OK... I have been told many times over the past week or so that my kids just dont appreciate the things they have. And I have been aware of this for quite some time.
Stacy and I are beyond overwhelmed!! Goodness... "overwhelmed" is a huge understatement!!
We are trying to manage 2 houses (both financially and physically). We have to pay that bill... take care of shit when it breaks... mow... weed...
In addition to that... we have a son, Josh... who goes through cars like water!! His car is once again down. He is driving my car... which doesnt have me very happy. On top of that... his car is sitting in our driveway... waiting for the repair fairies to come!!
Stacy has so many other things to take care of... he just cant get to it... ON TOP of working 10 hour days!!!
Also on our plate... Earl's car. Which needs sold. My mom needs the money and is clueless on how to sell it herself. Added to our plate....sitting in our driveway.
My children are making me crazy!!
Thank goodness Britt no longer does cheerleading 1.5 hours away... that takes up an entire day every week. I HATED IT!!! Sounds selfish...? Maybe. But you have NO idea what I was dealing with... and what got neglected in order to make it happen. Making her choose was the BEST decision I have made in a long time!! Too bad I had to battle Stacy on it, at first.
Nathan is having a hard time in school. He is dyslexic... we are trying so hard to work through these issues... but they are far from easy!!
Courtney will be graduating this year... I am soooo proud of her... and at the same time... scared to death of what comes next!!
Brittany... well, Britt is my mini me... enough said!
None of my kids will follow through with their chores. I have to chase behind them... "reminding them"... then checking up on them. And most times... making them do them all again! WTH...?!?!? No, I dont think so! We give chores for them to learn responsibility... and so that it is one less thing I have to do in a day!!! This is turning out to be more work for me!!!
Life does not need to be this hard. It does not need to be this complicated! I am about to make it a whole lot easier and less stressful!!
My new plan...
I am cancelling our DishNetwork! We are going back to old school cable with 7 damn channels!!! There is an extra $90 a month to go into SAVINGS! I like savings... maybe I will get a nice vacation... or the HONEYMOON we never had!!!
PLUS... the extra time the kids will be forced to spend together without the TV... will maybe teach them to get along for a change!! Time to pull out the cards and board games!!! PERFECT!
I dont watch TV much at all. Only for about 20 minutes in the evening as Stay and I are cuddling. So, TV was basically for the kids.
I am downgrading my cell phone to talk and text only. I dont need the damn internet on my phone. All it does it add drama to my day. The bullshit emails can wait until I get home and sit down at my desk! Same goes for the news that usually just makes me ill anyway! Less stress... AND... extra money into MY vacation fund!!! WIN-WIN situation there!!!
Other cell phone downgrades... the kids will have talk time and text limitations... starting IMMEDIATELY!
My children who like to leave lights on... If I find lights left on and no one around... I am taking out the damn light bulbs!!! Problem solved!
I want more time to enjoy our lives... less time stressing over stupid shit.
Our kids have turned into spoiled brats. And I am NOT liking it one darn bit!!
I plan on continueing with 4-H... and supporting their Farm Show projects. I also plan on allowing them to continue with their animal "adventures" where ever that may lead. I feel that being responsible for a life other than their own is a HUGE learning experience.... one they need to understand.
As for other activities... as they learn to handle the priorities in their lives.
As for other things that are weighing Stacy and I down...
Josh's car... He better learn to take damn good care of it from this repair on. Because MY car will be OFF LIMITS from now on. I can only imagine the miles beng beat on to it... and it pisses me off!!!
Earl's car... it is listed... with the insane, unrealistic price my mom seems to think she will get for it. After a few weeks... if it doesnt sell... it will be in her driveway... and her problem. Yes, Stacy and I have sold many cars... rather quickly on CL... BUT we had realistic prices set. I guess time will tell.
Stacy and I... along with Josh will be moving my mom and all of her stuff this Saturday. Cant wait! Just the 3 of us. My broken back, Stacy's bad back, and Josh. Sounds like a great, fun filled day in the making!! AND... me and the kids will be MISSING another rabbit show for this! Cant wait to break that to the kids. I sure hope my mother plans on helping with this!!! WE ARE NOT doing this on our own FOR her!!!
Once my mom is moved... I am done. Time for her to sink or swim!! I cant take care of her... I cant do everything for her... I have limits and boundaries... and we are hitting them!!!
I am just so sick of the crap!! Like I said earlier... life does not need to be this hard!! I am going back to "simple"... and we shall see where that gets us.
Ok... done venting!
Now for me to continue to teach our dogs how to use the doggie door!!! What an adventure this is becoming!!! Most of them are getting the door thing down... but NONE of them want to potty ON the stall mats. Sooooo.... my hardward floor is a better option...?!?!? I DONT THINK SO!
I pray for patience over the next few days while we work through this!
No comments:
Post a Comment