Keep moving forward...

First... and most important... My first born is turning 19 today!!  UNBELIEVABLE!!!  I made him one of his favorites for dinner... and baked his cake!  I am so proud of him!!  He FINALLY started to see the world in a better perspective... and I LOVE when he comes to me and tells me I was right about things!!!  LOL!  It is THE BEST feeling ever!! 
He is now glad that I did raise him the way I did... and I did make certain things hard for him... and I did have the expectations I had!  It is all making sense to him now... and I am glad!  He turned out pretty darn good... I hope he continues!

Yesterday was a stressful day for me.  I felt like things just werent coming together the way they should be.  On top of that... Courtney was having a 17 yr old temper tantrum!!  Oh we all love those moments!!  She seems to think that since Josh pulled his crap at that age... and talked everyone into buying into his game... she can do the same!!  HA HA HA!!!  Courtney is too much for anyone else to deal with!  Now she feels like Josh is the favorite of my family... and they all love him more.  And, I can see where she is coming from.  But... there is nothing I can do about it... they all made the choices they did... and they have to live with all the consequences.  The kids are seeing things through their own eyes now... and I wont make excuses for anyone... especially them!
Besides... like I said... Courtney is just too much for anyone to handle.  Everyone likes to complain about how I raise her... but truth be told... NO ONE that puts me down about my decisions can do a better job.  Just like I have said in the past (with Josh even)... hey, you think you can do better... GO FOR IT!!  With Josh they all decided to jump at the chance... LOL... that really back fired!!  Now he is back with us... yes, doing his own thing... but sees that my way was the better way.  Live and Learn!! 
As far as Courtney is concerned... NOT GONNA HAPPEN!!  No one wants to put that much time or effort into making sure her needs are met.  People KNOW I am doing a damn good job with her... and they see ALL of the progress she has made!!  It is a heck of a lot of work!  And I will fight FOR her (and WITH her) for as long as I am here to do it!!  NO ONE else can say those words and mean it!!! 
Anyway... it was a hellish afternoon and evening... and of course she had to get everyone involved... just more crap for me to deal with.  I wish a day would come when ppl could back me up instead of making things worse.  Some things will never change!
As we were going rounds... I was trying to make salsa... Of course I am pretty sure I put too much vinegar in it.  Stacy says it tastes fine... but, he would eat anything!  Lesson learned... DONT cook and battle Courtney at the same time!  LOL!! 

I realized that my shop table is way too small yesterday!  I tried to get my dogs on it... and it just wasnt gonna happen!  UGH!!  So I had a HUGE mental battle over ordering a new one... but decided to revamp this one!  I just dont want to spent the money on another table at this point!!  I am working within a budget... and other things are more of a priority!!
My PINK dryer came today!!  The UPS guy is goning to become a good friend over the next few weeks!!  Yesterday my bathing system, groomer's chair, shampoo rack, shear holder and a few other things came!
Stacy started on our dividing wall... to seperate my shop from our mud room!!  Thank goodness!!!  Tub guys come in a week... and I am hoping to have the tub in place by that point!

All in all... things ARE coming together.  I know I get worked up sometimes... but it is hard not to.
I am just really worried that I wont get the business... and all of this will be for nothing!  That really scares me!!! 

Well... time to get ready for Josh's birthday celebration!!