Emotional crap AND fibro

So I have come to realize that the more bullshit I am dealing with... the more my fibro flares up!
I am on a mission to simplify our life.  I am on a big DE CLUTTERING kick!  If we havent used it in 6 months, and I dont see us using it in the future... it is GONE!  I am on a mission to get some of our projects DONE around here...I have weekend goals set every weekend.
I am downsizing our "fleet".  We traded in our Expedition for a new car for Stacy...which he is VERY happy with.  We gave Josh Stacy's cavalier (since Josh's car is a piece of shit... we are fixing it and getting rid of that heap).  I am selling the Bronco 2.  We are also selling the motorcycle. 

I have a HUGE need to just make life a lot more simple... so I can continue on with other goals. 
I start Grooming School in a month... and I want to go into that a clear mind, and less clutter.  I want to be able to get the "green room" done up for my own grooming business. I also want all of the unfinished projects around our house to get DONE!

So... my list for the upcoming weekend and week:
-DECLUTTER
-Continue with jams and jellies (blueberry is next)
-Finish ALL bedroom floors
-Get our bedroom in order and move our "office" up there
-Get rid of at least 3 more bags of donation items and/or trash

I also want to be able to launch http://www.loveduckfarm.com/ by the end of next week!! 

I am so glad I have this place to put all of my goals out there... so I cant just tuck them into the back of my head and forget about them!!!  I am determined to make progress... and this really helps!

Now to talk about the week we just had...
All in all... it has been a very good week.  Yes, I have been a bit more painful than usual... but I have pin pointed the cause, and am in the process of eliminating it from my life!!  Even if we will take a slight financial hit.... to me, it is worth it in the long run!  I can handle the pain it is causing me. 
Again, I am glad we opted OUT of the 4th of July "family" picnic.  That is just another energy sucking ordeal.  It seems to just bring us down with all of the negative energy we are faced with.  I cant stand the fakeness of some... and the flat out stupidity of others.  And, it isnt just me... My husband feels the same.  We had our own, drama free, celebration with the kids.  And I know it pissed some ppl off... but, it's OUR life... so it IS all about us!! 
Yesterday I took the kids to Little Buffalo swimming with Jen and the girls.  We had a GREAT, stress free day!!   Too bad a storm hit... and we had to cut it short!  I have hopes of planning another trip there before the summer is over.
Other stuff this week...  Stacy gave Josh his cavalier.  I have to add that we are seeing A LOT of growth in Josh lately.  We are both very proud of him... and LOVE spending time with him!!  AND... I cant wait to get rid of his previous EVIL car!!!
Stacy got a new car!  Right out of the show room!!  We traded the Expedition... and got a GREAT deal!  I am more then pleased about that!  And Stacy is tickled with his brand new car!!
Britt and I had our first experience with a rotten egg.  LMAO!!  That is all I want to say about that.
I got rid of 3 more bags of "clutter."
And.... Stacy started to let Sprocket sleep curled up with us in bed every nite!  LOL

Soooo... all in all... a very good week.  Yes, we have been dealing with some "old house" bullshit... but that is on its way out... and I have learned yet another valuable lesson!

Ok... on to get things ready to make more progress this weekend!!!

Wow... July 1!!

Ok... it has been a few days since my last blog!  I am slacking...LOL!!  Well, actually not slacking... just been soooo super busy with life!
Our business endeavor has been put on hold temporarily... things just didnt jive with the bank and such.  But, like I ALWAYS say... everything happens for a reason!!  I am signed up for Grooming School... beginning in August.  I am sooo excited!!  The woman that runs it seems WONDERFUL... and will teach me all I need to know about grooming, and starting my grooming business!  I am soooo very excited!!  I like taking steps in the right direction!!

I am sitting here... rushing through this blog... It is shortly after 11 am... and my day has already been extremely crazy!!  Josh is having more car trouble... and I made some executive decisions on that!!! (Oh yes, we all know how I am with those!!LOL) 
Actually... the past week has been FULL of those decisions for me!  I am on a mission to simplify our life!!  And make the lives of our kids even better.  Baby steps!

I am also sitting here thinking... actually I have been thinking all morning.  Isnt it funny...  I never had anyone I could depend on growing up... but MYSELF!!  And now... EVERYONE depends on ME!!!  Crazy.  Of course I dont mind when my kids come to me... that is my job as a mother... and Stacy's as a father.  But we also have other ppl needing us.  My bitter side wants to know where these ppl were when I needed them!?!?  NO WHERE TO BE FOUND!  So why in the hell am I helping them??  Am I being used... or taken advantage of??  It is possible... but still I do what I can for those ppl.  To an extent.  And I am coming to the point where I just say screw them all... and take care of me, my kids and my hubby!!

Oh well... not worth the energy it is taking me to type this.

Ugh... the past few days have been HORRIBLE Fibro days!!  I didnt sleep at all last nite... and I hurt like hell ALL OVER!!  I dont complain much... but days like today really get to me.  I will still keep moving.. and never give in to this pain or bullshit!  If I do... it will consume my life... and that wuold be the beginning of the end!  NO WAY... NOT ME!!!  POSITIVE THOUGHTS...POSITIVE ENERGY!!  I will keep going forward!

I have all intentions of getting back to LOVE DUCK FARM business next week!  I have some magic potions to whip up!!  And my jams and jellys are waiting to be made.  I am going to pick blueberries tomorrow!! 
I am also working on our goal to SIMPLIFY LIFE... getting rid of unneccessary things that clutter up our space!! 
Bronco 2 is getting sold.  Stacy's car is getting sold (to Josh, now).  Our motorcycle is getting sold.  The Expedition is getting traded in on a newer car for Stacy.  2 of the tractors we have sitting outside are being sold.  And that is just the beginning!!  Tidying up life and our surroundings has been LONG over due!!!  I am really feeling the motivation to get these things done!! 
Tomorrow there will be a scrap run too!!!

Ok... I must be getting out of here... time to go save the day of my son...

There are always "detours"...

Just got home from a WONDERFUL camping trip with my kids and hubby!!  We packed up and headed to Pine Grove Furnace State Park... it has an awesome camp ground!!  While camping we headed over to Wishing Well Equestrian Center and took a very nice, relaxing trail ride!!  I want to mention our guides were awesome young ladies... who made the trip even more pleasant!!  I am thinking they will be seeing us again.  Stacy took the kids to the lake while we were there... they have a very nice beach!!  The kids put TONS of miles on their bikes (I think Nathan's had well over 20 miles on his by the end of the weekend).  They made new friends... and we got to cook over an open fire, relax and enjoy eachothers company!

Of course... our trip ended far too soon... and I had to come home to deal with reality.  Seems we ran into some issues with the bank... and I am not yet ready to give up.  That is really all I can say about that... I am not real happy about the situation right now.  It really sucks that we cancelled a summers worth of camping trips and day trips for something that is hanging on a thread...Not to mention I gave up last weekends camping trip and a week of time with Stacy...   Talk about pissed off!!  Oh well... all things worth having take time and hard work... and patience!  I just dont understand why when I put so much into things... they never go as I hope.  UGH! 

Stacy heads back to work on Monday... and I am going to miss having him around.  Not a damn thing got done around the house.  My living room is still unliveable... we still dont have a front porch... our bathroom is still not done either.  Life can be so freakin frustrating at times. 
I am so ready to pack up and move to the middle of nowhere... where I wont have neighbors, I can have my horses and alpacas...  and just enjoy life.  Instead I am here surrounded by idiots who let their preteen girls smoke and have boys sleep over... and who annoy me with their ignorance and stupidity. 

Oh well... maybe I need a day or 2 to refocus... get back on track.  I have also put off making my raspberry and strawberry jams!!  So, this week... that is what I shall be doing!!! 

Time to get some dinner... and get some laundry started... THEN... I am going the hell to bed.  I am exhausted!!!

Father's Day Weekend

I really thought all hopes of making to camp this weekend were lost!  I have been so busy with writing a business plan...and putting in hours at the kennel... that I just gave up on the idea.
Now, keep in mind... Father's Day weekend at camp has been a tradition for us since I met Stacy!!  So...I was pretty bummed about not being able to go.  BUT... Somehow we pulled it off!!!  I got off work yesterday afternoon, ran home, loaded up the dogs and off we went.  Granted we were only gone less than 24 hours... but we still made the trip and made some GREAT memories!!!

We got to get up close and personal with a bear.  We brought in a load of fire wood. I got to cuddle with Gunner.  And I got some GREAT pics!!
Once we got home from our brief visit to camp... Stacy got to drive his mower up to the kennel and FINALLY use his mower deck!!  He is a happy camper!!  After that we came home Stacy and the kids enjoyed the pool while I did more "business" planning.

Tomorrow Stacy will be heading back to the bank with more needed paperwork... and I will be heading to work at the kennel.  The kids will probably spend most of the day swimming.