Migraine from HELL

I had an awesome day yesterday!!  Undecorating from Thanksgiving, planning for Christmas.  I spent the afternoon with Julie, her daughter and her pup... working on some training (or, well, watching Addie train us... lol)... I even got to do some grooming!! 
Our bunnies were out getting some exercise... the sun was shining...got some adult conversation...and a new pair of comfy, fuzzy socks! It was a great day!!

Then the evening hit... and it all went down hill from there.  Which is just damn sad.

I dont understand... I try so hard to do good things... but in the end, they always just back fire on me.

My mother.  Need I say more...?!?

I thought we were doing good by helping her out.  I wanted this to be a chance for her to get on her feet again... start living like a 50 yr old and not an 80 yr old.  Apparently it just isnt going to happen.  She isnt going to change. 
Even the written agreement we have, and she signed, means NOTHING to her. 
Once again in life... I go out of my way to help... and I end up paying the price!!  In my own home, we are going without things... downsizing things... to be able to continue to pay both mortgages... so that we have a home and now Josh and my mom have a home!  One would think ppl would appreciate that.  NOPE!  I do believe that Josh is trying very hard to make the situation work.  BUT, it is pretty damn hard when the other person in the house thinks she is above agreements and can be pushy to get her way...or just refuses to do anything.

I just cant do it anymore.  Josh is using my car... while his is down.  Stacy is working 7 freakin days a week and cant help Josh fix his car.  (And Josh has been up here doing all he can with the car, on his own) Josh cant have ppl in his own home to visit because my mother cant keep clothes on or move off the couch and away from the TV!
What the hell is wrong with this picture?!?!?  PLEASE... Someone tell me what I can possibly do to make this better???  I'll tell you... NOTHING!!!  It is out of my hands.  BUT... you would think, that a person with NOTHING and NO place to go... would do a little more to make things work!!!  NOPE... and yet when I blog about her actions... she gets upset that I make her look ungrateful!!  WWWEEELLLLL.... Stop acting and looking the part!!!  GRRRRR!!

Last nite spiralled downward real quick!  I ended up with such a migraine... I wanted to just die.
I have 4 kids to be a mother to.  I do not need to mother my mother.
I WILL NOT ALLOW OTHER PPL TO AFFECT MY LIFE IN A NEGATIVE WAY!! 
I moved an hour plus away from ppl for a reason! 

So... ppl are either going to be part of the problem or part of the solution... but if you are part of the problem, be prepared to get out of my life!

I am DONE! 

My kids will not live with a mom who is hiding from stress and the pain that it causes!!  I plan on living our lives to the fullest!!  And after last nite... Stacy said he will be taking over the old house bullshit... because he is not playing these games with ppl. 

I LOVE doing things with my kids!!!  And today we will be going on an adventure to get our first REAL Christmas tree... first real one in 14 yrs!!  I AM SOOO EXCITED!!!!  AND... Stacy found new springs for my car... the car Josh is trying!  LMAO!!  I cant wait to get new springs on it... and DRIVE it around!!! 
I also cant wait to send the kids up to the attic... and pull down Christmas decorations!!!

AND... I LOVE having Josh come over... and watching the other kids spend time with him... because they really do miss him!!  Both girls got dressed and headed out to help him with his car!!! 
I LOVE MY KIDS!!!   I LOVE how I they are all turning out!!!  I DID DO SOMETHING RIGHT!!!  :-)

I will say it again...
I AM SOOO BLESSED to have 4 awesome kids... and an awesome hubby!!!  To have a beautiful house... and amazing truck... and food  in the fridge... and furbabies to love...
I LOVE MY LIFE!  :-)