Christmas Eve's Eve!!

Wow... once we get to this point... that whole eve of the eve of the eve thing I do with the kids... gets a whole lot easier!! LOL!!

Today the kids have a half day... and we plan on doing some serious baking this afternoon!!! Then it is all about count down to Christmas morning!

Oh... I got my first materials (thru email 400page PDF...LOL) about our new diet program!! I am pretty excited about getting that underway. BUT, it is going to have to wait until the start of 2012... just too much going on over the next week.
Geez... I have to sit down and do my 2011 goals in review... and make up my goals for 2012!! I cant believe how fast time flies!!!

Stacy and I will be making some more, new adjustments to our lives! We have mixed feelings on it... it is both sad and exciting.
All kinds of stuff came to a boiling point yesterday... and well, I freely and openly admit I stewed on things until I just jumped on acting. At the same time... I think the reaction Stacy got was grossly over reacted! But... it is what it is. He now sees things and ppl in a different light... and now we move on.
I really wish sitting everyone down together would get to some sort of resolution to the issues we have been having... but I know better. First of all... who wants to take time out of their lives to deal with ex's... let alone ex's of ex's?!?! Just seems a bit ridiculous to me. Second... it's everyone's word against eachother! How do you go about proving someones motives?? Not exactly sure what an attorney can offer to this utter insanity... but hey... whatever floats your boat. You want to waste money on that... go for it.
Just seems kind of bully like to me. And for those reading this... these are my FEELINGS... I am not making ACCUSATIONS against anyone!! There is a HUGE difference. I guess my FEELINGS and OBSERVATIONS tend to hurt others feelings... oh well. Life goes on!
And really... who is the judge and jury we need to prove anything to in regards to any of this?!?! LOL!! It is what it is. These are things we are living.
Ok... I am over it!

Moving on...
I guess we will have to have some tough conversations with the kids over the next few days. Oh joy.

And we have some tough decisions to make as the new year begins as well! We were tossing out some idea's last nite... but, I dont want to make any emotional decisions. We are going to get through the holidays... and then take a look at things.

I know that this time of year is ALWAYS difficult for me... during a good year.
This year I have had more stuff thrown at me then I care to deal with!!! No one takes the time to realize any of that... or to take a few steps in my shoes!!
-Earl passing away... and dealing with my Mom. (Seriously, this has been enough to send me over the edge)
-Taking care of Josh.
-Dealing with Courtney and her daily issues. (and boy, they sure are daily!! I am in constant communication with the school... teachers... etc. Not a day goes by)
-Preparing for her fast approaching graduation and what happens with her next.
-Dealing with Nathan's increasing issues. (Also at least weekly communication with the school... and constant battles at home... that Stacy and I just dont know what to do to deal with them anymore.)
-Ex's that never seem to go away.
-Unsupportive family members who seem to be working AGAINST us.
-Trying to start and build a business... while keeping up with the demand of being a mom and wife.
-The loss of Stacy's grandfather.
-Issue after issue with things in our house... and with things at the other house.
-Trying to maintain and afford two houses.
-Trying to do the right things... and make everyone happy in the process.

IT IS JUST TOO MUCH!

Oh well. I am human. Yes, I should have left well enough alone when Stacy handled things the best he could. But damn... I get so sick of having to ask myself why I am not good enough!!!

Ok... on with my day. I have to clear some space in the kitchen and on the dining room table... so we can BAKE once everyone gets home!!! MAY THE FUN BEGIN!!!