book... "Toxic In-Laws"... and it is really eye opening to me... and I think it will be to my husband too!!
I am sure that Stacy and I will work it all out... and continue on our happily ever after. But, I am also sure that A LOT of things will be changing. BOUNDARIES will be put into place. Maybe we will relocate and change our lives completely... just to have peace. The bottom line is OUR family... the kids and us... are what is priority. We will have PEACE... no matter what we need to do to get it!
OK... on to a new day. I need to get my washer and dryer going... and somehow get some order back in our house!!! Start finding homes for all the new stuff that found its way into our house! Maybe get rid of a bunch of clutter.
Oh... one thing is for sure... our bunnies need some exercise!!!
We will be enjoying the sun... Hope everyone else will too!!
My kids were pleased with their gifts, and how the day unfolded. They love all of their gifts! I think the Kindle Fire's were a hit... seeing as how none of them have put them down for very long. Britt already downloaded a book... and it reading her lil heart out. Nathan found some fun games... ad educational ones. Courtney is obsessed with comics and videos.
Stacy got their new desktop all set up... AND the dictation software!!! They all got a boat of clothes from their favorite stores (Aero and Gap). The icee makers are a big hit too!!
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE ALL OF MY HOMEMADE GIFTS!!!! Brittany made me a BEAUTIFUL stool!! And Nathan made me a ceramic thrown bowl... and a trinket box with a lid! LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM!!!
Stacy got me a new... bigger... awesome... tele lens for my Nikon!! I can not wait to use it!! Came with a hood and filter!!! I am soooo stoked!!!!
Our morning yesterday was spent with my family. They came up and we did our gift exchange. We brought some tears to my grandfather's eyes... which was AWESOME!!! We framed 2 pictures of him and Britt and Josh heading out hunting together! Again... not many kids can say they went hunting with their Great Grandfather! I LOVE that mine can!! I can only hope and pray Nathan will get to experience it too.
Once the house cleared out... we ate our dinner. Very simple and stress free lasagna! Loved it!! No stress and little mess!
After we all had full bellies... we took a NAP! The kids busted in our bedroom at 6:01... because we said we werent getting up until after 6...LOL! The dogs had us up before 5... because that was when the kids got up... and they could hear them and apparently shared in their excitement! LOL
After our nap we got up, got ready, and headed to see Grandma Sarah! It was a nice visit and she seemed very happy to be surrounded by everyone. It quickly became noticeable that she was pretty tired. I got my baby fix with holding Coraline for a bit.
Stacy, the kids and I also got to sit and chit chat with some of our favorite ppl (Rodney, Jen and the girls)! We are both so blessed with the relationship we have with them. They are GREAT, non judgemental ppl that accept us and our decision no matter what they are... and then are supportive of them... and us! THAT is what family is all about!
Sooo... once Grandma's kitchen cleared out some... we all sat out there with the few that were left and had a bunch of laughs!
Once we finally left we headed to BK for icees... BUT, they were still closed. So we hit Koppy's for drinks... and then headed to the end of Eville for a light show. It was an awesome end for an amazing day!
I am so ready to undecorate and get things back to normal now. I know... sounds harsh.
Oh... Stacy did sneak in one last gift to me... HIS FREAKIN COLD!!
What will this week bring...
I am getting a few new piercings... and I think 1 or 2 of my kids will be too.
Jen and I plan on taking the kids to the Bounceplex this week too. It is something we did with them last year over Christmas break... and they had a BLAST!! Looking forward to doing it again.
I also plan on taking the kids shopping! They have money burning a hole in their pockets. LOL!
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
So... obviously there was a shit load of stress for Stacy and I over the past few weeks. I am sure it was noticeable to everyone around us. My kids were sure feeling it... which REALLY pisses me off!!
I am who I am. My husband accepts me for who I am. And loves me for who I am.
-I dont much care if people think I "attack" them, because I send an email with my thoughts and feelings in it. They are my feelings... I dont need to PROVE them! Cry me a river... oh wait...those tears dont mean a damn thing to me. But please, allow them to work their magic on someone else that doesnt need to be involved in the BS.
-I dont much care that people think I should take certain, specific steps in letting them know what is going on in our life. Umm... OUR life... no one else really needs to know our business. Just RESPECT our wishes... you dont need to know the reasons, thoughts, or feelings behind them. RESPECT!
-I know that I am not particularly liked... and people do not think I am the right choice for Stacy. This is only because I can not be beat down to conform to what others want!
-My husband may be able to be emotionally blackmailed... but that shit doesnt work for me! WHO DOES THIS SHIT TO "FAMILY"?!?!?
I am so thankful that we have agreed to get an outside oppinion and advice on this bullshit situation. What this means at this point... THINGS are NOT ok! And Stacy may act like they are... because that is his way of dealing with things... BUT, I dont have that ability.
Let me tell you... there WILL be some major boundaries set!! I am reading a great book... "Toxic In-Laws"... and it is really eye opening to me... and I think it will be to my husband too!!
I am sure that Stacy and I will work it all out... and continue on our happily ever after. But, I am also sure that A LOT of things will be changing. BOUNDARIES will be put into place. Maybe we will relocate and change our lives completely... just to have peace. The bottom line is OUR family... the kids and us... are what is priority. We will have PEACE... no matter what we need to do to get it!
OK... on to a new day. I need to get my washer and dryer going... and somehow get some order back in our house!!! Start finding homes for all the new stuff that found its way into our house! Maybe get rid of a bunch of clutter.
Oh... one thing is for sure... our bunnies need some exercise!!!
We will be enjoying the sun... Hope everyone else will too!!
Friday, December 23, 2011
Christmas Eve's Eve!!
Wow... once we get to this point... that whole eve of the eve of the eve thing I do with the kids... gets a whole lot easier!! LOL!!
Today the kids have a half day... and we plan on doing some serious baking this afternoon!!! Then it is all about count down to Christmas morning!
Oh... I got my first materials (thru email 400page PDF...LOL) about our new diet program!! I am pretty excited about getting that underway. BUT, it is going to have to wait until the start of 2012... just too much going on over the next week.
Geez... I have to sit down and do my 2011 goals in review... and make up my goals for 2012!! I cant believe how fast time flies!!!
Stacy and I will be making some more, new adjustments to our lives! We have mixed feelings on it... it is both sad and exciting.
All kinds of stuff came to a boiling point yesterday... and well, I freely and openly admit I stewed on things until I just jumped on acting. At the same time... I think the reaction Stacy got was grossly over reacted! But... it is what it is. He now sees things and ppl in a different light... and now we move on.
I really wish sitting everyone down together would get to some sort of resolution to the issues we have been having... but I know better. First of all... who wants to take time out of their lives to deal with ex's... let alone ex's of ex's?!?! Just seems a bit ridiculous to me. Second... it's everyone's word against eachother! How do you go about proving someones motives?? Not exactly sure what an attorney can offer to this utter insanity... but hey... whatever floats your boat. You want to waste money on that... go for it.
Just seems kind of bully like to me. And for those reading this... these are my FEELINGS... I am not making ACCUSATIONS against anyone!! There is a HUGE difference. I guess my FEELINGS and OBSERVATIONS tend to hurt others feelings... oh well. Life goes on!
And really... who is the judge and jury we need to prove anything to in regards to any of this?!?! LOL!! It is what it is. These are things we are living.
Ok... I am over it!
Moving on...
I guess we will have to have some tough conversations with the kids over the next few days. Oh joy.
And we have some tough decisions to make as the new year begins as well! We were tossing out some idea's last nite... but, I dont want to make any emotional decisions. We are going to get through the holidays... and then take a look at things.
I know that this time of year is ALWAYS difficult for me... during a good year.
This year I have had more stuff thrown at me then I care to deal with!!! No one takes the time to realize any of that... or to take a few steps in my shoes!!
-Earl passing away... and dealing with my Mom. (Seriously, this has been enough to send me over the edge)
-Taking care of Josh.
-Dealing with Courtney and her daily issues. (and boy, they sure are daily!! I am in constant communication with the school... teachers... etc. Not a day goes by)
-Preparing for her fast approaching graduation and what happens with her next.
-Dealing with Nathan's increasing issues. (Also at least weekly communication with the school... and constant battles at home... that Stacy and I just dont know what to do to deal with them anymore.)
-Ex's that never seem to go away.
-Unsupportive family members who seem to be working AGAINST us.
-Trying to start and build a business... while keeping up with the demand of being a mom and wife.
-The loss of Stacy's grandfather.
-Issue after issue with things in our house... and with things at the other house.
-Trying to maintain and afford two houses.
-Trying to do the right things... and make everyone happy in the process.
IT IS JUST TOO MUCH!
Oh well. I am human. Yes, I should have left well enough alone when Stacy handled things the best he could. But damn... I get so sick of having to ask myself why I am not good enough!!!
Ok... on with my day. I have to clear some space in the kitchen and on the dining room table... so we can BAKE once everyone gets home!!! MAY THE FUN BEGIN!!!
Today the kids have a half day... and we plan on doing some serious baking this afternoon!!! Then it is all about count down to Christmas morning!
Oh... I got my first materials (thru email 400page PDF...LOL) about our new diet program!! I am pretty excited about getting that underway. BUT, it is going to have to wait until the start of 2012... just too much going on over the next week.
Geez... I have to sit down and do my 2011 goals in review... and make up my goals for 2012!! I cant believe how fast time flies!!!
Stacy and I will be making some more, new adjustments to our lives! We have mixed feelings on it... it is both sad and exciting.
All kinds of stuff came to a boiling point yesterday... and well, I freely and openly admit I stewed on things until I just jumped on acting. At the same time... I think the reaction Stacy got was grossly over reacted! But... it is what it is. He now sees things and ppl in a different light... and now we move on.
I really wish sitting everyone down together would get to some sort of resolution to the issues we have been having... but I know better. First of all... who wants to take time out of their lives to deal with ex's... let alone ex's of ex's?!?! Just seems a bit ridiculous to me. Second... it's everyone's word against eachother! How do you go about proving someones motives?? Not exactly sure what an attorney can offer to this utter insanity... but hey... whatever floats your boat. You want to waste money on that... go for it.
Just seems kind of bully like to me. And for those reading this... these are my FEELINGS... I am not making ACCUSATIONS against anyone!! There is a HUGE difference. I guess my FEELINGS and OBSERVATIONS tend to hurt others feelings... oh well. Life goes on!
And really... who is the judge and jury we need to prove anything to in regards to any of this?!?! LOL!! It is what it is. These are things we are living.
Ok... I am over it!
Moving on...
I guess we will have to have some tough conversations with the kids over the next few days. Oh joy.
And we have some tough decisions to make as the new year begins as well! We were tossing out some idea's last nite... but, I dont want to make any emotional decisions. We are going to get through the holidays... and then take a look at things.
I know that this time of year is ALWAYS difficult for me... during a good year.
This year I have had more stuff thrown at me then I care to deal with!!! No one takes the time to realize any of that... or to take a few steps in my shoes!!
-Earl passing away... and dealing with my Mom. (Seriously, this has been enough to send me over the edge)
-Taking care of Josh.
-Dealing with Courtney and her daily issues. (and boy, they sure are daily!! I am in constant communication with the school... teachers... etc. Not a day goes by)
-Preparing for her fast approaching graduation and what happens with her next.
-Dealing with Nathan's increasing issues. (Also at least weekly communication with the school... and constant battles at home... that Stacy and I just dont know what to do to deal with them anymore.)
-Ex's that never seem to go away.
-Unsupportive family members who seem to be working AGAINST us.
-Trying to start and build a business... while keeping up with the demand of being a mom and wife.
-The loss of Stacy's grandfather.
-Issue after issue with things in our house... and with things at the other house.
-Trying to maintain and afford two houses.
-Trying to do the right things... and make everyone happy in the process.
IT IS JUST TOO MUCH!
Oh well. I am human. Yes, I should have left well enough alone when Stacy handled things the best he could. But damn... I get so sick of having to ask myself why I am not good enough!!!
Ok... on with my day. I have to clear some space in the kitchen and on the dining room table... so we can BAKE once everyone gets home!!! MAY THE FUN BEGIN!!!
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Life as we know it...
As I have been saying... We have been making a boat load of changes over the recent months. And we still have a bunch to make!!
Our next big change will be our diet. I am starting an entirely new approach to food with the new year. One that will surely make a HUGE difference in my 2 "sensitive" kiddos!! I just hope that these changes can be met with open arms!!
Stacy and I gifted ourselves for Christmas this year... we purchased an entire program for feeding special needs kids. What to feed them... what not to feed them... All PROVEN to make a big difference in their lives, and as a result... OUR lives!! BUT, not only are we putting the kids on the diet... we are ALL going to participate! Because apparently... we can all benefit from it! I am really excited about this...and actually looking forward to it!
I have also been giving a lot of thought lately to our holiday traditions.
I like them! My kids look forward to them! And I am not about to give them up... for anything!!
Friday will be our day to bake. I have EVERYTHING we need... except hershey's kisses. I cant wait to make a mess of our kitchen... and put flour hand prints all over my kids!!! :-)
Christmas Eve will be spent together, finishing up our baking... getting Santa's plate ready. I will bring down our presents... and let it eat away at the kids all evening...LOL! Nathaniel will get to read "Twas the Night Before Christmas"... which was the same book I read as a kid. I will cry... because now my kids are reading it to me... instead of me reading it to them (this happens every year). Carrots will get put out along with Santa's cookies... We will sprinkle our glittery reindeer food out back... and off we will go to bed!
Christmas morning the kids will come crashing down our bedroom door... telling us Santa was here!! Stacy will beg for a few more minutes of sleep... the dogs will join in the kids excitement... LOL!! And before we know it... presents will be unwrapped and the kids will be waiting for their visitors!! :-)
New Years Eve is no different!! I spend EVERY New Years with my kids. I have only ever missed 1 (and a half, I went out after midnite)... and they both sucked BIG TIME!!!
I absolutely LOVE the traditions I have made with my kids! And, I can only hope that they mean as much to them... as they do to me! I want my kids to always know that no matter where they are, or what they are doing... they can always come home for their holidays. And when they are all grown, and have families of their own... I will still be here... proud that they will be creating their own traditions!
It does sadden me that this year... I will only see 3 smiling faces on Christmas morning. Josh has always been able to come back home in the morning... but this year he has to work. :-( At the same time... I am proud of him, and the fact that he has a job... and is stepping up into the world of responsibility! I guess this is what being a mom is all about. Knowing when to let go. Letting them make their own decisions. And trusting that they will figure out for themselves what they want in life, and what will make them happy!
OK... well... I must be getting back to the huge list of things I have to do today.
But before I do... I want to mention that today is the 2nd Birthday of a very special little lady!! Our niece, Alexis!! Goodness... I remember the day she was born... and the craziness that came with it! She sure did kick butt... and showed EVERYONE what she was made of!! And I have a feeling, she isnt done yet!! LOL!!
Our next big change will be our diet. I am starting an entirely new approach to food with the new year. One that will surely make a HUGE difference in my 2 "sensitive" kiddos!! I just hope that these changes can be met with open arms!!
Stacy and I gifted ourselves for Christmas this year... we purchased an entire program for feeding special needs kids. What to feed them... what not to feed them... All PROVEN to make a big difference in their lives, and as a result... OUR lives!! BUT, not only are we putting the kids on the diet... we are ALL going to participate! Because apparently... we can all benefit from it! I am really excited about this...and actually looking forward to it!
I have also been giving a lot of thought lately to our holiday traditions.
I like them! My kids look forward to them! And I am not about to give them up... for anything!!
Friday will be our day to bake. I have EVERYTHING we need... except hershey's kisses. I cant wait to make a mess of our kitchen... and put flour hand prints all over my kids!!! :-)
Christmas Eve will be spent together, finishing up our baking... getting Santa's plate ready. I will bring down our presents... and let it eat away at the kids all evening...LOL! Nathaniel will get to read "Twas the Night Before Christmas"... which was the same book I read as a kid. I will cry... because now my kids are reading it to me... instead of me reading it to them (this happens every year). Carrots will get put out along with Santa's cookies... We will sprinkle our glittery reindeer food out back... and off we will go to bed!
Christmas morning the kids will come crashing down our bedroom door... telling us Santa was here!! Stacy will beg for a few more minutes of sleep... the dogs will join in the kids excitement... LOL!! And before we know it... presents will be unwrapped and the kids will be waiting for their visitors!! :-)
New Years Eve is no different!! I spend EVERY New Years with my kids. I have only ever missed 1 (and a half, I went out after midnite)... and they both sucked BIG TIME!!!
I absolutely LOVE the traditions I have made with my kids! And, I can only hope that they mean as much to them... as they do to me! I want my kids to always know that no matter where they are, or what they are doing... they can always come home for their holidays. And when they are all grown, and have families of their own... I will still be here... proud that they will be creating their own traditions!
It does sadden me that this year... I will only see 3 smiling faces on Christmas morning. Josh has always been able to come back home in the morning... but this year he has to work. :-( At the same time... I am proud of him, and the fact that he has a job... and is stepping up into the world of responsibility! I guess this is what being a mom is all about. Knowing when to let go. Letting them make their own decisions. And trusting that they will figure out for themselves what they want in life, and what will make them happy!
OK... well... I must be getting back to the huge list of things I have to do today.
But before I do... I want to mention that today is the 2nd Birthday of a very special little lady!! Our niece, Alexis!! Goodness... I remember the day she was born... and the craziness that came with it! She sure did kick butt... and showed EVERYONE what she was made of!! And I have a feeling, she isnt done yet!! LOL!!
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Getting close...
Here we are.... TUESDAY.... just 5 short days away from Christmas!
I ran out of wrapping paper yesterday... so I didnt get everything wrapped. I will have to make a trip to the zoo... I mean walmart. Britt asked me to pick something up for her anyway.
Ya know... I have really been trying hard to take in all of what Joyce Meyer has to say. I am trying to learn from her... and become a better person.
I just wish I could sit down and talk to her. I would LOVE to hear her advice on how to deal with the people and crap I am forced to deal with daily. Stalkers, Liars, People on a mission to ruin my marriage... UGH! How in the hell do you go into the holidays able to look at these people?!?!
I was told once... If I see it, EVERYONE sees it... WELL, WE ALL SEE IT!!! So knock it off already!
Stacy and I will just stick with the traditions we have set with our kids... and let everything else happen as it will. I know we will have some happy kiddos!! :-) I am a bit upset that Stacy went against our agreement NOT to gift for eachother this year... GRRR! I know he sees his tractor as his gift... but geez! I really dont need anything either... I have an awesomely amazing truck!
Oh well... I really need to get on with my day. I am a really bad case of selective motivation today!! I guess it doesnt help that I am costantly trying to fight the bullshit!
UGH!! Just an hour, Joyce... just an hour of your time! PLEASE!!!
Only 5 days to go!
I ran out of wrapping paper yesterday... so I didnt get everything wrapped. I will have to make a trip to the zoo... I mean walmart. Britt asked me to pick something up for her anyway.
Ya know... I have really been trying hard to take in all of what Joyce Meyer has to say. I am trying to learn from her... and become a better person.
I just wish I could sit down and talk to her. I would LOVE to hear her advice on how to deal with the people and crap I am forced to deal with daily. Stalkers, Liars, People on a mission to ruin my marriage... UGH! How in the hell do you go into the holidays able to look at these people?!?!
I was told once... If I see it, EVERYONE sees it... WELL, WE ALL SEE IT!!! So knock it off already!
Stacy and I will just stick with the traditions we have set with our kids... and let everything else happen as it will. I know we will have some happy kiddos!! :-) I am a bit upset that Stacy went against our agreement NOT to gift for eachother this year... GRRR! I know he sees his tractor as his gift... but geez! I really dont need anything either... I have an awesomely amazing truck!
Oh well... I really need to get on with my day. I am a really bad case of selective motivation today!! I guess it doesnt help that I am costantly trying to fight the bullshit!
UGH!! Just an hour, Joyce... just an hour of your time! PLEASE!!!
Only 5 days to go!
Monday, December 19, 2011
Random Thoughts from a LOONNGG Weekend!
Stacy and I finished up ALL of our Christmas shopping this weekend!! I am soooo happy about that!! It was nice to spend the weekend with him... and not have to deal with the insanity on my own! LOL!!
So... here is my randomness from the weekend...in no particular order...
-Why does this time of year bring out ALL of the crazies?!?! Ppl with ZERO manners... Ppl who cant drive... Ppl who want to cough and sneeze all over me...?!?!?! USE THE INTERNET!!! UGH!
OR...maybe this year brings out the crazy in most ppl.
I swear... some of these ppl dont venture out of their house any other day of the year... but the weekend before Christmas!
-Why is it that I have 1 kid that is SUPER easy to find gifts for... and the rest arent!?!? I could go into ANY store and find something for this one kiddo of mine. Which is a problem... because then I end up adding to that kids pile... and stuck scrambling to make it even for the others!!! UGH! LMAO
-How did I get so lucky to have such an awesome husband?!? I mean seriously... he is GREAT! I cant believe that we are coming up on our 3rd anniversary!! Where did the time go??? I swear... he is the main reason I tolerate this time of year so much better!
-Why does this time of year bring out the worst in some ppl?? I cant even stand to watch the news! All kinds of ppl stealing... murdering... etc... UGH!!
-Since when did Christmas become such a racket?? It is about the KIDS, ppl!!!
OK... that was my rant from an insane weekend of shopping! NOW... the fun part... WRAPPING it all!!! LMAO!! I am hoping to get most of that done today, in between loads of laundry!
This is going to be such an insane week!!
-Our niece turns 2 on Wednesday!!
-I have to get Courtney to the School District's Board meeting.
-The kids and I have to do our Christmas cookies.
-Plus all of the other traditions we take part in!
I LOVE making memories with my kids. I have very few with my mother... but a bunch with my grandparents. I have always been big on making memories!!
So... here is my randomness from the weekend...in no particular order...
-Why does this time of year bring out ALL of the crazies?!?! Ppl with ZERO manners... Ppl who cant drive... Ppl who want to cough and sneeze all over me...?!?!?! USE THE INTERNET!!! UGH!
OR...maybe this year brings out the crazy in most ppl.
I swear... some of these ppl dont venture out of their house any other day of the year... but the weekend before Christmas!
-Why is it that I have 1 kid that is SUPER easy to find gifts for... and the rest arent!?!? I could go into ANY store and find something for this one kiddo of mine. Which is a problem... because then I end up adding to that kids pile... and stuck scrambling to make it even for the others!!! UGH! LMAO
-How did I get so lucky to have such an awesome husband?!? I mean seriously... he is GREAT! I cant believe that we are coming up on our 3rd anniversary!! Where did the time go??? I swear... he is the main reason I tolerate this time of year so much better!
-Why does this time of year bring out the worst in some ppl?? I cant even stand to watch the news! All kinds of ppl stealing... murdering... etc... UGH!!
-Since when did Christmas become such a racket?? It is about the KIDS, ppl!!!
OK... that was my rant from an insane weekend of shopping! NOW... the fun part... WRAPPING it all!!! LMAO!! I am hoping to get most of that done today, in between loads of laundry!
This is going to be such an insane week!!
-Our niece turns 2 on Wednesday!!
-I have to get Courtney to the School District's Board meeting.
-The kids and I have to do our Christmas cookies.
-Plus all of the other traditions we take part in!
I LOVE making memories with my kids. I have very few with my mother... but a bunch with my grandparents. I have always been big on making memories!!
Friday, December 16, 2011
Interesting
This is a first... trying to blog from my Kindle! My laptop is down with some network issues...so I'm trying to make do. It's different! LOL
I had a success with bread making last nite! It was super yummy!! I hope this is the start of a new trend for me...in bread making!
I'm a bit behind on my to-do list so far today. Decided to wait for Stacy...since he is only working 8 hrs today. He and I can run errands together.
Ok....I miss my laptop! I will have to blog later.
I had a success with bread making last nite! It was super yummy!! I hope this is the start of a new trend for me...in bread making!
I'm a bit behind on my to-do list so far today. Decided to wait for Stacy...since he is only working 8 hrs today. He and I can run errands together.
Ok....I miss my laptop! I will have to blog later.
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Back into routine...
Today is Stacy's first day back to work. The kids and I have gotten use to having him around. So... we are going to have to try to get back into our routine! My sleep is all out of sorts!! We were in bed by 8:30 last nite... asleep by 9. I was up and wide awake at 3 this morning. UGH!
Sprocket is healing nicely. He has his spunk back... that is for sure. That damn cone is a deadly weapon!!! Poor thing. The other dogs keep trying to break him free from the cone... it is hilarious!
We made some changes to the outside dog run. We took up the stall mats... and laid down pea gravel. With all the freakin rain we seem to get now... we need something with better drainage. The dogs seem to have made the adjustment rather nicely.
Today I have to get together my dinner plans for next week... and do some grocery shopping. I also have to finish up a few odds and ends Christmas shopping. I WAS done... until I decided to add a few little things. Typical me! LOL!
I also have to take today to try to shake the 'icky' I have been feeling. Not an 'icky'... Im getting sick feeling. More of an 'icky'... I have had to deal with too much and too many crazies lately!
Between the stalker sighting... and the shit my mom pulled.... UGH!
I feel sorry for them. My mom is posting left and right about her stupid ass cats... one would think she would rather spend time with ppl, like her grandchildren... and have fun stories to tell about them!! NOPE... typical. She wants nothing to do with us... just for us to come to the rescue with a place for her to live. And apparently... that place isnt good enough! Yep... that is my "mother"... some ppl with NEVER change...no matter what. Perfect.
All I can say... I sure hope she starts looking for a job soon.
Back to POSTIVES!!
I cant believe that Christmas is 10 days away!!! I have decided on making lasagna for our Christmas dinner!! Stacy and the kids LOVE it... and it is quick and easy! Sounds like a good plan to me!!
I think today I will make another attempt at a new bread recipe! If you know me... you know that me and bread making do NOT go good together (which is why I really need a new bread machine!!!) But... I think I will try again... which I always do! LOL! I just make no promises on the end result!! ;-)
Bunnies are still all doing really good!! We have some hits on some other bunnies for sale... I am just not real sure I want to take on any more.
Speaking of bunnies... they seem to be thankful that we havent had any real accumulation of snow yet. They like their time out in the corals... grazing on grass! And boy, do they do a great job of keeping the grass down. I guess I just need to move the corals all over the yard... and they can be living lawn mowers! LOL!! The kids and I LOVE watching them do their "happy hops"!! It makes us all giggle! LOL
OHHHH... Courtney was accepted into the CBVI program!! I am soooooooo HAPPY about this!!! It is a Community Based Vocational Instruction. It means she is assigned a job coach... and that coach takes her out to various job situations... and Courtney gets to experience different work situations WITH the job coach by her side. Then they see how she does...offer any support she needs... and they can see what situations she does better or worse in. IT IS A GREAT OPPORTUNITY!!! What is even better... if she does well at one of the job placements... the business could offer her an actual JOB there for her to KEEP!!! I am soooooooo excited about this. Needless to say... Courtney isnt. BUT, we expected that. I know she will be happy about it later on.
Courtney had a hard time going back into school yesterday... after Pappy George's funeral. She made MANY trips to the nurse. The ES teacher and I kind of figured it would be a rough day for Courtney, back at school. She really took saying "goodbye" to Pappy George hard!
OK... I think that is all I have for now. Nathan is heading out the door... and I am heading to PEACE and QUIET!! First day I have had the house to myself in a week!
Hoping to catch up on chit chatting with my friends, while getting laundry done. THEN on to my errands!
Now... only if the sun would pop out... THEN today could potentially be damn close to perfect! :-)
Sprocket is healing nicely. He has his spunk back... that is for sure. That damn cone is a deadly weapon!!! Poor thing. The other dogs keep trying to break him free from the cone... it is hilarious!
We made some changes to the outside dog run. We took up the stall mats... and laid down pea gravel. With all the freakin rain we seem to get now... we need something with better drainage. The dogs seem to have made the adjustment rather nicely.
Today I have to get together my dinner plans for next week... and do some grocery shopping. I also have to finish up a few odds and ends Christmas shopping. I WAS done... until I decided to add a few little things. Typical me! LOL!
I also have to take today to try to shake the 'icky' I have been feeling. Not an 'icky'... Im getting sick feeling. More of an 'icky'... I have had to deal with too much and too many crazies lately!
Between the stalker sighting... and the shit my mom pulled.... UGH!
I feel sorry for them. My mom is posting left and right about her stupid ass cats... one would think she would rather spend time with ppl, like her grandchildren... and have fun stories to tell about them!! NOPE... typical. She wants nothing to do with us... just for us to come to the rescue with a place for her to live. And apparently... that place isnt good enough! Yep... that is my "mother"... some ppl with NEVER change...no matter what. Perfect.
All I can say... I sure hope she starts looking for a job soon.
Back to POSTIVES!!
I cant believe that Christmas is 10 days away!!! I have decided on making lasagna for our Christmas dinner!! Stacy and the kids LOVE it... and it is quick and easy! Sounds like a good plan to me!!
I think today I will make another attempt at a new bread recipe! If you know me... you know that me and bread making do NOT go good together (which is why I really need a new bread machine!!!) But... I think I will try again... which I always do! LOL! I just make no promises on the end result!! ;-)
Bunnies are still all doing really good!! We have some hits on some other bunnies for sale... I am just not real sure I want to take on any more.
Speaking of bunnies... they seem to be thankful that we havent had any real accumulation of snow yet. They like their time out in the corals... grazing on grass! And boy, do they do a great job of keeping the grass down. I guess I just need to move the corals all over the yard... and they can be living lawn mowers! LOL!! The kids and I LOVE watching them do their "happy hops"!! It makes us all giggle! LOL
OHHHH... Courtney was accepted into the CBVI program!! I am soooooooo HAPPY about this!!! It is a Community Based Vocational Instruction. It means she is assigned a job coach... and that coach takes her out to various job situations... and Courtney gets to experience different work situations WITH the job coach by her side. Then they see how she does...offer any support she needs... and they can see what situations she does better or worse in. IT IS A GREAT OPPORTUNITY!!! What is even better... if she does well at one of the job placements... the business could offer her an actual JOB there for her to KEEP!!! I am soooooooo excited about this. Needless to say... Courtney isnt. BUT, we expected that. I know she will be happy about it later on.
Courtney had a hard time going back into school yesterday... after Pappy George's funeral. She made MANY trips to the nurse. The ES teacher and I kind of figured it would be a rough day for Courtney, back at school. She really took saying "goodbye" to Pappy George hard!
OK... I think that is all I have for now. Nathan is heading out the door... and I am heading to PEACE and QUIET!! First day I have had the house to myself in a week!
Hoping to catch up on chit chatting with my friends, while getting laundry done. THEN on to my errands!
Now... only if the sun would pop out... THEN today could potentially be damn close to perfect! :-)
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Sad day...
Yesterday was such a sad day. But at the same time... It made me realize so much.
I am very proud of ALL of my kids. They behaved very well. And Josh really stepped up to do his part in the services. I KNOW that wasnt easy for him.
Family is sooo much more than blood. I already knew this. Yesterday was just another one of those "see" moments!
Pap's funeral went as expected. It was nice to hear all of the memories being shared... not so nice that everyone had to say their goodbyes.
The gathering after was also nice.
Stacy and I realized that "cease and desist" letters mean absolutely nothing to some people. It has been a bit since we have heard or seen his stalker... I knew it was too good to be true. Stacy looked at me and asked ME why someone who hasnt been around for 10 yrs felt the need to show up... I just have no answers for him. Then he began thinking and knows someone put the info in her ear. I have just decided to let it go. I am just hoping things continue to go in the right direction, even with this latest bump. I think it is sad... and clearly the person needs some professional help. Rest assured... if the harrassment starts back up... we will follow through on the actions we stated in the original letter!! I WILL NOT live that crap again!! Freakin crazies!
After we got done with the family stuff... we came home. I immediately started doctoring a migraine. One that would NOT go away... and I still have lingering! Then it was off to pick up my Sprocket-Man! He had some life altering surgery yesterday... and is recovering nicely.
Once we picked him up... we set on an adventure to find the Bison farm! Yes, I want to try bison meat. I read that it is SUPER healthy. We found it... but have no idea if they have a "store"...or when it is open. Of course... no website either.
Last nite was Nathan's Christmas concert. His first trumpet performance!! He had quite a turn out in his personal audience!! Grammy, Pappy, Meemaw, Pop, Josh, Jason, Carrey, Lexi, Aunt Pami, Nona and Aunt Teauni!! He was very happy to see everyone. Everyone seemed to enjoy themselves...Especially Lexi! She was too cute!! Dancing her lil heart out! LOL
Oh... I niece-napped her before the show. Her and I walked the halls of the middle school for a little bit...checking out all of the artwork on the walls... and the Christmas decorations! We had some nice chit chat... mainly about the gum I was chewing! LOL! Soooo freakin cute!!
Of course my mother didnt show up. No surprise there. Before her excuse was that she lived too far away... now she comes up with new excuses. Perfect. She is what she is... and I am just completely done with the bullshit. She wonders why NONE of her grandkids are particularly fond of her... WELL... maybe she should look at herself in the mirror! Even Courtney thought her cat excuse was ridiculous! Oh well. I can only do so much. THEN... to hear she wants to cry that the kids dont like her... HELLLLOOO!?!?! Seriously?!?!
I just refuse to listen to the shit anymore. I am sick of what we are providing for her NOT being good enough! I am tired of the phone calls... complaining about something or another. And the calls from my grandfather wanting to rig something up in the house to make her happy! NOOOOO!!!! It is what it is... either deal with it... or move out. I swear... ungrateful doesnt even begin to describe it!! I have been pushed to my limit now.
By the end of yesterday I had a killer migraine! Lexi made it a little easier to deal with for a few minutes. Which I completely appreciated!! The little squirt is gonna be 2 next week!
I went straight home and got into bed... Stacy got the kids to bed for me... and brought up my meds and stuff. I have no idea what I would do without him!!
I was up bright and early this morning... getting the kids ready and out the door... and getting my shop day started. We had some of the sweetest dogs come in today!! I really enjoyed having Stacy here today too. He LOVED the husky we had today!
Well... I guess that is all I have for now. Time to start homework hell! Then do it all over again tomorrow!
I am very proud of ALL of my kids. They behaved very well. And Josh really stepped up to do his part in the services. I KNOW that wasnt easy for him.
Family is sooo much more than blood. I already knew this. Yesterday was just another one of those "see" moments!
Pap's funeral went as expected. It was nice to hear all of the memories being shared... not so nice that everyone had to say their goodbyes.
The gathering after was also nice.
Stacy and I realized that "cease and desist" letters mean absolutely nothing to some people. It has been a bit since we have heard or seen his stalker... I knew it was too good to be true. Stacy looked at me and asked ME why someone who hasnt been around for 10 yrs felt the need to show up... I just have no answers for him. Then he began thinking and knows someone put the info in her ear. I have just decided to let it go. I am just hoping things continue to go in the right direction, even with this latest bump. I think it is sad... and clearly the person needs some professional help. Rest assured... if the harrassment starts back up... we will follow through on the actions we stated in the original letter!! I WILL NOT live that crap again!! Freakin crazies!
After we got done with the family stuff... we came home. I immediately started doctoring a migraine. One that would NOT go away... and I still have lingering! Then it was off to pick up my Sprocket-Man! He had some life altering surgery yesterday... and is recovering nicely.
Once we picked him up... we set on an adventure to find the Bison farm! Yes, I want to try bison meat. I read that it is SUPER healthy. We found it... but have no idea if they have a "store"...or when it is open. Of course... no website either.
Last nite was Nathan's Christmas concert. His first trumpet performance!! He had quite a turn out in his personal audience!! Grammy, Pappy, Meemaw, Pop, Josh, Jason, Carrey, Lexi, Aunt Pami, Nona and Aunt Teauni!! He was very happy to see everyone. Everyone seemed to enjoy themselves...Especially Lexi! She was too cute!! Dancing her lil heart out! LOL
Oh... I niece-napped her before the show. Her and I walked the halls of the middle school for a little bit...checking out all of the artwork on the walls... and the Christmas decorations! We had some nice chit chat... mainly about the gum I was chewing! LOL! Soooo freakin cute!!
Of course my mother didnt show up. No surprise there. Before her excuse was that she lived too far away... now she comes up with new excuses. Perfect. She is what she is... and I am just completely done with the bullshit. She wonders why NONE of her grandkids are particularly fond of her... WELL... maybe she should look at herself in the mirror! Even Courtney thought her cat excuse was ridiculous! Oh well. I can only do so much. THEN... to hear she wants to cry that the kids dont like her... HELLLLOOO!?!?! Seriously?!?!
I just refuse to listen to the shit anymore. I am sick of what we are providing for her NOT being good enough! I am tired of the phone calls... complaining about something or another. And the calls from my grandfather wanting to rig something up in the house to make her happy! NOOOOO!!!! It is what it is... either deal with it... or move out. I swear... ungrateful doesnt even begin to describe it!! I have been pushed to my limit now.
By the end of yesterday I had a killer migraine! Lexi made it a little easier to deal with for a few minutes. Which I completely appreciated!! The little squirt is gonna be 2 next week!
I went straight home and got into bed... Stacy got the kids to bed for me... and brought up my meds and stuff. I have no idea what I would do without him!!
I was up bright and early this morning... getting the kids ready and out the door... and getting my shop day started. We had some of the sweetest dogs come in today!! I really enjoyed having Stacy here today too. He LOVED the husky we had today!
Well... I guess that is all I have for now. Time to start homework hell! Then do it all over again tomorrow!
Monday, December 12, 2011
Trying...
I have been pretty busy... A LOT has happened in the past few days. And, as usually, I am trying to keep it all together around here.
Stacy's grandfather passed away Thursday nite. VERY sad!!! The world lost an awesome man... and heaven gained an awesome angel!
Obviously, it has been an emotional past few days.
In addition to that... We have had some stressful things going on with the kids.
Courtney has been pretty trying of my patience... and I'm not even sure what to think of Nathan lately!
I wont get into details right now... I dont want to relive it. And I am sure, since it is Monday... there will be more 'antics' right around the corner!
Tomorrow is going to be an INSANE day!!! Funeral Services for Pap. Sprocket goes in for his surgery. Nathan's Christmas concert is in the evening. UGH!!! My head will be spinning by the end of the day... that is for sure.
I guess that about sums up the past few days. I dont have much to say about them... because I have soooo much to say about them that I just cant get it all out in a way that would make sense! LOL!
So... I will just leave things at that... and if I find some time today... I will get it all written out. But for now... I have to do my morning battle with Nathan. The girls are already out the door.
Enjoy the sunny day... and try to stay warm!
Stacy's grandfather passed away Thursday nite. VERY sad!!! The world lost an awesome man... and heaven gained an awesome angel!
Obviously, it has been an emotional past few days.
In addition to that... We have had some stressful things going on with the kids.
Courtney has been pretty trying of my patience... and I'm not even sure what to think of Nathan lately!
I wont get into details right now... I dont want to relive it. And I am sure, since it is Monday... there will be more 'antics' right around the corner!
Tomorrow is going to be an INSANE day!!! Funeral Services for Pap. Sprocket goes in for his surgery. Nathan's Christmas concert is in the evening. UGH!!! My head will be spinning by the end of the day... that is for sure.
I guess that about sums up the past few days. I dont have much to say about them... because I have soooo much to say about them that I just cant get it all out in a way that would make sense! LOL!
So... I will just leave things at that... and if I find some time today... I will get it all written out. But for now... I have to do my morning battle with Nathan. The girls are already out the door.
Enjoy the sunny day... and try to stay warm!
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Fetch
I think there should be a spot in the Genius Book of World Records for me!!! Most time spent playing fetch and multi tasking while doing it!!! I am just THAT good...ask Gunner!!!
Right now... I am blogging and playing fetch... AND talking on the phone with Courtney's school nurse! Go figure... not even 7:30 and Courtney is in the nurses office! WTH?!? UGH!
Oh... and I am dealing with Nathan's nasty attitude. He apparently seems to think he is entitled to things... and can treat ppl like crap! NOT!!! He may be in for a rude awakening when he gets up Christmas morning to NO presents under the tree. YES, I AM THAT MEAN!
Anyway...
Britt is home sick today. Had to run her down to the pediatrician's office last nite. She is still on the antibiotics from her strep throat last week. But of course... my kid picks up EVERYTHING there is out there!!
They think it is some sort of secondary viral infection. So, we have to just keep on the same antibiotics and give it a few days to see if it works out. Poor kid. The good thing is... her fever broke during the nite... now it is mainly her throat that is bothering her.
I think I will spend my day cooking today. I want to finally make the chili I have been talking about making... and the beef/veggie stew.
I made it to the grocery store last nite... after I picked Courtney up from tutoring.
OH... on the way home from the Dr's office last nite with Britt... we were in Halifax. It was snowing like crazy and lightening!!! I have NEVER seen that happen before!!!
OK... I am getting sick of playing fetch!!! LOL Time to hide the toys. Geez... can we say OBSESSED DOG!?!
After much thinking... and talking. And with going with the my "changes" for this year. I have come to the conclusion that there are only 2 things I really want for Christmas this year... Weis/Walmart Gift Cards... and a new, updated bread maching. My break maching is ANCIENT... and I am limited to what I can do with it. Obviously, I make due with what I have... but it would be nice to have a new one. I have been looking for some time at them... Walmart just doesnt have a good selection... and I cant bring myself to spend the money.
I would much rather have the gift cards... so my gift would actually be not having to stress over grocery money for a change! LOL!! That would be an AWESOME gift!!! And yes, the bread machine is partially selfish... but would also benefit my family!
I am already feeling less stressed this year... with just the few changes I have made already. Doing away with the Christmas cards is a huge weight lifted!! Not going all crazy on gifts was also a HUGE weight lifted!! I can seriously go into every holiday season like this!!!
Ok... well... I guess I should really get started on my day. I have a bunch I want to get accomplished. I may even make stuffed peppers and freeze them to have for dinner a day next week!
Maybe I can get the boxes of Christmas lights out of our living room today. I am sick of them blocking our tree!
Right now... I am blogging and playing fetch... AND talking on the phone with Courtney's school nurse! Go figure... not even 7:30 and Courtney is in the nurses office! WTH?!? UGH!
Oh... and I am dealing with Nathan's nasty attitude. He apparently seems to think he is entitled to things... and can treat ppl like crap! NOT!!! He may be in for a rude awakening when he gets up Christmas morning to NO presents under the tree. YES, I AM THAT MEAN!
Anyway...
Britt is home sick today. Had to run her down to the pediatrician's office last nite. She is still on the antibiotics from her strep throat last week. But of course... my kid picks up EVERYTHING there is out there!!
They think it is some sort of secondary viral infection. So, we have to just keep on the same antibiotics and give it a few days to see if it works out. Poor kid. The good thing is... her fever broke during the nite... now it is mainly her throat that is bothering her.
I think I will spend my day cooking today. I want to finally make the chili I have been talking about making... and the beef/veggie stew.
I made it to the grocery store last nite... after I picked Courtney up from tutoring.
OH... on the way home from the Dr's office last nite with Britt... we were in Halifax. It was snowing like crazy and lightening!!! I have NEVER seen that happen before!!!
OK... I am getting sick of playing fetch!!! LOL Time to hide the toys. Geez... can we say OBSESSED DOG!?!
After much thinking... and talking. And with going with the my "changes" for this year. I have come to the conclusion that there are only 2 things I really want for Christmas this year... Weis/Walmart Gift Cards... and a new, updated bread maching. My break maching is ANCIENT... and I am limited to what I can do with it. Obviously, I make due with what I have... but it would be nice to have a new one. I have been looking for some time at them... Walmart just doesnt have a good selection... and I cant bring myself to spend the money.
I would much rather have the gift cards... so my gift would actually be not having to stress over grocery money for a change! LOL!! That would be an AWESOME gift!!! And yes, the bread machine is partially selfish... but would also benefit my family!
I am already feeling less stressed this year... with just the few changes I have made already. Doing away with the Christmas cards is a huge weight lifted!! Not going all crazy on gifts was also a HUGE weight lifted!! I can seriously go into every holiday season like this!!!
Ok... well... I guess I should really get started on my day. I have a bunch I want to get accomplished. I may even make stuffed peppers and freeze them to have for dinner a day next week!
Maybe I can get the boxes of Christmas lights out of our living room today. I am sick of them blocking our tree!
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Just doing some research...
Obviously... I was in a bad place last week this time. Since those "dark" days... I have been doing some research and trying to find ways to eliminate the stress I deal with daily.
Now, I havent really blogged about my actions on eliminating stress... only because I am still in the planning stages. But believe me... more changes and downsizing is coming! (For example--this year I am NOT doing Christmas cards.)
Anyway... I stumbled across this a few days ago... actually while flipping through radio stations in my truck. I hit a religious channel where the man was talking about this. I came home and searched it.
It is the "Holmes and Rahe Stress Scale"
(Anything over 200 (according the radio show) is hazardeous to your heath...)
In 1967, psychiatrists Thomas Holmes and Richard Rahe examined the medical records of over 5,000 medical patients as a way to determine whether stressful events might cause illnesses. Patients were asked to tally a list of 43 life events based on a relative score.
Rahe carried out a study in 1970 testing the reliability of the stress scale as a predictor of illness. The scale was given to 2,500 US sailors and they were asked to rate scores of 'life events' over the previous six months. Over the next six months, detailed records were kept of the sailors' health.
Here are the 43 things... and the "points" assigned to each (for adults, yes, there is a scale for children too)...
So... according to my point accomulated... I am screwed!! And where on this list does it give a point value to living with a special needs kid... or multiple special needs kids...?? Or dealing with a "grown" child that doesnt realize they have issues...?? Or having a husband that rarely speaks up when he should...?? OR just daily stress of running a household (grocery shopping, paying bills, running kids all over they need to go, etc...)???
And just to put this out there... when making decisions in life... realize that things DO affect children... along with just things that child has going on...
Now, I havent really blogged about my actions on eliminating stress... only because I am still in the planning stages. But believe me... more changes and downsizing is coming! (For example--this year I am NOT doing Christmas cards.)
Anyway... I stumbled across this a few days ago... actually while flipping through radio stations in my truck. I hit a religious channel where the man was talking about this. I came home and searched it.
It is the "Holmes and Rahe Stress Scale"
(Anything over 200 (according the radio show) is hazardeous to your heath...)
In 1967, psychiatrists Thomas Holmes and Richard Rahe examined the medical records of over 5,000 medical patients as a way to determine whether stressful events might cause illnesses. Patients were asked to tally a list of 43 life events based on a relative score.
Rahe carried out a study in 1970 testing the reliability of the stress scale as a predictor of illness. The scale was given to 2,500 US sailors and they were asked to rate scores of 'life events' over the previous six months. Over the next six months, detailed records were kept of the sailors' health.
Here are the 43 things... and the "points" assigned to each (for adults, yes, there is a scale for children too)...
| Life event | Life change units |
|---|---|
| Death of a spouse | 100 |
| Divorce | 73 |
| Marital separation | 65 |
| Imprisonment | 63 |
| Death of a close family member | 63 |
| Personal injury or illness | 53 |
| Marriage | 50 |
| Dismissal from work | 47 |
| Marital reconciliation | 45 |
| Retirement | 45 |
| Change in health of family member | 44 |
| Pregnancy | 40 |
| Sexual difficulties | 39 |
| Gain a new family member | 39 |
| Business readjustment | 39 |
| Change in financial state | 38 |
| Death of a close friend | 37 |
| Change to different line of work | 36 |
| Change in frequency of arguments | 35 |
| Major mortgage | 32 |
| Foreclosure of mortgage or loan | 30 |
| Change in responsibilities at work | 29 |
| Child leaving home | 29 |
| Trouble with in-laws | 29 |
| Outstanding personal achievement | 28 |
| Spouse starts or stops work | 26 |
| Begin or end school | 26 |
| Change in living conditions | 25 |
| Revision of personal habits | 24 |
| Trouble with boss | 23 |
| Change in working hours or conditions | 20 |
| Change in residence | 20 |
| Change in schools | 20 |
| Change in recreation | 19 |
| Change in church activities | 19 |
| Change in social activities | 18 |
| Minor mortgage or loan | 17 |
| Change in sleeping habits | 16 |
| Change in number of family reunions | 15 |
| Change in eating habits | 15 |
| Vacation | 13 |
| Christmas | 12 |
| Minor violation of law | 11 |
So... according to my point accomulated... I am screwed!! And where on this list does it give a point value to living with a special needs kid... or multiple special needs kids...?? Or dealing with a "grown" child that doesnt realize they have issues...?? Or having a husband that rarely speaks up when he should...?? OR just daily stress of running a household (grocery shopping, paying bills, running kids all over they need to go, etc...)???
And just to put this out there... when making decisions in life... realize that things DO affect children... along with just things that child has going on...
| Life Event | Life Change Units |
|---|---|
| Death of parent | 100 |
| Unplanned pregnancy/abortion | 100 |
| Getting married | 95 |
| Divorce of parents | 90 |
| Acquiring a visible deformity | 80 |
| Fathering a child | 70 |
| Jail sentence of parent for over one year | 70 |
| Marital separation of parents | 69 |
| Death of a brother or sister | 68 |
| Change in acceptance by peers | 67 |
| Unplanned pregnancy of sister | 64 |
| Discovery of being an adopted child | 63 |
| Marriage of parent to stepparent | 63 |
| Death of a close friend | 63 |
| Having a visible congenital deformity | 62 |
| Serious illness requiring hospitalization | 58 |
| Failure of a grade in school | 56 |
| Not making an extracurricular activity | 55 |
| Hospitalization of a parent | 55 |
| Jail sentence of parent for over 30 days | 53 |
| Breaking up with boyfriend or girlfriend | 53 |
| Beginning to date | 51 |
| Suspension from school | 50 |
| Becoming involved with drugs or alcohol | 50 |
| Birth of a brother or sister | 50 |
| Increase in arguments between parents | 47 |
| Loss of job by parent | 46 |
| Outstanding personal achievement | 46 |
| Change in parent's financial status | 45 |
| Accepted at college of choice | 43 |
| Being a senior in high school | 42 |
| Hospitalization of a sibling | 41 |
| Increased absence of parent from home | 38 |
| Brother or sister leaving home | 37 |
| Addition of third adult to family | 34 |
| Becoming a full fledged member of a church | 31 |
| Decrease in arguments between parents | 27 |
| Decrease in arguments with parents | 26 |
| Mother or father beginning work | 26 |
Accomplished
I have been able to get so much accomplished, in regards to Christmas shopping!!
We are taking a different approach on Christmas this year. The changes started with our tree... and will continue all the way to Christmas day.
I have decided to take a more laid back approach to Christmas this year. I will be doing whatever cooking I decide on Christmas Eve... and Christmas day will be spent doing stuff with my hubby and the kids! Playing with whatever new toys Santa blesses us with!
There will be no rushing around... the one thing that will stay the same is my refusal to leave the house. I hate rushing around to visit on Christmas... always have! I just wont do it. The kids always want to play with their new things... and it just makes everyone cranky... including me. I have never been one to leave our house on Christmas.
Obviously, whomever wants to see the kids... are welcome to stop in.
As for gifts... I am just about COMPLETELY done!!! I have a few odds and ends to pick up yet. But that is it.
I also have to finish my "crafty" gift for everyone. That is how I roll... I make gifts every year... along with an ornament. I will admit... I am behind on the ornament this year. I havent been able to decide on one to make. But, I still have some time... It will get done. As for everyone's gift... I have all the parts needed... just need to figure out the "how" now... LOL!
Other things I need to deal with today...
Paying Josh's bills... Dont get me started on that subject.
Dealing with Courtney's deadbeat. He has decided to fight the fact that she is still in highschool... AND that she has Autism!! Hmmm... I cant wait to see how he tries to prove these things... because I have plenty of proof that she is still in HS and indeed DOES have Autism! LOL! What a LOSER!!
I am so sick of him making her be all about money! He is just THAT pathetic... he will NEVER understand how awesome she is! His loss... She has an awesome father, Stacy.
I HAVE to go to the grocery store!!!!! I have been putting it off for days! LOL!! I WILL go today... before the "blizzard" hits! LMAO!
3-5 inches tonite... hope everyone is ready!
I want to make chili tonite... and beef/veggie stew.
I also have to get Courtney's broken phone... and the Dish receivers sent back.
Ohhhh.... let me tell you how much I LOVE our Kindle Fire!! Last nite Stacy and I curled up and watched Jeff Dunham's Christmas special on it!! FREE! We laughed our asses off...!!
All of my previously purchased Kindle books were immediately downloaded onto it... which is awesome!! Since halfway through my last book... the kindle app on my phone stopped working!!! It even knew where I was in the book... and had all of my highlighted info still highlighted!!! Ok, Yes... maybe I sound like I am from the stone age right now...LMAO! The kids even seems to like it. I cant wait to start getting my magazines on it!!! NO MORE magazine clutter in our house!!!
Oh, in case I havent mentioned it...
A weird virus of some sort wiped out ALL of our chinchillas!! :-(
I am not sure how they got it... or where it came from. But, it took them all. I am soooo NOT happy about that. We had quite the investment in our herd... so it is pretty devistating that they all got taken out with no real warning and nothing we could do about it. Antibiotics didnt help at all.
At this point... I dont think we will be starting over. We will just stick to our bunnies for now.
OK... kids all off to school... time for me to get to my "to-do" list!! First thing... I have to run throught the house turning off every single light... apparently I never taught my kids how to turn OFF light switches!! UGH.
We are taking a different approach on Christmas this year. The changes started with our tree... and will continue all the way to Christmas day.
I have decided to take a more laid back approach to Christmas this year. I will be doing whatever cooking I decide on Christmas Eve... and Christmas day will be spent doing stuff with my hubby and the kids! Playing with whatever new toys Santa blesses us with!
There will be no rushing around... the one thing that will stay the same is my refusal to leave the house. I hate rushing around to visit on Christmas... always have! I just wont do it. The kids always want to play with their new things... and it just makes everyone cranky... including me. I have never been one to leave our house on Christmas.
Obviously, whomever wants to see the kids... are welcome to stop in.
As for gifts... I am just about COMPLETELY done!!! I have a few odds and ends to pick up yet. But that is it.
I also have to finish my "crafty" gift for everyone. That is how I roll... I make gifts every year... along with an ornament. I will admit... I am behind on the ornament this year. I havent been able to decide on one to make. But, I still have some time... It will get done. As for everyone's gift... I have all the parts needed... just need to figure out the "how" now... LOL!
Other things I need to deal with today...
Paying Josh's bills... Dont get me started on that subject.
Dealing with Courtney's deadbeat. He has decided to fight the fact that she is still in highschool... AND that she has Autism!! Hmmm... I cant wait to see how he tries to prove these things... because I have plenty of proof that she is still in HS and indeed DOES have Autism! LOL! What a LOSER!!
I am so sick of him making her be all about money! He is just THAT pathetic... he will NEVER understand how awesome she is! His loss... She has an awesome father, Stacy.
I HAVE to go to the grocery store!!!!! I have been putting it off for days! LOL!! I WILL go today... before the "blizzard" hits! LMAO!
3-5 inches tonite... hope everyone is ready!
I want to make chili tonite... and beef/veggie stew.
I also have to get Courtney's broken phone... and the Dish receivers sent back.
Ohhhh.... let me tell you how much I LOVE our Kindle Fire!! Last nite Stacy and I curled up and watched Jeff Dunham's Christmas special on it!! FREE! We laughed our asses off...!!
All of my previously purchased Kindle books were immediately downloaded onto it... which is awesome!! Since halfway through my last book... the kindle app on my phone stopped working!!! It even knew where I was in the book... and had all of my highlighted info still highlighted!!! Ok, Yes... maybe I sound like I am from the stone age right now...LMAO! The kids even seems to like it. I cant wait to start getting my magazines on it!!! NO MORE magazine clutter in our house!!!
Oh, in case I havent mentioned it...
A weird virus of some sort wiped out ALL of our chinchillas!! :-(
I am not sure how they got it... or where it came from. But, it took them all. I am soooo NOT happy about that. We had quite the investment in our herd... so it is pretty devistating that they all got taken out with no real warning and nothing we could do about it. Antibiotics didnt help at all.
At this point... I dont think we will be starting over. We will just stick to our bunnies for now.
OK... kids all off to school... time for me to get to my "to-do" list!! First thing... I have to run throught the house turning off every single light... apparently I never taught my kids how to turn OFF light switches!! UGH.
Monday, December 5, 2011
Had to laugh
So we all know that Stacy and I have come nutso neighbors... Welllll... Stacy and his shit flinging antics had me laughing my ass off yesterday!! That is all I am going to say! BUT, let me tell you... I damn near pee'd my pants. Soooo just what I needed!!
Anyway... other than that...
I worked up in the rabbitry some more. Just have one more thing we want to do... then I will be happy for the winter!
Stacy mowed for the last time until spring... he also got a temp porch put up... so we can use the front door again! Now we need to find something to do with his lizards!!
I paid some bills today... played some fetch with Gunner... and now cant seem to get Nanuq in the house.
Courtney is staying after school for tutoring tonite... and I am thinking I will hit the grocery store after I pick her up.
Nathan has some kind of 4th grade musical tonite... BUT, I never got any kind of info about it... which irritates the hell out of me. The school website's calendar has it listed from 7-9. I dont want to be out dealing with that, that late. Call me weird...
I guess no one can even begin to understand what I deal with. I wont bother trying to explain it.
For now... up to the rabbitry so our buns can play in the yard some while the sun is shining! We now have 4 seperate corrals set up! Then off to pick up Courtney.
Lasagna for dinner tonite...
Tomorrow I think I will try my hand at making chilli... and beef/veggie stew!
Yes, I know... looks like the blog of an ADD person! LMAO! Just have too much to do today... cant seem to get my thoughts organized enough to get them down. Oh well... you get the picture.
Anyway... other than that...
I worked up in the rabbitry some more. Just have one more thing we want to do... then I will be happy for the winter!
Stacy mowed for the last time until spring... he also got a temp porch put up... so we can use the front door again! Now we need to find something to do with his lizards!!
I paid some bills today... played some fetch with Gunner... and now cant seem to get Nanuq in the house.
Courtney is staying after school for tutoring tonite... and I am thinking I will hit the grocery store after I pick her up.
Nathan has some kind of 4th grade musical tonite... BUT, I never got any kind of info about it... which irritates the hell out of me. The school website's calendar has it listed from 7-9. I dont want to be out dealing with that, that late. Call me weird...
I guess no one can even begin to understand what I deal with. I wont bother trying to explain it.
For now... up to the rabbitry so our buns can play in the yard some while the sun is shining! We now have 4 seperate corrals set up! Then off to pick up Courtney.
Lasagna for dinner tonite...
Tomorrow I think I will try my hand at making chilli... and beef/veggie stew!
Yes, I know... looks like the blog of an ADD person! LMAO! Just have too much to do today... cant seem to get my thoughts organized enough to get them down. Oh well... you get the picture.
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Better Days
Ok... Yes... I was losing my mind last week! LOL! I think I am finally on the upswing!!! Thank goodness!
I completely rearranged our dog schedule and did some retraining... and that seems to be making the BIGGEST difference with them!! Everyone is successfully using the doggie door!! And I play a whole lot of fetch during the day! LOL (I am sure that is at least a few extra calories being burnt!)
As for the kids... and the grief they are causing... that is a work in progress.
I FORCED Courtney to go to school on Friday. And when I say FORCED... I mean FORCED!! I had to physically push her out the back door... and then she told me there was no way I was going to get her into the truck. I just looked at her and said..."Do you want to make a bet on that one?" She got in the damn truck on her own! LOL
I get so sick of the games she comes up with. I dont know if she has headaches or not. I have told her over and over through out her life... the story of the boy who cried wolf.
While she was at school on Friday... she refused to go to any of her classes... except art... go figure. She insisted her head was going to explode... except when it came time to have art class. So really... what am I suppose to think??? UGH!
Nathan is another one that is making me nuts!!! He is getting into trouble on the bus now! WTF!?!?
I finally figured out that if I 'reward' him for getting his homework done and turned in... homework hell isnt AS bad. So... icees on Fridays are on... as long as the shit gets done and turned in.
Pausing to run the post hole digger back to its rightful owner!.....
....OK... back to finish my blog.
I have been thinking really hard about Christmas, and what to get the kids. I just cant see showering them with all kinds of gifts this year. Some of last years gifts (which they HAD to have) are still in their packaging... never used or even looked at!!
These kids have IT ALL!!! It is to the point where I just want to go through and pack some of their crap up and give it to less fortunate kids. Mine just dont seem to appreciate what they have.
UGH... I dont know what to do with them. BUT... one thing is for sure... things will be changing. And... they will be hating me for a bit. Oh well... I will get over it.
We are in the process of making some really nice changes to the rabbitry!! I cant wait until it is completely done!! I am kinda glad Martin's Cages was closed the day we stopped!!! It made for a more creative, even better idea! We started working on it in the dark last nite. Did I mention I HATE that it gets dark so early?!?!? Wellll... I DO!!!
Some other things on today's list--
Oil in my truck needs changed.
Christmas lights need put up.
Dog run needs some work.
Meal planning for the week.
Paying bills.
Hunting things can hopefully go away soon... I am sick of seeing it piled up all over the house!
Speaking of hunting...
No deer for Britt yet...not because she hasnt seen them... she just hasnt had a good shot at any. But, she really seems to enjoy the time in the woods with Stacy. It seems like they have found a common interest!! Since Stacy doesnt fish... and Britt wishes he did...LOL
They have one more day planned... I really hope she gets her deer tail!!
OK... time to get my next load of laundry in! Gunner wants to play some more ball too. I did have him outside already... playing fetch. My shoulder gets tired after awhile! LOL
I also need to figure out when I am getting my problem children back... they spent the nite at my moms!
I hope everyone enjoys the sunny day as much as I will!!
I completely rearranged our dog schedule and did some retraining... and that seems to be making the BIGGEST difference with them!! Everyone is successfully using the doggie door!! And I play a whole lot of fetch during the day! LOL (I am sure that is at least a few extra calories being burnt!)
As for the kids... and the grief they are causing... that is a work in progress.
I FORCED Courtney to go to school on Friday. And when I say FORCED... I mean FORCED!! I had to physically push her out the back door... and then she told me there was no way I was going to get her into the truck. I just looked at her and said..."Do you want to make a bet on that one?" She got in the damn truck on her own! LOL
I get so sick of the games she comes up with. I dont know if she has headaches or not. I have told her over and over through out her life... the story of the boy who cried wolf.
While she was at school on Friday... she refused to go to any of her classes... except art... go figure. She insisted her head was going to explode... except when it came time to have art class. So really... what am I suppose to think??? UGH!
Nathan is another one that is making me nuts!!! He is getting into trouble on the bus now! WTF!?!?
I finally figured out that if I 'reward' him for getting his homework done and turned in... homework hell isnt AS bad. So... icees on Fridays are on... as long as the shit gets done and turned in.
Pausing to run the post hole digger back to its rightful owner!.....
....OK... back to finish my blog.
I have been thinking really hard about Christmas, and what to get the kids. I just cant see showering them with all kinds of gifts this year. Some of last years gifts (which they HAD to have) are still in their packaging... never used or even looked at!!
These kids have IT ALL!!! It is to the point where I just want to go through and pack some of their crap up and give it to less fortunate kids. Mine just dont seem to appreciate what they have.
UGH... I dont know what to do with them. BUT... one thing is for sure... things will be changing. And... they will be hating me for a bit. Oh well... I will get over it.
We are in the process of making some really nice changes to the rabbitry!! I cant wait until it is completely done!! I am kinda glad Martin's Cages was closed the day we stopped!!! It made for a more creative, even better idea! We started working on it in the dark last nite. Did I mention I HATE that it gets dark so early?!?!? Wellll... I DO!!!
Some other things on today's list--
Oil in my truck needs changed.
Christmas lights need put up.
Dog run needs some work.
Meal planning for the week.
Paying bills.
Hunting things can hopefully go away soon... I am sick of seeing it piled up all over the house!
Speaking of hunting...
No deer for Britt yet...not because she hasnt seen them... she just hasnt had a good shot at any. But, she really seems to enjoy the time in the woods with Stacy. It seems like they have found a common interest!! Since Stacy doesnt fish... and Britt wishes he did...LOL
They have one more day planned... I really hope she gets her deer tail!!
OK... time to get my next load of laundry in! Gunner wants to play some more ball too. I did have him outside already... playing fetch. My shoulder gets tired after awhile! LOL
I also need to figure out when I am getting my problem children back... they spent the nite at my moms!
I hope everyone enjoys the sunny day as much as I will!!
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
I'm really trying...
I tell ya...
The past few weeks have been a real test/challenge for me!!
I am trying sooo hard to get back on the "postive" track... but around every turn there is more CRAP!!!
I keep saying it over and over... I have WAY TOO MUCH to manage!!! But, no one seems to hear me. What is it going to take to have ppl listen to what I am saying??
Stacy and I are setting some new limits... we have both spread ourself way too thin... and it just is not working out.
Josh has used up all of his "freebies"... I am not real sure what he is doing with his down time... but he isnt using it very wisely. He hasnt made any attempt to better himself or his situation. He still hasnt secured a full time job... which has Stacy and I pretty upset. He is racking up the mileage on my car... while his car sits waiting for the mechanic fairies to drop by and fix it.
Oh well... my point is... we are done with this game now. Time to step it up!
Brittany is feeling better today. The power of antibiotics!! LOL!! She will be heading back to school tomorrow.
I had to run and pick Courtney up from school today... she had a headache. And still has the headache... even after taking tylenol and motrin. We will have to see how she feels in the morning. Maybe a Dr visit is in her future.
I groomed all 7 of our dogs today... also tore down crates and gave them all a good scrubbing. I also gave my shop a good cleaning. Which I will have to do again tomorrow, since I had some muddy dog prints go running through... and I am just too tired to do the floor again.
I am sitting here watching Gunner and Sprocket play tug of war with a rope toy! They really amuse the heck out of me! But Sprocket is a sock snatcher... which is NOT a good habit to have!! LOL
I moved all of the dogs crates around the house. Trying something new.
Tomorrow I am hoping to get my dining room and kitchen back in order. I have to put away all of the serving dishes we used on Thanksgiving. It is hard to believe that was a week ago already... and yea, I am still cleaning up from it! lol
The kids decorated the Christmas tree last nite. We went with a pink, green and silver theme this year. I decided it was time for something different. Plus, Christmas always makes me think of Pink and White... since Stacy and I got married 2 days after Christmas... and those were our wedding colors. I swear... us getting married at Christmas time is the only reason I like Christmas now. It is def a happy memory! I am glad we decided to go with that date!
Speaking of which... I cant believe we are coming up on our 3rd anniv!!! Where did the time go?!?! Together almost 5 yrs... married 3yrs! WOW! I love Stacy. I love who I am now that I am with him. I love our life together. He def completes me. I am so blessed.
Well, I guess it is time to get some reading in. Stacy is still out working on Josh's car. Maybe I will jump in the shower quick... then curl up with my book.
It has been an exhausting day!!
I am glad Stacy got the fire lit again... it got pretty darn cold out all of a sudden!!
The past few weeks have been a real test/challenge for me!!
I am trying sooo hard to get back on the "postive" track... but around every turn there is more CRAP!!!
I keep saying it over and over... I have WAY TOO MUCH to manage!!! But, no one seems to hear me. What is it going to take to have ppl listen to what I am saying??
Stacy and I are setting some new limits... we have both spread ourself way too thin... and it just is not working out.
Josh has used up all of his "freebies"... I am not real sure what he is doing with his down time... but he isnt using it very wisely. He hasnt made any attempt to better himself or his situation. He still hasnt secured a full time job... which has Stacy and I pretty upset. He is racking up the mileage on my car... while his car sits waiting for the mechanic fairies to drop by and fix it.
Oh well... my point is... we are done with this game now. Time to step it up!
Brittany is feeling better today. The power of antibiotics!! LOL!! She will be heading back to school tomorrow.
I had to run and pick Courtney up from school today... she had a headache. And still has the headache... even after taking tylenol and motrin. We will have to see how she feels in the morning. Maybe a Dr visit is in her future.
I groomed all 7 of our dogs today... also tore down crates and gave them all a good scrubbing. I also gave my shop a good cleaning. Which I will have to do again tomorrow, since I had some muddy dog prints go running through... and I am just too tired to do the floor again.
I am sitting here watching Gunner and Sprocket play tug of war with a rope toy! They really amuse the heck out of me! But Sprocket is a sock snatcher... which is NOT a good habit to have!! LOL
I moved all of the dogs crates around the house. Trying something new.
Tomorrow I am hoping to get my dining room and kitchen back in order. I have to put away all of the serving dishes we used on Thanksgiving. It is hard to believe that was a week ago already... and yea, I am still cleaning up from it! lol
The kids decorated the Christmas tree last nite. We went with a pink, green and silver theme this year. I decided it was time for something different. Plus, Christmas always makes me think of Pink and White... since Stacy and I got married 2 days after Christmas... and those were our wedding colors. I swear... us getting married at Christmas time is the only reason I like Christmas now. It is def a happy memory! I am glad we decided to go with that date!
Speaking of which... I cant believe we are coming up on our 3rd anniv!!! Where did the time go?!?! Together almost 5 yrs... married 3yrs! WOW! I love Stacy. I love who I am now that I am with him. I love our life together. He def completes me. I am so blessed.
Well, I guess it is time to get some reading in. Stacy is still out working on Josh's car. Maybe I will jump in the shower quick... then curl up with my book.
It has been an exhausting day!!
I am glad Stacy got the fire lit again... it got pretty darn cold out all of a sudden!!
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
SERIOUSLY Frustrated
I have to make some changes... I have to downsize my "load"... because I just cant do it all anymore!!!
Yesterday I opened our mail to realize that the ONE thing I asked my husband to take care of... which is our car insurance, because I HATE the insurance company he has... and for some reason he just wont switch... He DIDNT do!!! Sooooo.... MY car and MY truck are about to have their registration suspended because of the INSURANCE COMPANY'S fuck up... and my husband NOT taking care of it like he was suppose to!!! Mind you... HIS car and bronco are not affected!!!! GRRRRRRRR!!!! PISSED OFF doesnt even begin to cover it!!!!
THEN, I get to the kids dentist visit... to realize that Stacy never took care of Nathan's name change at work or with the insurance companies!!!
DOUBLE GRRRRRR!!!!!
Josh is racking miles on my car like it is going out of style.... AND shit on my car is mysteriously getting broken. His car is sitting in front of our garage just waiting to be fixed. I am really getting the shits of that mess!
Anytime I leave the house... thinking that someone still in the house can take care of things... NOPE... WRONG!! I walk out that door... and the world I leave behind STOPS!
We went Christmas shopping yesterday afternoon/evening... we were gone for 8 hours. Nathan did what he was told and took care of ALL of the rabbits... for the most part. Brittany was in bed, sick... all day. Courtney's ass didnt leave the front of the TV. Soooo.... NONE of our dogs were taken care of. I came home to crates full of pee... and my shop full of pee and stinking to high heaven!!! PISSED OFF!!!!
On top of that... Not ONE person could empty the dishwasher... Soooooo.... BOTH sinks were OVERFLOWING with dirty dishes!!!!! When you turned on the spigot... water ran over TOP of the pile and onto the counter!!!!!! Do you think anyone took notice???? NOPE... just me!!!
In addition....
Our house smells like death. There is a dead mouse SOMEWHERE in this house... and I am the only one who seems to be bothered by this.
WHAT THE HELL...?!?!?!?!?
Came home from shopping...
Had to assemble new rabbit cages... rearrange rabbit living quarters... take pee'd up dogs out... clean crates... scrub floors... clean shop... and try NOT to hurt anyone in the process!
This on top of getting all the way to Lancaster yesterday afternoon... just to get to where I wanted to go 20 minutes AFTER they closed!
All the while... dealing with STUPID shit from my mother AND grandfather!!!!!!! I am so freakin sick and tired of hearing about her "problems"... I just dont give a shit anymore!!!!!
She REALLY needs to get off her lazy ass and do shit for herself. I am NOT going to cater to this crap.
Just as she was NOT put on this earth to entertain me (which is ALL I ever heard growing up)... I was NOT put on this earth to be her personal slave. NOR was Josh... OR anyone else!!!!!
I have done all I can do... offered all I can offer... Now, either follow the rules and make a life for yourself... or GO AWAY!!!! I moved FAR away from these ppl for a reason... and now their issues are invading my life and space!!!
I can NOT take it anymore.
I can NOT think for EVERYONE.
I can NOT take care of EVERYTHING.
I can NOT stand this bullshit.
I FUCKING QUIT!
And if that means I need to find a padded room somewhere to stay in for awhile... FINE!!! I wont have to cook, clean, or think for others for awhile. It is a damn shame THAT is the only way I can get a break!!! The sad part... I dont think one person would actually miss ME... just everything I do around here.
OK... done with my venting....
Now I have to get Nathan up, and fight that battle.... then run to harrisburg for an enforcement hearing, which is such a waste of my life and gas... then get Britt to the Dr because she is still sick as hell!
Ummm... when do I get to do something I ENJOY...?!?!? NEVER!
Yesterday I opened our mail to realize that the ONE thing I asked my husband to take care of... which is our car insurance, because I HATE the insurance company he has... and for some reason he just wont switch... He DIDNT do!!! Sooooo.... MY car and MY truck are about to have their registration suspended because of the INSURANCE COMPANY'S fuck up... and my husband NOT taking care of it like he was suppose to!!! Mind you... HIS car and bronco are not affected!!!! GRRRRRRRR!!!! PISSED OFF doesnt even begin to cover it!!!!
THEN, I get to the kids dentist visit... to realize that Stacy never took care of Nathan's name change at work or with the insurance companies!!!
DOUBLE GRRRRRR!!!!!
Josh is racking miles on my car like it is going out of style.... AND shit on my car is mysteriously getting broken. His car is sitting in front of our garage just waiting to be fixed. I am really getting the shits of that mess!
Anytime I leave the house... thinking that someone still in the house can take care of things... NOPE... WRONG!! I walk out that door... and the world I leave behind STOPS!
We went Christmas shopping yesterday afternoon/evening... we were gone for 8 hours. Nathan did what he was told and took care of ALL of the rabbits... for the most part. Brittany was in bed, sick... all day. Courtney's ass didnt leave the front of the TV. Soooo.... NONE of our dogs were taken care of. I came home to crates full of pee... and my shop full of pee and stinking to high heaven!!! PISSED OFF!!!!
On top of that... Not ONE person could empty the dishwasher... Soooooo.... BOTH sinks were OVERFLOWING with dirty dishes!!!!! When you turned on the spigot... water ran over TOP of the pile and onto the counter!!!!!! Do you think anyone took notice???? NOPE... just me!!!
In addition....
Our house smells like death. There is a dead mouse SOMEWHERE in this house... and I am the only one who seems to be bothered by this.
WHAT THE HELL...?!?!?!?!?
Came home from shopping...
Had to assemble new rabbit cages... rearrange rabbit living quarters... take pee'd up dogs out... clean crates... scrub floors... clean shop... and try NOT to hurt anyone in the process!
This on top of getting all the way to Lancaster yesterday afternoon... just to get to where I wanted to go 20 minutes AFTER they closed!
All the while... dealing with STUPID shit from my mother AND grandfather!!!!!!! I am so freakin sick and tired of hearing about her "problems"... I just dont give a shit anymore!!!!!
She REALLY needs to get off her lazy ass and do shit for herself. I am NOT going to cater to this crap.
Just as she was NOT put on this earth to entertain me (which is ALL I ever heard growing up)... I was NOT put on this earth to be her personal slave. NOR was Josh... OR anyone else!!!!!
I have done all I can do... offered all I can offer... Now, either follow the rules and make a life for yourself... or GO AWAY!!!! I moved FAR away from these ppl for a reason... and now their issues are invading my life and space!!!
I can NOT take it anymore.
I can NOT think for EVERYONE.
I can NOT take care of EVERYTHING.
I can NOT stand this bullshit.
I FUCKING QUIT!
And if that means I need to find a padded room somewhere to stay in for awhile... FINE!!! I wont have to cook, clean, or think for others for awhile. It is a damn shame THAT is the only way I can get a break!!! The sad part... I dont think one person would actually miss ME... just everything I do around here.
OK... done with my venting....
Now I have to get Nathan up, and fight that battle.... then run to harrisburg for an enforcement hearing, which is such a waste of my life and gas... then get Britt to the Dr because she is still sick as hell!
Ummm... when do I get to do something I ENJOY...?!?!? NEVER!
Monday, November 28, 2011
Hunting
Well, I am up bright and early this morning to get my sick baby girl up and ready to hunt! Brittany is determined to go out in the woods WITH a temp of 101 AND a sore throat to get her first BUCK!
I have her loaded up with zinc and vitamin C... motrin and benadryl! Hoping that will hold her over for at least a couple of hours.
She has been looking forward to this day for MONTHS!!! I am proud of her and her determination... but, at the same time... I worry! UGH!
I really hope she comes home with that tail she wants!
OK... I started this blog HOURS ago... and have since sent my hunters out the door and went back to bed.
I am up for the day now...LOL
Yesterday was a busy as hell day!! I had to pull out all of the hunting gear out for my hunters... and the regular shit I have to do in a day... then I made a walmart run, came home cooked dinner for us and Grandma Sarah & Pappy George... then ran that out to them. We had a nice visit... Uncle Rodney, Jen and the girls were there too. After that... I had to run to Millersburg to pick up bunnies... then back to Halifax to get Stacy's car... a stop at Josh's to discuss their hunting plan... then HOME!!
I was exhausted!!! I put on jammies... curled up in bed and read some of my new book (from Aunt Vickie).
Today is going to be just as crazy!! I have to get Nathan and Courtney to the dentist at noon. I am thinking Brittany may need a pediatrician visit... but I am hoping hunting cures her...LOL!!
Speaking of my hunters... they went out before sunrise. Stacy got bored and brought everyone home to get the truck and move to a different spot. I really, really hope Brittany gets lucky today!!
Last nite Stacy FINALLY dug out of my foot what I stepped on, on Thursday!! OMG... It has been soooo painful to walk since then!!! Turned out to be GLASS!!! OUCH!! After getting it out... my foot felt immediately better and today I am walking pain free!
I'm a little bummed... Stacy is out with 2 of our kids, having fun... teaching them how to hunt... and enjoying their day together.
I, on the other hand, am home with 2 of our kids... the miserable ones... picking my battles... and today there seems to be many battles... AND, in an hour I get the "pleasure" of taking to the dentist! Wooo Hooo!!
UGH!
Enjoy your day... and the sun... and may all of our hunters return home safe and sound... and with any luck with a buck!! ;-)
I have her loaded up with zinc and vitamin C... motrin and benadryl! Hoping that will hold her over for at least a couple of hours.
She has been looking forward to this day for MONTHS!!! I am proud of her and her determination... but, at the same time... I worry! UGH!
I really hope she comes home with that tail she wants!
OK... I started this blog HOURS ago... and have since sent my hunters out the door and went back to bed.
I am up for the day now...LOL
Yesterday was a busy as hell day!! I had to pull out all of the hunting gear out for my hunters... and the regular shit I have to do in a day... then I made a walmart run, came home cooked dinner for us and Grandma Sarah & Pappy George... then ran that out to them. We had a nice visit... Uncle Rodney, Jen and the girls were there too. After that... I had to run to Millersburg to pick up bunnies... then back to Halifax to get Stacy's car... a stop at Josh's to discuss their hunting plan... then HOME!!
I was exhausted!!! I put on jammies... curled up in bed and read some of my new book (from Aunt Vickie).
Today is going to be just as crazy!! I have to get Nathan and Courtney to the dentist at noon. I am thinking Brittany may need a pediatrician visit... but I am hoping hunting cures her...LOL!!
Speaking of my hunters... they went out before sunrise. Stacy got bored and brought everyone home to get the truck and move to a different spot. I really, really hope Brittany gets lucky today!!
Last nite Stacy FINALLY dug out of my foot what I stepped on, on Thursday!! OMG... It has been soooo painful to walk since then!!! Turned out to be GLASS!!! OUCH!! After getting it out... my foot felt immediately better and today I am walking pain free!
I'm a little bummed... Stacy is out with 2 of our kids, having fun... teaching them how to hunt... and enjoying their day together.
I, on the other hand, am home with 2 of our kids... the miserable ones... picking my battles... and today there seems to be many battles... AND, in an hour I get the "pleasure" of taking to the dentist! Wooo Hooo!!
UGH!
Enjoy your day... and the sun... and may all of our hunters return home safe and sound... and with any luck with a buck!! ;-)
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Migraine from HELL
I had an awesome day yesterday!! Undecorating from Thanksgiving, planning for Christmas. I spent the afternoon with Julie, her daughter and her pup... working on some training (or, well, watching Addie train us... lol)... I even got to do some grooming!!
Our bunnies were out getting some exercise... the sun was shining...got some adult conversation...and a new pair of comfy, fuzzy socks! It was a great day!!
Then the evening hit... and it all went down hill from there. Which is just damn sad.
I dont understand... I try so hard to do good things... but in the end, they always just back fire on me.
My mother. Need I say more...?!?
I thought we were doing good by helping her out. I wanted this to be a chance for her to get on her feet again... start living like a 50 yr old and not an 80 yr old. Apparently it just isnt going to happen. She isnt going to change.
Even the written agreement we have, and she signed, means NOTHING to her.
Once again in life... I go out of my way to help... and I end up paying the price!! In my own home, we are going without things... downsizing things... to be able to continue to pay both mortgages... so that we have a home and now Josh and my mom have a home! One would think ppl would appreciate that. NOPE! I do believe that Josh is trying very hard to make the situation work. BUT, it is pretty damn hard when the other person in the house thinks she is above agreements and can be pushy to get her way...or just refuses to do anything.
I just cant do it anymore. Josh is using my car... while his is down. Stacy is working 7 freakin days a week and cant help Josh fix his car. (And Josh has been up here doing all he can with the car, on his own) Josh cant have ppl in his own home to visit because my mother cant keep clothes on or move off the couch and away from the TV!
What the hell is wrong with this picture?!?!? PLEASE... Someone tell me what I can possibly do to make this better??? I'll tell you... NOTHING!!! It is out of my hands. BUT... you would think, that a person with NOTHING and NO place to go... would do a little more to make things work!!! NOPE... and yet when I blog about her actions... she gets upset that I make her look ungrateful!! WWWEEELLLLL.... Stop acting and looking the part!!! GRRRRR!!
Last nite spiralled downward real quick! I ended up with such a migraine... I wanted to just die.
I have 4 kids to be a mother to. I do not need to mother my mother.
I WILL NOT ALLOW OTHER PPL TO AFFECT MY LIFE IN A NEGATIVE WAY!!
I moved an hour plus away from ppl for a reason!
So... ppl are either going to be part of the problem or part of the solution... but if you are part of the problem, be prepared to get out of my life!
I am DONE!
My kids will not live with a mom who is hiding from stress and the pain that it causes!! I plan on living our lives to the fullest!! And after last nite... Stacy said he will be taking over the old house bullshit... because he is not playing these games with ppl.
I LOVE doing things with my kids!!! And today we will be going on an adventure to get our first REAL Christmas tree... first real one in 14 yrs!! I AM SOOO EXCITED!!!! AND... Stacy found new springs for my car... the car Josh is trying! LMAO!! I cant wait to get new springs on it... and DRIVE it around!!!
I also cant wait to send the kids up to the attic... and pull down Christmas decorations!!!
AND... I LOVE having Josh come over... and watching the other kids spend time with him... because they really do miss him!! Both girls got dressed and headed out to help him with his car!!!
I LOVE MY KIDS!!! I LOVE how I they are all turning out!!! I DID DO SOMETHING RIGHT!!! :-)
I will say it again...
I AM SOOO BLESSED to have 4 awesome kids... and an awesome hubby!!! To have a beautiful house... and amazing truck... and food in the fridge... and furbabies to love...
I LOVE MY LIFE! :-)
Our bunnies were out getting some exercise... the sun was shining...got some adult conversation...and a new pair of comfy, fuzzy socks! It was a great day!!
Then the evening hit... and it all went down hill from there. Which is just damn sad.
I dont understand... I try so hard to do good things... but in the end, they always just back fire on me.
My mother. Need I say more...?!?
I thought we were doing good by helping her out. I wanted this to be a chance for her to get on her feet again... start living like a 50 yr old and not an 80 yr old. Apparently it just isnt going to happen. She isnt going to change.
Even the written agreement we have, and she signed, means NOTHING to her.
Once again in life... I go out of my way to help... and I end up paying the price!! In my own home, we are going without things... downsizing things... to be able to continue to pay both mortgages... so that we have a home and now Josh and my mom have a home! One would think ppl would appreciate that. NOPE! I do believe that Josh is trying very hard to make the situation work. BUT, it is pretty damn hard when the other person in the house thinks she is above agreements and can be pushy to get her way...or just refuses to do anything.
I just cant do it anymore. Josh is using my car... while his is down. Stacy is working 7 freakin days a week and cant help Josh fix his car. (And Josh has been up here doing all he can with the car, on his own) Josh cant have ppl in his own home to visit because my mother cant keep clothes on or move off the couch and away from the TV!
What the hell is wrong with this picture?!?!? PLEASE... Someone tell me what I can possibly do to make this better??? I'll tell you... NOTHING!!! It is out of my hands. BUT... you would think, that a person with NOTHING and NO place to go... would do a little more to make things work!!! NOPE... and yet when I blog about her actions... she gets upset that I make her look ungrateful!! WWWEEELLLLL.... Stop acting and looking the part!!! GRRRRR!!
Last nite spiralled downward real quick! I ended up with such a migraine... I wanted to just die.
I have 4 kids to be a mother to. I do not need to mother my mother.
I WILL NOT ALLOW OTHER PPL TO AFFECT MY LIFE IN A NEGATIVE WAY!!
I moved an hour plus away from ppl for a reason!
So... ppl are either going to be part of the problem or part of the solution... but if you are part of the problem, be prepared to get out of my life!
I am DONE!
My kids will not live with a mom who is hiding from stress and the pain that it causes!! I plan on living our lives to the fullest!! And after last nite... Stacy said he will be taking over the old house bullshit... because he is not playing these games with ppl.
I LOVE doing things with my kids!!! And today we will be going on an adventure to get our first REAL Christmas tree... first real one in 14 yrs!! I AM SOOO EXCITED!!!! AND... Stacy found new springs for my car... the car Josh is trying! LMAO!! I cant wait to get new springs on it... and DRIVE it around!!!
I also cant wait to send the kids up to the attic... and pull down Christmas decorations!!!
AND... I LOVE having Josh come over... and watching the other kids spend time with him... because they really do miss him!! Both girls got dressed and headed out to help him with his car!!!
I LOVE MY KIDS!!! I LOVE how I they are all turning out!!! I DID DO SOMETHING RIGHT!!! :-)
I will say it again...
I AM SOOO BLESSED to have 4 awesome kids... and an awesome hubby!!! To have a beautiful house... and amazing truck... and food in the fridge... and furbabies to love...
I LOVE MY LIFE! :-)
Friday, November 25, 2011
Thanksgiving Recap
Yesterday turned out to be an awesome day!!
Unfortunately, Pap didnt make it to dinner... he wasnt feeling well. But, even with him missing... we made the best of it.
It was nice to see Aunt Connie... and Mert! I had fun cooking with Ellie in my apron pocket...LOL! Lexi seemed to have a good time with Nathan and Brittany. I enjoyed the "strong" stuff Jason and Carrey brought!! ;-) I need to get that "recipe"... Stacy and I both really liked it!
My grandparents came... which meant my mom didnt. I dont even want to hear the lame excuse that she was sick... she made sure to call me from her old apartment. Oh well... her loss.
Oh, my grandparents even liked the mixed drink Carrey put together! LMAO!!!
All of the food turned out pretty good... and I managed to make it through without setting anything on fire... OR forgetting anything!!
Today will be the day we pick at turkey leftovers... and tomorrow I will make turkey and waffles!
BUT... I did manage to forget to give everyone their fundraiser orders... DUH!!
Now... the clean up begins... chairs need folded, tables put back... Fall decor can get put away for another year. Time to bring out winter/Christmas things! I think we will attempt a real tree this year! We havent had one since Courtney was 4... and it made her wild! LOL!!
Oh, and my stairway project turned out pretty darn good!!! I wish i would have painted them long ago!! I LOVE the way they look now.
Well, nothing is getting done with me sitting on my butt... time to get to work!!
NO Black Friday shopping for me!!! I will wait until Cyber Monday... then Aunt Jen and I can shop together...out in the cyber world!! LMAO!!!
Enjoy the sun!
Unfortunately, Pap didnt make it to dinner... he wasnt feeling well. But, even with him missing... we made the best of it.
It was nice to see Aunt Connie... and Mert! I had fun cooking with Ellie in my apron pocket...LOL! Lexi seemed to have a good time with Nathan and Brittany. I enjoyed the "strong" stuff Jason and Carrey brought!! ;-) I need to get that "recipe"... Stacy and I both really liked it!
My grandparents came... which meant my mom didnt. I dont even want to hear the lame excuse that she was sick... she made sure to call me from her old apartment. Oh well... her loss.
Oh, my grandparents even liked the mixed drink Carrey put together! LMAO!!!
All of the food turned out pretty good... and I managed to make it through without setting anything on fire... OR forgetting anything!!
Today will be the day we pick at turkey leftovers... and tomorrow I will make turkey and waffles!
BUT... I did manage to forget to give everyone their fundraiser orders... DUH!!
Now... the clean up begins... chairs need folded, tables put back... Fall decor can get put away for another year. Time to bring out winter/Christmas things! I think we will attempt a real tree this year! We havent had one since Courtney was 4... and it made her wild! LOL!!
Oh, and my stairway project turned out pretty darn good!!! I wish i would have painted them long ago!! I LOVE the way they look now.
Well, nothing is getting done with me sitting on my butt... time to get to work!!
NO Black Friday shopping for me!!! I will wait until Cyber Monday... then Aunt Jen and I can shop together...out in the cyber world!! LMAO!!!
Enjoy the sun!
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Thanksgiving
A day and a half... and our house will be over flowing with family!
I was hoping to have my stair project completed by Thursday... but I am not so sure at this point. I have been doing so all kinds of things around here... that my back is absolutely KILLING me!! I got a first coat of paint on the stair 'fronts'... and I am hoping to get a 2nd coat on tonite. It is just so hard on my back!!
Pulling the carpet staples out of the steps really did my back in!! My husband, the "starter" ripped all of the carpet off the steps MONTHS ago... but never went back to pull out the staples. Soooo.... that is what I did today (the kids helped). In addition shopping, doing laundry, moving dogs and their crates, etc... etc...etc... UGH!
Here we are... faced with the Holiday season...
Let me tell you... I am sooooooo very thankful I am who I am, and I am where I am. Looking over my life... I could be in prison, I could be dead, I could be just like my family... BUT, I am NOT. I am right here... right where I belong! With an awesome hubby... making an awesome family for us and our kids!
Getting here was no easy task!! I had to battle through people, odds, and my family!
It isnt easy when you grow up in a family that is as dysfunctional as mine!! As I am being reminded... the women in my family are down right nuts! My mom and grandmother are so much alike they refuse to sit down and enjoy Thanksgiving with us... because they dont want to be in the same space as the other!!!
Who cares how that affects MY kids... or who's feelings get hurt! Obviously... the only ppl that truly matter to them... ARE themselves!!
It is sad.
The only thing Stacy and I can do is use it as a teaching opportunity. THIS is NOT what we want our kids to become!!!
Ok... I guess I better get to putting on the 2nd coat of paint! If I dont do it now... I dont think it will happen... my back hurts soooooo damn bad. I sure hope I can still walk come Thanksgiving day!!!
Tomorrow is going to be an even busier day!! The kids are going to start their deserts!!! And I have 7 dogs to groom!! Ohhhh good times... good times...!! Yea, I may be in a wheelchair Thursday! UGH!!!
I really wish Mr Sunshine will come out to see us tomorrow!!!
I was hoping to have my stair project completed by Thursday... but I am not so sure at this point. I have been doing so all kinds of things around here... that my back is absolutely KILLING me!! I got a first coat of paint on the stair 'fronts'... and I am hoping to get a 2nd coat on tonite. It is just so hard on my back!!
Pulling the carpet staples out of the steps really did my back in!! My husband, the "starter" ripped all of the carpet off the steps MONTHS ago... but never went back to pull out the staples. Soooo.... that is what I did today (the kids helped). In addition shopping, doing laundry, moving dogs and their crates, etc... etc...etc... UGH!
Here we are... faced with the Holiday season...
Let me tell you... I am sooooooo very thankful I am who I am, and I am where I am. Looking over my life... I could be in prison, I could be dead, I could be just like my family... BUT, I am NOT. I am right here... right where I belong! With an awesome hubby... making an awesome family for us and our kids!
Getting here was no easy task!! I had to battle through people, odds, and my family!
It isnt easy when you grow up in a family that is as dysfunctional as mine!! As I am being reminded... the women in my family are down right nuts! My mom and grandmother are so much alike they refuse to sit down and enjoy Thanksgiving with us... because they dont want to be in the same space as the other!!!
Who cares how that affects MY kids... or who's feelings get hurt! Obviously... the only ppl that truly matter to them... ARE themselves!!
It is sad.
The only thing Stacy and I can do is use it as a teaching opportunity. THIS is NOT what we want our kids to become!!!
Ok... I guess I better get to putting on the 2nd coat of paint! If I dont do it now... I dont think it will happen... my back hurts soooooo damn bad. I sure hope I can still walk come Thanksgiving day!!!
Tomorrow is going to be an even busier day!! The kids are going to start their deserts!!! And I have 7 dogs to groom!! Ohhhh good times... good times...!! Yea, I may be in a wheelchair Thursday! UGH!!!
I really wish Mr Sunshine will come out to see us tomorrow!!!
Monday, November 21, 2011
Exhausted!
Today was brutal! I have been on the go ALL day long!
The morning was spent in my shop... where I had to fight back tears. I groomed a beautiful Akita!! She was such a sweetheart... and she held her ears JUST like Rai-Ni did!! I swear, she could have carried a plate on her head! LOL!! She even gave Brittany kisses right on the nose! UGH... I miss Rai soooooooo darn much!! She was THE BEST dog ever... and I am soooo glad we were able to give her a loving home to live out her years. She sure did love the kids... they were HER kids. And she and I had such an amazing connection! She knew what I was feeling, what I was thinking, when I felt crappy... everything!!
We ALL miss her! Even Stacy... and even though she ate his high school jacket because she missed us one day we left her home alone too long.
Ok... fighting back tears again...
After that...
I went shopping for everything we will need for or FEAST!! That was a fun trip... NOT! I feel like I was shopping FOREVER!
I had to rush home and quickly get ready for Parent/Teacher Conf. Nathan's teacher was running so late that we missed Courtney's conf.
One we finally got out of there... we ran to Kratzer's to pick up the final things needed to put the fan and light in the out kitchen. Then to Weis to pick up the last few things I couldnt find. (Tomorrow-- Trip to Hornings, for the hard to find stuff!)
Getting home never felt so good after today!!! My PJ's are sooo comfy!!! My FM is flaring up... my knees, hips, shoulders and back are KILLING me today. This damn rain is NOT helping!!!
Tomorrow- Hornings trip... work on the stairway project... move stuff around... pick up new E Lops... work on stairway project some more... do some cleaning... do some laundry... work on stairway project... You get the picture! LOL
Time to curl up with my hubby!! More tomorrow!
The morning was spent in my shop... where I had to fight back tears. I groomed a beautiful Akita!! She was such a sweetheart... and she held her ears JUST like Rai-Ni did!! I swear, she could have carried a plate on her head! LOL!! She even gave Brittany kisses right on the nose! UGH... I miss Rai soooooooo darn much!! She was THE BEST dog ever... and I am soooo glad we were able to give her a loving home to live out her years. She sure did love the kids... they were HER kids. And she and I had such an amazing connection! She knew what I was feeling, what I was thinking, when I felt crappy... everything!!
We ALL miss her! Even Stacy... and even though she ate his high school jacket because she missed us one day we left her home alone too long.
Ok... fighting back tears again...
After that...
I went shopping for everything we will need for or FEAST!! That was a fun trip... NOT! I feel like I was shopping FOREVER!
I had to rush home and quickly get ready for Parent/Teacher Conf. Nathan's teacher was running so late that we missed Courtney's conf.
One we finally got out of there... we ran to Kratzer's to pick up the final things needed to put the fan and light in the out kitchen. Then to Weis to pick up the last few things I couldnt find. (Tomorrow-- Trip to Hornings, for the hard to find stuff!)
Getting home never felt so good after today!!! My PJ's are sooo comfy!!! My FM is flaring up... my knees, hips, shoulders and back are KILLING me today. This damn rain is NOT helping!!!
Tomorrow- Hornings trip... work on the stairway project... move stuff around... pick up new E Lops... work on stairway project some more... do some cleaning... do some laundry... work on stairway project... You get the picture! LOL
Time to curl up with my hubby!! More tomorrow!
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Started, but yet to be completed
I think I have about 3 blogs that I have started over the past few days... but never finished or published!! I get "lost" mid blog... mid thought... and decide it is just best to keep my mouth shut and thoughts to myself. Which, makes me want to explode at times.
It has been a rough past month plus around here. There are changes happening all around... and no one seems to be happy about them, or liking them.
I have been trying really hard to remember all that Joyce has taught me... but sometimes it is just down right HARD!! It isnt easy for me to keep things all bottled up... but I have been trying.
Yesterday Stacy and Josh got my mom moved up to the house. I feel so bad for Stacy!! He had to deal with my grandfather and mother... without me! When I finally got there in the late afternoon... I walked in on my husband YELLING (which... if you know my hubby... you know he NEVER does that!! It takes alot to get him to that point!) All I could do was cringe... and listen to Britt tell me Stacy MUST be MAD... he NEVER sounds like that!! LOL (I can look back and laugh)
If I didnt have Stacy in my life... I would be my grandfather! And yes, I still have "those" moments... but Stacy has really proven to be my other half... and balances me out. I love him more and more every day... even though I dont always "like" him. LOL
I sit back... and I realize that my mom has no idea what all went into moving her. And it makes me sad.
I dont have "family"... like most. My "family" is every man for him/her self... but at the same time want everyone to be about them. If that makes sense...? It is so frustrating!!
Anyway...
My mom has no clue what went into getting her moved. It is something that money just cant buy. A concept I hope she soon learns.
A complete stranger to her offered up ALL of those moving blankets...Henry... a wonderful man, who always is willing to do whatever he can to help whomever he can! Truly a rare breed anymore.
My FIL offered up his trailer to haul everything. Miles put on his trailer tires... wear and tear on his trailer... Another awesome person who does what he can to help whomever he can.
Stacy gave up his ONLY day off for the next 2 weeks!! AND, gimped out the door this morning for his 10 hour day. He also got pushed to the point he had to raise his voice... which NEVER happens! Boy, was he mad yesterday... it took him HOURS and a trip to DQ to calm down.
Josh gave up hours at work to help...and got so frustrated I thought his head was going to pop off!
Those are all things that money just cant buy... you have to involve yourself in a relationship where you GIVE... and then get in return. But you have to GIVE first!!! It is those things that make you a better person. The difference between SELFLESS and SELFISH!
Yesterday I took Nathan and Brittany to their first bunny show!! We had soooo much fun!!! We didnt win... but we gained so much knowledge! It was a great experience!!! And now that we understand things more... and learned so much... we hope to do better at our next show... which I think will be Farm Show!
I was very proud of myself... I didnt come home with more bunnies than I went with!! I did buy carrier cages... and a breed standard book and some cage tags. All things that were good ideas!!
I WILL NOT be buying ANY bunnies without doing LOTS of research... and a real good look over!!! I learned A LOT yesterday!!!
I only got about 3.5 hours of sleep Friday nite. We were up and on the road by 5am yesterday!! It was rough!!! On top of that... I had to pull out the really strong allergy meds... AND pop Benadryl like it was going out of style!!! Of course I was attached to my inhaler too. All of those things made the 2.5 hour drive home a bear!!! I was almost falling asleep!!!!
My ass was in bed by 7 last nite... fast asleep not much later than 8! Stacy was right behind me. All I remember is him saying he was getting a shower... and me hunting his warm legs for my cold feet once he got into bed!!! (At this point... I dont think he could fall asleep at nite without my cold feet! LOL)
So... I got about 10 hours of sleep last nite... but I still woke up feeling shitty. I officially have a cold of some sort. Or... I am just that old that I cant hang with these few hours of sleep! It may take me a day or two to recover!!! Oh geez.
Today... I broke the news to the kids that the DishNetwork is going bye-bye!! And we are going back to basic cable. That went over like a lead balloon!!! Everyone is pissed. I said they should be glad we are even getting the basic cable... we could just go without TV all together... wouldnt bother me any!!!
I am also re teaching everyone how to do their chores!!! I am sick of the half ass jobs that have been getting done around here!
Let me tell you how UNpleasant my house is right now. And I dont much care. I am sick of giving to unappreciative kids! Times are changing!!!
I have a slew of changes that are going to be made in the months to come! Baby steps... baby steps!
OK... well... I have to sit down and make my grocery list for our feast on Thursday!! I have my menu narrowed down... and the turkey has been put into the fridge to start to thaw out!!
I am soooo serious when I say... I CAN NOT WAIT for Thursday!! :-)
Enjoy the sunny day!!! It is time for me to get outside and get some bunnies out exercising!!! We have some out of shape bunnies around here!!!
It has been a rough past month plus around here. There are changes happening all around... and no one seems to be happy about them, or liking them.
I have been trying really hard to remember all that Joyce has taught me... but sometimes it is just down right HARD!! It isnt easy for me to keep things all bottled up... but I have been trying.
Yesterday Stacy and Josh got my mom moved up to the house. I feel so bad for Stacy!! He had to deal with my grandfather and mother... without me! When I finally got there in the late afternoon... I walked in on my husband YELLING (which... if you know my hubby... you know he NEVER does that!! It takes alot to get him to that point!) All I could do was cringe... and listen to Britt tell me Stacy MUST be MAD... he NEVER sounds like that!! LOL (I can look back and laugh)
If I didnt have Stacy in my life... I would be my grandfather! And yes, I still have "those" moments... but Stacy has really proven to be my other half... and balances me out. I love him more and more every day... even though I dont always "like" him. LOL
I sit back... and I realize that my mom has no idea what all went into moving her. And it makes me sad.
I dont have "family"... like most. My "family" is every man for him/her self... but at the same time want everyone to be about them. If that makes sense...? It is so frustrating!!
Anyway...
My mom has no clue what went into getting her moved. It is something that money just cant buy. A concept I hope she soon learns.
A complete stranger to her offered up ALL of those moving blankets...Henry... a wonderful man, who always is willing to do whatever he can to help whomever he can! Truly a rare breed anymore.
My FIL offered up his trailer to haul everything. Miles put on his trailer tires... wear and tear on his trailer... Another awesome person who does what he can to help whomever he can.
Stacy gave up his ONLY day off for the next 2 weeks!! AND, gimped out the door this morning for his 10 hour day. He also got pushed to the point he had to raise his voice... which NEVER happens! Boy, was he mad yesterday... it took him HOURS and a trip to DQ to calm down.
Josh gave up hours at work to help...and got so frustrated I thought his head was going to pop off!
Those are all things that money just cant buy... you have to involve yourself in a relationship where you GIVE... and then get in return. But you have to GIVE first!!! It is those things that make you a better person. The difference between SELFLESS and SELFISH!
Yesterday I took Nathan and Brittany to their first bunny show!! We had soooo much fun!!! We didnt win... but we gained so much knowledge! It was a great experience!!! And now that we understand things more... and learned so much... we hope to do better at our next show... which I think will be Farm Show!
I was very proud of myself... I didnt come home with more bunnies than I went with!! I did buy carrier cages... and a breed standard book and some cage tags. All things that were good ideas!!
I WILL NOT be buying ANY bunnies without doing LOTS of research... and a real good look over!!! I learned A LOT yesterday!!!
I only got about 3.5 hours of sleep Friday nite. We were up and on the road by 5am yesterday!! It was rough!!! On top of that... I had to pull out the really strong allergy meds... AND pop Benadryl like it was going out of style!!! Of course I was attached to my inhaler too. All of those things made the 2.5 hour drive home a bear!!! I was almost falling asleep!!!!
My ass was in bed by 7 last nite... fast asleep not much later than 8! Stacy was right behind me. All I remember is him saying he was getting a shower... and me hunting his warm legs for my cold feet once he got into bed!!! (At this point... I dont think he could fall asleep at nite without my cold feet! LOL)
So... I got about 10 hours of sleep last nite... but I still woke up feeling shitty. I officially have a cold of some sort. Or... I am just that old that I cant hang with these few hours of sleep! It may take me a day or two to recover!!! Oh geez.
Today... I broke the news to the kids that the DishNetwork is going bye-bye!! And we are going back to basic cable. That went over like a lead balloon!!! Everyone is pissed. I said they should be glad we are even getting the basic cable... we could just go without TV all together... wouldnt bother me any!!!
I am also re teaching everyone how to do their chores!!! I am sick of the half ass jobs that have been getting done around here!
Let me tell you how UNpleasant my house is right now. And I dont much care. I am sick of giving to unappreciative kids! Times are changing!!!
I have a slew of changes that are going to be made in the months to come! Baby steps... baby steps!
OK... well... I have to sit down and make my grocery list for our feast on Thursday!! I have my menu narrowed down... and the turkey has been put into the fridge to start to thaw out!!
I am soooo serious when I say... I CAN NOT WAIT for Thursday!! :-)
Enjoy the sunny day!!! It is time for me to get outside and get some bunnies out exercising!!! We have some out of shape bunnies around here!!!
Thursday, November 17, 2011
1 week until FEAST time!
We are just one week from THANKSGIVING!!
As everyone already knows... I have been thankful daily!! Sometimes it is just something little, that may seem silly... but it's the little things that keep me going sometimes.
Yesterday I started doing some serious meal planning for our Thanksgiving! We are looking at about 20 people coming!! I am thinking of trying a few new dishes for our feast... not just the "same ole" Thanksgiving meal. ;-)
Speaking of food... I really need to get serious about my diet!!! My scale is def going in the wrong direction!!! And it is really starting to show... my heart is acting funky, my back is killing me, and let me tell you about my mood...!
It isnt easy, let me tell you!!! I have NO support in this house!!! I buy foods that are good for ME to eat... and somehow everyone else runs off with them!!! BUT, if those were the ONLY foods I would buy... all hell would break loose!! UGH!!
My husband isnt any help either... apparently he has NO self control of his own!! Four donuts in one day...at work... It doesnt matter what I buy for the house, he just goes crazy elsewhere!!
I cant police everyone... but it would be nice to have my husband helping me with this struggle. I am thankful for my friends who try to be supportive!! I think I would just lay down and give up if it werent for them!!
Let me tell you about the nitemare of this damn doggie door!!!!! LOL!!!!
UGH!!!! Some are getting it... some refuse...!!! So much for my trainable German Shep!!! His ass is going to be looking for a new home if he doesnt get it together real soon!!! UGH!!!
Then there are the dogs that are just too smart for their own good... they use the doggie door to go out... then find their way out of the run... and let themselves in the out kitchen door!!! WTH!?!?!
I think this weekend we need to finish the run... secure it... and hope these bone heads decide to cooperate!!!
Bunnies are doing well! I LOVE having our rabbitry. I want to figure out a new cage system... I have been on the look out. Because I want to increase our numbers a little. I still have some Holland Lops and an English Lop waiting for me. AND... my Champagne as a girlfriend waiting for him!
We have decided (and researched) a new "diet" for Nathaniel!! We are going to start him on it this weekend. We are hoping that will help with his attention issues at school! It is going to be a major pain in the ass...and one more thing for ME to deal with and worry about... but I feel it will be worth it. Praying it just works!!!
My mother's moving date is fast approaching. I hope for everyones sake... it goes smooth.
She really pissed me off when she told Nathan that she couldnt attend Grandparent's Day at school.... because I was forcing her to pack boxes!!! Real nice... real nice!! THIS is what I am dealing with!!! The woman NEVER attended a Grandparent's day... for ANY of the kids... ANY other year!!! Why would this year be any different?!?!? I am not going to even get started.
My grandparents ALWAYS go... as does Ollie's mother!! Yep... interesting... LOL!!
Today I am making the call to cancel our Dish!!! Hello limited basic cable!!! LOL!!!
ALL THREE of my kids walked right by the empty trash cans at the curb yesterday after school... do you think any one of them grabbed one and pulled them around the house??? NOPE!!! AND, looking around this morning... chores NOT done properly!!! Oh yes.... changes are needed!!!
My kids have off school ALL week next week... They are in for a real treat!!! (Insert evil laugh here)
Ok... time to get moving on the "getting Nathan to school" battle! Oh joy!!
On a positive note... the sun should be back tomorrow!!!
As everyone already knows... I have been thankful daily!! Sometimes it is just something little, that may seem silly... but it's the little things that keep me going sometimes.
Yesterday I started doing some serious meal planning for our Thanksgiving! We are looking at about 20 people coming!! I am thinking of trying a few new dishes for our feast... not just the "same ole" Thanksgiving meal. ;-)
Speaking of food... I really need to get serious about my diet!!! My scale is def going in the wrong direction!!! And it is really starting to show... my heart is acting funky, my back is killing me, and let me tell you about my mood...!
It isnt easy, let me tell you!!! I have NO support in this house!!! I buy foods that are good for ME to eat... and somehow everyone else runs off with them!!! BUT, if those were the ONLY foods I would buy... all hell would break loose!! UGH!!
My husband isnt any help either... apparently he has NO self control of his own!! Four donuts in one day...at work... It doesnt matter what I buy for the house, he just goes crazy elsewhere!!
I cant police everyone... but it would be nice to have my husband helping me with this struggle. I am thankful for my friends who try to be supportive!! I think I would just lay down and give up if it werent for them!!
Let me tell you about the nitemare of this damn doggie door!!!!! LOL!!!!
UGH!!!! Some are getting it... some refuse...!!! So much for my trainable German Shep!!! His ass is going to be looking for a new home if he doesnt get it together real soon!!! UGH!!!
Then there are the dogs that are just too smart for their own good... they use the doggie door to go out... then find their way out of the run... and let themselves in the out kitchen door!!! WTH!?!?!
I think this weekend we need to finish the run... secure it... and hope these bone heads decide to cooperate!!!
Bunnies are doing well! I LOVE having our rabbitry. I want to figure out a new cage system... I have been on the look out. Because I want to increase our numbers a little. I still have some Holland Lops and an English Lop waiting for me. AND... my Champagne as a girlfriend waiting for him!
We have decided (and researched) a new "diet" for Nathaniel!! We are going to start him on it this weekend. We are hoping that will help with his attention issues at school! It is going to be a major pain in the ass...and one more thing for ME to deal with and worry about... but I feel it will be worth it. Praying it just works!!!
My mother's moving date is fast approaching. I hope for everyones sake... it goes smooth.
She really pissed me off when she told Nathan that she couldnt attend Grandparent's Day at school.... because I was forcing her to pack boxes!!! Real nice... real nice!! THIS is what I am dealing with!!! The woman NEVER attended a Grandparent's day... for ANY of the kids... ANY other year!!! Why would this year be any different?!?!? I am not going to even get started.
My grandparents ALWAYS go... as does Ollie's mother!! Yep... interesting... LOL!!
Today I am making the call to cancel our Dish!!! Hello limited basic cable!!! LOL!!!
ALL THREE of my kids walked right by the empty trash cans at the curb yesterday after school... do you think any one of them grabbed one and pulled them around the house??? NOPE!!! AND, looking around this morning... chores NOT done properly!!! Oh yes.... changes are needed!!!
My kids have off school ALL week next week... They are in for a real treat!!! (Insert evil laugh here)
Ok... time to get moving on the "getting Nathan to school" battle! Oh joy!!
On a positive note... the sun should be back tomorrow!!!
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
A new way of life!!
OK... I have been told many times over the past week or so that my kids just dont appreciate the things they have. And I have been aware of this for quite some time.
Stacy and I are beyond overwhelmed!! Goodness... "overwhelmed" is a huge understatement!!
We are trying to manage 2 houses (both financially and physically). We have to pay that bill... take care of shit when it breaks... mow... weed...
In addition to that... we have a son, Josh... who goes through cars like water!! His car is once again down. He is driving my car... which doesnt have me very happy. On top of that... his car is sitting in our driveway... waiting for the repair fairies to come!!
Stacy has so many other things to take care of... he just cant get to it... ON TOP of working 10 hour days!!!
Also on our plate... Earl's car. Which needs sold. My mom needs the money and is clueless on how to sell it herself. Added to our plate....sitting in our driveway.
My children are making me crazy!!
Thank goodness Britt no longer does cheerleading 1.5 hours away... that takes up an entire day every week. I HATED IT!!! Sounds selfish...? Maybe. But you have NO idea what I was dealing with... and what got neglected in order to make it happen. Making her choose was the BEST decision I have made in a long time!! Too bad I had to battle Stacy on it, at first.
Nathan is having a hard time in school. He is dyslexic... we are trying so hard to work through these issues... but they are far from easy!!
Courtney will be graduating this year... I am soooo proud of her... and at the same time... scared to death of what comes next!!
Brittany... well, Britt is my mini me... enough said!
None of my kids will follow through with their chores. I have to chase behind them... "reminding them"... then checking up on them. And most times... making them do them all again! WTH...?!?!? No, I dont think so! We give chores for them to learn responsibility... and so that it is one less thing I have to do in a day!!! This is turning out to be more work for me!!!
Life does not need to be this hard. It does not need to be this complicated! I am about to make it a whole lot easier and less stressful!!
My new plan...
I am cancelling our DishNetwork! We are going back to old school cable with 7 damn channels!!! There is an extra $90 a month to go into SAVINGS! I like savings... maybe I will get a nice vacation... or the HONEYMOON we never had!!!
PLUS... the extra time the kids will be forced to spend together without the TV... will maybe teach them to get along for a change!! Time to pull out the cards and board games!!! PERFECT!
I dont watch TV much at all. Only for about 20 minutes in the evening as Stay and I are cuddling. So, TV was basically for the kids.
I am downgrading my cell phone to talk and text only. I dont need the damn internet on my phone. All it does it add drama to my day. The bullshit emails can wait until I get home and sit down at my desk! Same goes for the news that usually just makes me ill anyway! Less stress... AND... extra money into MY vacation fund!!! WIN-WIN situation there!!!
Other cell phone downgrades... the kids will have talk time and text limitations... starting IMMEDIATELY!
My children who like to leave lights on... If I find lights left on and no one around... I am taking out the damn light bulbs!!! Problem solved!
I want more time to enjoy our lives... less time stressing over stupid shit.
Our kids have turned into spoiled brats. And I am NOT liking it one darn bit!!
I plan on continueing with 4-H... and supporting their Farm Show projects. I also plan on allowing them to continue with their animal "adventures" where ever that may lead. I feel that being responsible for a life other than their own is a HUGE learning experience.... one they need to understand.
As for other activities... as they learn to handle the priorities in their lives.
As for other things that are weighing Stacy and I down...
Josh's car... He better learn to take damn good care of it from this repair on. Because MY car will be OFF LIMITS from now on. I can only imagine the miles beng beat on to it... and it pisses me off!!!
Earl's car... it is listed... with the insane, unrealistic price my mom seems to think she will get for it. After a few weeks... if it doesnt sell... it will be in her driveway... and her problem. Yes, Stacy and I have sold many cars... rather quickly on CL... BUT we had realistic prices set. I guess time will tell.
Stacy and I... along with Josh will be moving my mom and all of her stuff this Saturday. Cant wait! Just the 3 of us. My broken back, Stacy's bad back, and Josh. Sounds like a great, fun filled day in the making!! AND... me and the kids will be MISSING another rabbit show for this! Cant wait to break that to the kids. I sure hope my mother plans on helping with this!!! WE ARE NOT doing this on our own FOR her!!!
Once my mom is moved... I am done. Time for her to sink or swim!! I cant take care of her... I cant do everything for her... I have limits and boundaries... and we are hitting them!!!
I am just so sick of the crap!! Like I said earlier... life does not need to be this hard!! I am going back to "simple"... and we shall see where that gets us.
Ok... done venting!
Now for me to continue to teach our dogs how to use the doggie door!!! What an adventure this is becoming!!! Most of them are getting the door thing down... but NONE of them want to potty ON the stall mats. Sooooo.... my hardward floor is a better option...?!?!? I DONT THINK SO!
I pray for patience over the next few days while we work through this!
Stacy and I are beyond overwhelmed!! Goodness... "overwhelmed" is a huge understatement!!
We are trying to manage 2 houses (both financially and physically). We have to pay that bill... take care of shit when it breaks... mow... weed...
In addition to that... we have a son, Josh... who goes through cars like water!! His car is once again down. He is driving my car... which doesnt have me very happy. On top of that... his car is sitting in our driveway... waiting for the repair fairies to come!!
Stacy has so many other things to take care of... he just cant get to it... ON TOP of working 10 hour days!!!
Also on our plate... Earl's car. Which needs sold. My mom needs the money and is clueless on how to sell it herself. Added to our plate....sitting in our driveway.
My children are making me crazy!!
Thank goodness Britt no longer does cheerleading 1.5 hours away... that takes up an entire day every week. I HATED IT!!! Sounds selfish...? Maybe. But you have NO idea what I was dealing with... and what got neglected in order to make it happen. Making her choose was the BEST decision I have made in a long time!! Too bad I had to battle Stacy on it, at first.
Nathan is having a hard time in school. He is dyslexic... we are trying so hard to work through these issues... but they are far from easy!!
Courtney will be graduating this year... I am soooo proud of her... and at the same time... scared to death of what comes next!!
Brittany... well, Britt is my mini me... enough said!
None of my kids will follow through with their chores. I have to chase behind them... "reminding them"... then checking up on them. And most times... making them do them all again! WTH...?!?!? No, I dont think so! We give chores for them to learn responsibility... and so that it is one less thing I have to do in a day!!! This is turning out to be more work for me!!!
Life does not need to be this hard. It does not need to be this complicated! I am about to make it a whole lot easier and less stressful!!
My new plan...
I am cancelling our DishNetwork! We are going back to old school cable with 7 damn channels!!! There is an extra $90 a month to go into SAVINGS! I like savings... maybe I will get a nice vacation... or the HONEYMOON we never had!!!
PLUS... the extra time the kids will be forced to spend together without the TV... will maybe teach them to get along for a change!! Time to pull out the cards and board games!!! PERFECT!
I dont watch TV much at all. Only for about 20 minutes in the evening as Stay and I are cuddling. So, TV was basically for the kids.
I am downgrading my cell phone to talk and text only. I dont need the damn internet on my phone. All it does it add drama to my day. The bullshit emails can wait until I get home and sit down at my desk! Same goes for the news that usually just makes me ill anyway! Less stress... AND... extra money into MY vacation fund!!! WIN-WIN situation there!!!
Other cell phone downgrades... the kids will have talk time and text limitations... starting IMMEDIATELY!
My children who like to leave lights on... If I find lights left on and no one around... I am taking out the damn light bulbs!!! Problem solved!
I want more time to enjoy our lives... less time stressing over stupid shit.
Our kids have turned into spoiled brats. And I am NOT liking it one darn bit!!
I plan on continueing with 4-H... and supporting their Farm Show projects. I also plan on allowing them to continue with their animal "adventures" where ever that may lead. I feel that being responsible for a life other than their own is a HUGE learning experience.... one they need to understand.
As for other activities... as they learn to handle the priorities in their lives.
As for other things that are weighing Stacy and I down...
Josh's car... He better learn to take damn good care of it from this repair on. Because MY car will be OFF LIMITS from now on. I can only imagine the miles beng beat on to it... and it pisses me off!!!
Earl's car... it is listed... with the insane, unrealistic price my mom seems to think she will get for it. After a few weeks... if it doesnt sell... it will be in her driveway... and her problem. Yes, Stacy and I have sold many cars... rather quickly on CL... BUT we had realistic prices set. I guess time will tell.
Stacy and I... along with Josh will be moving my mom and all of her stuff this Saturday. Cant wait! Just the 3 of us. My broken back, Stacy's bad back, and Josh. Sounds like a great, fun filled day in the making!! AND... me and the kids will be MISSING another rabbit show for this! Cant wait to break that to the kids. I sure hope my mother plans on helping with this!!! WE ARE NOT doing this on our own FOR her!!!
Once my mom is moved... I am done. Time for her to sink or swim!! I cant take care of her... I cant do everything for her... I have limits and boundaries... and we are hitting them!!!
I am just so sick of the crap!! Like I said earlier... life does not need to be this hard!! I am going back to "simple"... and we shall see where that gets us.
Ok... done venting!
Now for me to continue to teach our dogs how to use the doggie door!!! What an adventure this is becoming!!! Most of them are getting the door thing down... but NONE of them want to potty ON the stall mats. Sooooo.... my hardward floor is a better option...?!?!? I DONT THINK SO!
I pray for patience over the next few days while we work through this!
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
100th Post!!
Today I am writing my 100th post!! Not that it really means much... just thought I would point that out. LOL
Want to know what I have figured out through these 100 posts...?? I get more hits on my negative post than I do on my positive ones! How strange is that?!?! Ppl would much rather read about our misery! Interesting.
Anyway...
I wasnt real pleased when I woke up to rain this morning... BOOOO!! But, I cant bitch too much... the weather has been really, really nice and for quite some time. My kids want it to be snow. It did snow, majorly, in October... and here we are with 65 degree weather in November... I am not real sure what to think. LOL
Last nite was another sleepless nite. Cats were fighting! Let me tell ya... I almost tested out Britt's new gun myself! I am so sick of ppl getting these freakin cats... but not keeping them as pets!!! Some have made the Yota their new home!!! It is GROSS! I am not real sure why they decide to hang out around our garage... but it is pissing me off!!!
So yes, I am a little cranky today. LOL To top it off... Nathan is NOT cooperating. You'd think I would be use to that by now. Not so much use to it... but definately sick of it!!
Brittany lost her major attitude with me... it didnt last as long as I had thought it would. I am pretty thankful for that.
The bottom line was... she didnt like a large percentage of the girls on the team... they didnt like her. She couldnt trust them and they would drop her! I despised a large percentage of the parents... and it took all I had on a weekly basis NOT to go off! It just wasnt people/kids I wanted my family around.
So I will admit it... I did a happy dance when Britt chose NO cheerforce team!!! :-D
Yesterday Britt even loosened up... pulled out her drop spindle and gave it another try. THANK YOU, GOD!! We are moving on. And I really feel that the 4-H kids and parents are a MUCH better match for us!!
We are looking forward to doing the live nativity in December!! AND making the quilt square... even tho we have NO CLUE what we are doing!! LOL
Tomorrow my 1st two dogs return to my shop! It's hard to believe I have been at this for 7 weeks!!! I am hoping to be able to give them both more poodle looking cuts tomorrow! Soooo... I am pretty excited!!!
I guess it is about time to start thinking about our Thanksgiving Feast!!! I will take the rest of this week to plan my homemade meal to share with family!!
I am hoping this will be a special Holiday for everyone... Stac and I think it is pretty important to get everyone together, around Pappy George, since his health isnt the best. We are really looking forward to hosting this!
Last nite we set the dog run posts!! And put down the stall mats! I am hoping to have it all finished by the end of the week. THEN to train them to use the doggie door!!!
From what Stacy researched... we cant put down grass seed until spring. BOOOO. I am really looking forward to leveling out the yard and getting some grass to grow!!
I am only going to touch on this subject... Let me tell you how PISSED I am that my dear hubby didnt PUT THE POOL AWAY... when he took it down!!! Ummm... he is a starter... NOT a finisher!! Anyway, it layed out there... and while he was moving the something around, the dolly got hooked on it and ripped the damn thing!!! That is all I am going to say about that! Other than... GRRRRRR! Good thing I put away all the pieces I could physically move... Lord only knows what would have happened to them.
Ok... that is all I have time for. Must get Nathan moving. He is trying to tuck himself away in the bathroom again... and it isnt going to happen again today!!! He missed yesterday... that was enough.
I emailed his teacher... because we really need to figure out what to do about Nathan's HATRED for school!! Of course, since I mentioned his IEP... she never responded to my email. Perfect!
Enjoy your dreary, rainy day!!! Maybe I will start on my Christmas projects... Hmmmmm....
Want to know what I have figured out through these 100 posts...?? I get more hits on my negative post than I do on my positive ones! How strange is that?!?! Ppl would much rather read about our misery! Interesting.
Anyway...
I wasnt real pleased when I woke up to rain this morning... BOOOO!! But, I cant bitch too much... the weather has been really, really nice and for quite some time. My kids want it to be snow. It did snow, majorly, in October... and here we are with 65 degree weather in November... I am not real sure what to think. LOL
Last nite was another sleepless nite. Cats were fighting! Let me tell ya... I almost tested out Britt's new gun myself! I am so sick of ppl getting these freakin cats... but not keeping them as pets!!! Some have made the Yota their new home!!! It is GROSS! I am not real sure why they decide to hang out around our garage... but it is pissing me off!!!
So yes, I am a little cranky today. LOL To top it off... Nathan is NOT cooperating. You'd think I would be use to that by now. Not so much use to it... but definately sick of it!!
Brittany lost her major attitude with me... it didnt last as long as I had thought it would. I am pretty thankful for that.
The bottom line was... she didnt like a large percentage of the girls on the team... they didnt like her. She couldnt trust them and they would drop her! I despised a large percentage of the parents... and it took all I had on a weekly basis NOT to go off! It just wasnt people/kids I wanted my family around.
So I will admit it... I did a happy dance when Britt chose NO cheerforce team!!! :-D
Yesterday Britt even loosened up... pulled out her drop spindle and gave it another try. THANK YOU, GOD!! We are moving on. And I really feel that the 4-H kids and parents are a MUCH better match for us!!
We are looking forward to doing the live nativity in December!! AND making the quilt square... even tho we have NO CLUE what we are doing!! LOL
Tomorrow my 1st two dogs return to my shop! It's hard to believe I have been at this for 7 weeks!!! I am hoping to be able to give them both more poodle looking cuts tomorrow! Soooo... I am pretty excited!!!
I guess it is about time to start thinking about our Thanksgiving Feast!!! I will take the rest of this week to plan my homemade meal to share with family!!
I am hoping this will be a special Holiday for everyone... Stac and I think it is pretty important to get everyone together, around Pappy George, since his health isnt the best. We are really looking forward to hosting this!
Last nite we set the dog run posts!! And put down the stall mats! I am hoping to have it all finished by the end of the week. THEN to train them to use the doggie door!!!
From what Stacy researched... we cant put down grass seed until spring. BOOOO. I am really looking forward to leveling out the yard and getting some grass to grow!!
I am only going to touch on this subject... Let me tell you how PISSED I am that my dear hubby didnt PUT THE POOL AWAY... when he took it down!!! Ummm... he is a starter... NOT a finisher!! Anyway, it layed out there... and while he was moving the something around, the dolly got hooked on it and ripped the damn thing!!! That is all I am going to say about that! Other than... GRRRRRR! Good thing I put away all the pieces I could physically move... Lord only knows what would have happened to them.
Ok... that is all I have time for. Must get Nathan moving. He is trying to tuck himself away in the bathroom again... and it isnt going to happen again today!!! He missed yesterday... that was enough.
I emailed his teacher... because we really need to figure out what to do about Nathan's HATRED for school!! Of course, since I mentioned his IEP... she never responded to my email. Perfect!
Enjoy your dreary, rainy day!!! Maybe I will start on my Christmas projects... Hmmmmm....
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