Today we say good bye to 2011!! WOW... the year flew by!!! I cant wait to see what 2012 has in store for us.
Today we went up to BoxCar Rocks hiking!! It was an awesome day!!! I got to use my new lens for my camera. IT IS AMAZING!!!!
Tomorrow we have another hike planned... up to Love Rock. If I dont die trying to get up there! LOL!!
I am also hard at work to get our new diet program implemented for the new year! I vacuumed sealed a bunch of candy and put it in the freezer. AND... once all of the colored cereal is gone... we wont be buying anymore! ;-)
I think tomorrow I will also try to get some "candy" made that is acceptable in the program. I am really hoping to see a change in Nathan's behavior once we get it all going strong.
I guess that is all for now!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Friday, December 30, 2011
Notes of interest
From my current book... "Toxic In-Laws"
"Because self-centered people are so dependent on outside admiration and approval, most of them are consumed with how they look to others."
"Sometimes toxic in-laws' self-centeredness can come perilously close to paranoia. Because everything is about them, they often accuse you of deliberately upsetting them."
"Some people are so emotionally constricted and so heavily defended, they simply dont have the capacity to walk a block, let alone a mile in someone else's Nikes. Recognizing and understanding these limitations with both you heart and your head will go a long way toward helping you resolve the question, 'How can they treat me this way?'
One of the answers is: They treat you this way because they are either oblivious or indifferent to how much pain they are causing. They cannot feel what you are feeling, and they have a gaping hole inside, where their empathy should be. As a result, they are free to cause suffering without the constraints of such minor inconveniences as guilt or remorse--feelings that would not allow them to go so far without suffering themselves."
This book is GREAT!!! I no longer ask myself..."what did I do wrong?" OR "What is wrong with me?"... I ask... "What is wrong with them, that they dont see me for the good person that I am?" OR "What is wrong with them, that they dont see how much I love my husband and how happy I make him?" !!!!
I am just about half way through the book!! And already have learned so much!!!
Stacy and I are also scheduled to start couples counseling to help us learn to deal with the insanity!! It really does cause a lot of issues between us... because neither one of us knows what to do!
I am so excited!!! MORE PERSONAL GROWTH!!!
2012 is going to be an awesome year!!! :-)
"Because self-centered people are so dependent on outside admiration and approval, most of them are consumed with how they look to others."
"Sometimes toxic in-laws' self-centeredness can come perilously close to paranoia. Because everything is about them, they often accuse you of deliberately upsetting them."
"Some people are so emotionally constricted and so heavily defended, they simply dont have the capacity to walk a block, let alone a mile in someone else's Nikes. Recognizing and understanding these limitations with both you heart and your head will go a long way toward helping you resolve the question, 'How can they treat me this way?'
One of the answers is: They treat you this way because they are either oblivious or indifferent to how much pain they are causing. They cannot feel what you are feeling, and they have a gaping hole inside, where their empathy should be. As a result, they are free to cause suffering without the constraints of such minor inconveniences as guilt or remorse--feelings that would not allow them to go so far without suffering themselves."
This book is GREAT!!! I no longer ask myself..."what did I do wrong?" OR "What is wrong with me?"... I ask... "What is wrong with them, that they dont see me for the good person that I am?" OR "What is wrong with them, that they dont see how much I love my husband and how happy I make him?" !!!!
I am just about half way through the book!! And already have learned so much!!!
Stacy and I are also scheduled to start couples counseling to help us learn to deal with the insanity!! It really does cause a lot of issues between us... because neither one of us knows what to do!
I am so excited!!! MORE PERSONAL GROWTH!!!
2012 is going to be an awesome year!!! :-)
Thursday, December 29, 2011
2012 Garden!!
I put together our Burpee order!! Anyone interested in a "seed swap" let me know!! Lord knows I sure dont use an entire pack of seeds!!
-"Easy Peasy" Peas
-"Peas-in-a-Pot" Peas (look interesting, gonna try it)
-"Cherry Stuffer Hybrid" Sweet Peppers
-"Red Delicious Hybrid" Sweet Peppers
-"Big Guy" Hot Peppers
-"Detroit Dark Red, Med Top" Beets
-"Burpee's Big Boy Hybrid" Tomatoes
-"Sweet Seedless Hybrid" Tomatoes
-"Fresh Salsa Hybrid" Tomatoes
-"Super Sweet 100 Hybrid" Cherry Tomatoes
-"Coconut Ice Hybrid" Sunflowers
-"Sunforest Mix" Sunflowers
-"Burpeeless Beauty" Cucumbers
-"Salad Bush Hybrid" Bush Cucumbers
-"Picklebush" Bush Cucumbers
-"Sweet Treat Hybrid" Carrots
-"Blue Lake 47" Bush Beans
-"Heavyweight II" Bush Beans
-"Big Daddy Hybrid" Onions
-"Kentucky Blue" Pole Snap Beans
-"Elephant" Garlic
-"Big Max" Pumpkins
-"Burpee Butterbush" Butternut Squash
-"Bush Sugar Baby" Watermelon
-"Easy Peasy" Peas
-"Peas-in-a-Pot" Peas (look interesting, gonna try it)
-"Cherry Stuffer Hybrid" Sweet Peppers
-"Red Delicious Hybrid" Sweet Peppers
-"Big Guy" Hot Peppers
-"Detroit Dark Red, Med Top" Beets
-"Burpee's Big Boy Hybrid" Tomatoes
-"Sweet Seedless Hybrid" Tomatoes
-"Fresh Salsa Hybrid" Tomatoes
-"Super Sweet 100 Hybrid" Cherry Tomatoes
-"Coconut Ice Hybrid" Sunflowers
-"Sunforest Mix" Sunflowers
-"Burpeeless Beauty" Cucumbers
-"Salad Bush Hybrid" Bush Cucumbers
-"Picklebush" Bush Cucumbers
-"Sweet Treat Hybrid" Carrots
-"Blue Lake 47" Bush Beans
-"Heavyweight II" Bush Beans
-"Big Daddy Hybrid" Onions
-"Kentucky Blue" Pole Snap Beans
-"Elephant" Garlic
-"Big Max" Pumpkins
-"Burpee Butterbush" Butternut Squash
-"Bush Sugar Baby" Watermelon
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Here and GONE-- Yesterday's blog
Well... the big day that took weeks to prepare for... is OVER!!
My kids were pleased with their gifts, and how the day unfolded. They love all of their gifts! I think the Kindle Fire's were a hit... seeing as how none of them have put them down for very long. Britt already downloaded a book... and it reading her lil heart out. Nathan found some fun games... ad educational ones. Courtney is obsessed with comics and videos.
Stacy got their new desktop all set up... AND the dictation software!!! They all got a boat of clothes from their favorite stores (Aero and Gap). The icee makers are a big hit too!!
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE ALL OF MY HOMEMADE GIFTS!!!! Brittany made me a BEAUTIFUL stool!! And Nathan made me a ceramic thrown bowl... and a trinket box with a lid! LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM!!!
Stacy got me a new... bigger... awesome... tele lens for my Nikon!! I can not wait to use it!! Came with a hood and filter!!! I am soooo stoked!!!!
Our morning yesterday was spent with my family. They came up and we did our gift exchange. We brought some tears to my grandfather's eyes... which was AWESOME!!! We framed 2 pictures of him and Britt and Josh heading out hunting together! Again... not many kids can say they went hunting with their Great Grandfather! I LOVE that mine can!! I can only hope and pray Nathan will get to experience it too.
Once the house cleared out... we ate our dinner. Very simple and stress free lasagna! Loved it!! No stress and little mess!
After we all had full bellies... we took a NAP! The kids busted in our bedroom at 6:01... because we said we werent getting up until after 6...LOL! The dogs had us up before 5... because that was when the kids got up... and they could hear them and apparently shared in their excitement! LOL
After our nap we got up, got ready, and headed to see Grandma Sarah! It was a nice visit and she seemed very happy to be surrounded by everyone. It quickly became noticeable that she was pretty tired. I got my baby fix with holding Coraline for a bit.
Stacy, the kids and I also got to sit and chit chat with some of our favorite ppl (Rodney, Jen and the girls)! We are both so blessed with the relationship we have with them. They are GREAT, non judgemental ppl that accept us and our decision no matter what they are... and then are supportive of them... and us! THAT is what family is all about!
Sooo... once Grandma's kitchen cleared out some... we all sat out there with the few that were left and had a bunch of laughs!
Once we finally left we headed to BK for icees... BUT, they were still closed. So we hit Koppy's for drinks... and then headed to the end of Eville for a light show. It was an awesome end for an amazing day!
I am so ready to undecorate and get things back to normal now. I know... sounds harsh.
Oh... Stacy did sneak in one last gift to me... HIS FREAKIN COLD!!
What will this week bring...
I am getting a few new piercings... and I think 1 or 2 of my kids will be too.
Jen and I plan on taking the kids to the Bounceplex this week too. It is something we did with them last year over Christmas break... and they had a BLAST!! Looking forward to doing it again.
I also plan on taking the kids shopping! They have money burning a hole in their pockets. LOL!
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
So... obviously there was a shit load of stress for Stacy and I over the past few weeks. I am sure it was noticeable to everyone around us. My kids were sure feeling it... which REALLY pisses me off!!
I am who I am. My husband accepts me for who I am. And loves me for who I am.
-I dont much care if people think I "attack" them, because I send an email with my thoughts and feelings in it. They are my feelings... I dont need to PROVE them! Cry me a river... oh wait...those tears dont mean a damn thing to me. But please, allow them to work their magic on someone else that doesnt need to be involved in the BS.
-I dont much care that people think I should take certain, specific steps in letting them know what is going on in our life. Umm... OUR life... no one else really needs to know our business. Just RESPECT our wishes... you dont need to know the reasons, thoughts, or feelings behind them. RESPECT!
-I know that I am not particularly liked... and people do not think I am the right choice for Stacy. This is only because I can not be beat down to conform to what others want!
-My husband may be able to be emotionally blackmailed... but that shit doesnt work for me! WHO DOES THIS SHIT TO "FAMILY"?!?!?
I am so thankful that we have agreed to get an outside oppinion and advice on this bullshit situation. What this means at this point... THINGS are NOT ok! And Stacy may act like they are... because that is his way of dealing with things... BUT, I dont have that ability.
Let me tell you... there WILL be some major boundaries set!! I am reading a great book... "Toxic In-Laws"... and it is really eye opening to me... and I think it will be to my husband too!!
I am sure that Stacy and I will work it all out... and continue on our happily ever after. But, I am also sure that A LOT of things will be changing. BOUNDARIES will be put into place. Maybe we will relocate and change our lives completely... just to have peace. The bottom line is OUR family... the kids and us... are what is priority. We will have PEACE... no matter what we need to do to get it!
OK... on to a new day. I need to get my washer and dryer going... and somehow get some order back in our house!!! Start finding homes for all the new stuff that found its way into our house! Maybe get rid of a bunch of clutter.
Oh... one thing is for sure... our bunnies need some exercise!!!
We will be enjoying the sun... Hope everyone else will too!!
My kids were pleased with their gifts, and how the day unfolded. They love all of their gifts! I think the Kindle Fire's were a hit... seeing as how none of them have put them down for very long. Britt already downloaded a book... and it reading her lil heart out. Nathan found some fun games... ad educational ones. Courtney is obsessed with comics and videos.
Stacy got their new desktop all set up... AND the dictation software!!! They all got a boat of clothes from their favorite stores (Aero and Gap). The icee makers are a big hit too!!
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE ALL OF MY HOMEMADE GIFTS!!!! Brittany made me a BEAUTIFUL stool!! And Nathan made me a ceramic thrown bowl... and a trinket box with a lid! LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM!!!
Stacy got me a new... bigger... awesome... tele lens for my Nikon!! I can not wait to use it!! Came with a hood and filter!!! I am soooo stoked!!!!
Our morning yesterday was spent with my family. They came up and we did our gift exchange. We brought some tears to my grandfather's eyes... which was AWESOME!!! We framed 2 pictures of him and Britt and Josh heading out hunting together! Again... not many kids can say they went hunting with their Great Grandfather! I LOVE that mine can!! I can only hope and pray Nathan will get to experience it too.
Once the house cleared out... we ate our dinner. Very simple and stress free lasagna! Loved it!! No stress and little mess!
After we all had full bellies... we took a NAP! The kids busted in our bedroom at 6:01... because we said we werent getting up until after 6...LOL! The dogs had us up before 5... because that was when the kids got up... and they could hear them and apparently shared in their excitement! LOL
After our nap we got up, got ready, and headed to see Grandma Sarah! It was a nice visit and she seemed very happy to be surrounded by everyone. It quickly became noticeable that she was pretty tired. I got my baby fix with holding Coraline for a bit.
Stacy, the kids and I also got to sit and chit chat with some of our favorite ppl (Rodney, Jen and the girls)! We are both so blessed with the relationship we have with them. They are GREAT, non judgemental ppl that accept us and our decision no matter what they are... and then are supportive of them... and us! THAT is what family is all about!
Sooo... once Grandma's kitchen cleared out some... we all sat out there with the few that were left and had a bunch of laughs!
Once we finally left we headed to BK for icees... BUT, they were still closed. So we hit Koppy's for drinks... and then headed to the end of Eville for a light show. It was an awesome end for an amazing day!
I am so ready to undecorate and get things back to normal now. I know... sounds harsh.
Oh... Stacy did sneak in one last gift to me... HIS FREAKIN COLD!!
What will this week bring...
I am getting a few new piercings... and I think 1 or 2 of my kids will be too.
Jen and I plan on taking the kids to the Bounceplex this week too. It is something we did with them last year over Christmas break... and they had a BLAST!! Looking forward to doing it again.
I also plan on taking the kids shopping! They have money burning a hole in their pockets. LOL!
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
So... obviously there was a shit load of stress for Stacy and I over the past few weeks. I am sure it was noticeable to everyone around us. My kids were sure feeling it... which REALLY pisses me off!!
I am who I am. My husband accepts me for who I am. And loves me for who I am.
-I dont much care if people think I "attack" them, because I send an email with my thoughts and feelings in it. They are my feelings... I dont need to PROVE them! Cry me a river... oh wait...those tears dont mean a damn thing to me. But please, allow them to work their magic on someone else that doesnt need to be involved in the BS.
-I dont much care that people think I should take certain, specific steps in letting them know what is going on in our life. Umm... OUR life... no one else really needs to know our business. Just RESPECT our wishes... you dont need to know the reasons, thoughts, or feelings behind them. RESPECT!
-I know that I am not particularly liked... and people do not think I am the right choice for Stacy. This is only because I can not be beat down to conform to what others want!
-My husband may be able to be emotionally blackmailed... but that shit doesnt work for me! WHO DOES THIS SHIT TO "FAMILY"?!?!?
I am so thankful that we have agreed to get an outside oppinion and advice on this bullshit situation. What this means at this point... THINGS are NOT ok! And Stacy may act like they are... because that is his way of dealing with things... BUT, I dont have that ability.
Let me tell you... there WILL be some major boundaries set!! I am reading a great book... "Toxic In-Laws"... and it is really eye opening to me... and I think it will be to my husband too!!
I am sure that Stacy and I will work it all out... and continue on our happily ever after. But, I am also sure that A LOT of things will be changing. BOUNDARIES will be put into place. Maybe we will relocate and change our lives completely... just to have peace. The bottom line is OUR family... the kids and us... are what is priority. We will have PEACE... no matter what we need to do to get it!
OK... on to a new day. I need to get my washer and dryer going... and somehow get some order back in our house!!! Start finding homes for all the new stuff that found its way into our house! Maybe get rid of a bunch of clutter.
Oh... one thing is for sure... our bunnies need some exercise!!!
We will be enjoying the sun... Hope everyone else will too!!
Monday, December 26, 2011
Here and GONE!
Well... the big day that took weeks to prepare for... is OVER!!
My kids were pleased with their gifts, and how the day unfolded. They love all of their gifts! I think the Kindle Fire's were a hit... seeing as how none of them have put them down for very long. Britt already downloaded a book... and it reading her lil heart out. Nathan found some fun games... ad educational ones. Courtney is obsessed with comics and videos.
Stacy got their new desktop all set up... AND the dictation software!!! They all got a boat of clothes from their favorite stores (Aero and Gap). The icee makers are a big hit too!!
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE ALL OF MY HOMEMADE GIFTS!!!! Brittany made me a BEAUTIFUL stool!! And Nathan made me a ceramic thrown bowl... and a trinket box with a lid! LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM!!!
Stacy got me a new... bigger... awesome... tele lens for my Nikon!! I can not wait to use it!! Came with a hood and filter!!! I am soooo stoked!!!!
Our morning yesterday was spent with my family. They came up and we did our gift exchange. We brought some tears to my grandfather's eyes... which was AWESOME!!! We framed 2 pictures of him and Britt and Josh heading out hunting together! Again... not many kids can say they went hunting with their Great Grandfather! I LOVE that mine can!! I can only hope and pray Nathan will get to experience it too.
Once the house cleared out... we ate our dinner. Very simple and stress free lasagna! Loved it!! No stress and little mess!
After we all had full bellies... we took a NAP! The kids busted in our bedroom at 6:01... because we said we werent getting up until after 6...LOL! The dogs had us up before 5... because that was when the kids got up... and they could hear them and apparently shared in their excitement! LOL
After our nap we got up, got ready, and headed to see Grandma Sarah! It was a nice visit and she seemed very happy to be surrounded by everyone. It quickly became noticeable that she was pretty tired. I got my baby fix with holding Coraline for a bit.
Stacy, the kids and I also got to sit and chit chat with some of our favorite ppl (Rodney, Jen and the girls)! We are both so blessed with the relationship we have with them. They are GREAT, non judgemental ppl that accept us and our decision no matter what they are... and then are supportive of them... and us! THAT is what family is all about!
Sooo... once Grandma's kitchen cleared out some... we all sat out there with the few that were left and had a bunch of laughs!
Once we finally left we headed to BK for icees... BUT, they were still closed. So we hit Koppy's for drinks... and then headed to the end of Eville for a light show. It was an awesome end for an amazing day!
I am so ready to undecorate and get things back to normal now. I know... sounds harsh.
Oh... Stacy did sneak in one last gift to me... HIS FREAKIN COLD!!
What will this week bring...
I am getting a few new piercings... and I think 1 or 2 of my kids will be too.
Jen and I plan on taking the kids to the Bounceplex this week too. It is something we did with them last year over Christmas break... and they had a BLAST!! Looking forward to doing it again.
I also plan on taking the kids shopping! They have money burning a hole in their pockets. LOL!
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
So... obviously there was a shit load of stress for Stacy and I over the past few weeks. I am sure it was noticeable to everyone around us. My kids were sure feeling it... which REALLY pisses me off!!
I am who I am. My husband accepts me for who I am. And loves me for who I am.
-I dont much care if people think I "attack" them, because I send an email with my thoughts and feelings in it. They are my feelings... I dont need to PROVE them! Cry me a river... oh wait...those tears dont mean a damn thing to me. But please, allow them to work their magic on someone else that doesnt need to be involved in the BS.
-I dont much care that people think I should take certain, specific steps in letting them know what is going on in our life. Umm... OUR life... no one else really needs to know our business. Just RESPECT our wishes... you dont need to know the reasons, thoughts, or feelings behind them. RESPECT!
-I know that I am not particularly liked... and people do not think I am the right choice for Stacy. This is only because I can not be beat down to conform to what others want!
-My husband may be able to be emotionally blackmailed... but that shit doesnt work for me! WHO DOES THIS SHIT TO "FAMILY"?!?!?
I am so thankful that we have agreed to get an outside oppinion and advice on this bullshit situation. What this means at this point... THINGS are NOT ok! And Stacy may act like they are... because that is his way of dealing with things... BUT, I dont have that ability.
Let me tell you... there WILL be some major boundaries set!! I am reading a great book... "Toxic In-Laws"... and it is really eye opening to me... and I think it will be to my husband too!!
I am sure that Stacy and I will work it all out... and continue on our happily ever after. But, I am also sure that A LOT of things will be changing. BOUNDARIES will be put into place. Maybe we will relocate and change our lives completely... just to have peace. The bottom line is OUR family... the kids and us... are what is priority. We will have PEACE... no matter what we need to do to get it!
OK... on to a new day. I need to get my washer and dryer going... and somehow get some order back in our house!!! Start finding homes for all the new stuff that found its way into our house! Maybe get rid of a bunch of clutter.
Oh... one thing is for sure... our bunnies need some exercise!!!
We will be enjoying the sun... Hope everyone else will too!!
My kids were pleased with their gifts, and how the day unfolded. They love all of their gifts! I think the Kindle Fire's were a hit... seeing as how none of them have put them down for very long. Britt already downloaded a book... and it reading her lil heart out. Nathan found some fun games... ad educational ones. Courtney is obsessed with comics and videos.
Stacy got their new desktop all set up... AND the dictation software!!! They all got a boat of clothes from their favorite stores (Aero and Gap). The icee makers are a big hit too!!
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE ALL OF MY HOMEMADE GIFTS!!!! Brittany made me a BEAUTIFUL stool!! And Nathan made me a ceramic thrown bowl... and a trinket box with a lid! LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM!!!
Stacy got me a new... bigger... awesome... tele lens for my Nikon!! I can not wait to use it!! Came with a hood and filter!!! I am soooo stoked!!!!
Our morning yesterday was spent with my family. They came up and we did our gift exchange. We brought some tears to my grandfather's eyes... which was AWESOME!!! We framed 2 pictures of him and Britt and Josh heading out hunting together! Again... not many kids can say they went hunting with their Great Grandfather! I LOVE that mine can!! I can only hope and pray Nathan will get to experience it too.
Once the house cleared out... we ate our dinner. Very simple and stress free lasagna! Loved it!! No stress and little mess!
After we all had full bellies... we took a NAP! The kids busted in our bedroom at 6:01... because we said we werent getting up until after 6...LOL! The dogs had us up before 5... because that was when the kids got up... and they could hear them and apparently shared in their excitement! LOL
After our nap we got up, got ready, and headed to see Grandma Sarah! It was a nice visit and she seemed very happy to be surrounded by everyone. It quickly became noticeable that she was pretty tired. I got my baby fix with holding Coraline for a bit.
Stacy, the kids and I also got to sit and chit chat with some of our favorite ppl (Rodney, Jen and the girls)! We are both so blessed with the relationship we have with them. They are GREAT, non judgemental ppl that accept us and our decision no matter what they are... and then are supportive of them... and us! THAT is what family is all about!
Sooo... once Grandma's kitchen cleared out some... we all sat out there with the few that were left and had a bunch of laughs!
Once we finally left we headed to BK for icees... BUT, they were still closed. So we hit Koppy's for drinks... and then headed to the end of Eville for a light show. It was an awesome end for an amazing day!
I am so ready to undecorate and get things back to normal now. I know... sounds harsh.
Oh... Stacy did sneak in one last gift to me... HIS FREAKIN COLD!!
What will this week bring...
I am getting a few new piercings... and I think 1 or 2 of my kids will be too.
Jen and I plan on taking the kids to the Bounceplex this week too. It is something we did with them last year over Christmas break... and they had a BLAST!! Looking forward to doing it again.
I also plan on taking the kids shopping! They have money burning a hole in their pockets. LOL!
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
So... obviously there was a shit load of stress for Stacy and I over the past few weeks. I am sure it was noticeable to everyone around us. My kids were sure feeling it... which REALLY pisses me off!!
I am who I am. My husband accepts me for who I am. And loves me for who I am.
-I dont much care if people think I "attack" them, because I send an email with my thoughts and feelings in it. They are my feelings... I dont need to PROVE them! Cry me a river... oh wait...those tears dont mean a damn thing to me. But please, allow them to work their magic on someone else that doesnt need to be involved in the BS.
-I dont much care that people think I should take certain, specific steps in letting them know what is going on in our life. Umm... OUR life... no one else really needs to know our business. Just RESPECT our wishes... you dont need to know the reasons, thoughts, or feelings behind them. RESPECT!
-I know that I am not particularly liked... and people do not think I am the right choice for Stacy. This is only because I can not be beat down to conform to what others want!
-My husband may be able to be emotionally blackmailed... but that shit doesnt work for me! WHO DOES THIS SHIT TO "FAMILY"?!?!?
I am so thankful that we have agreed to get an outside oppinion and advice on this bullshit situation. What this means at this point... THINGS are NOT ok! And Stacy may act like they are... because that is his way of dealing with things... BUT, I dont have that ability.
Let me tell you... there WILL be some major boundaries set!! I am reading a great book... "Toxic In-Laws"... and it is really eye opening to me... and I think it will be to my husband too!!
I am sure that Stacy and I will work it all out... and continue on our happily ever after. But, I am also sure that A LOT of things will be changing. BOUNDARIES will be put into place. Maybe we will relocate and change our lives completely... just to have peace. The bottom line is OUR family... the kids and us... are what is priority. We will have PEACE... no matter what we need to do to get it!
OK... on to a new day. I need to get my washer and dryer going... and somehow get some order back in our house!!! Start finding homes for all the new stuff that found its way into our house! Maybe get rid of a bunch of clutter.
Oh... one thing is for sure... our bunnies need some exercise!!!
We will be enjoying the sun... Hope everyone else will too!!
Friday, December 23, 2011
Christmas Eve's Eve!!
Wow... once we get to this point... that whole eve of the eve of the eve thing I do with the kids... gets a whole lot easier!! LOL!!
Today the kids have a half day... and we plan on doing some serious baking this afternoon!!! Then it is all about count down to Christmas morning!
Oh... I got my first materials (thru email 400page PDF...LOL) about our new diet program!! I am pretty excited about getting that underway. BUT, it is going to have to wait until the start of 2012... just too much going on over the next week.
Geez... I have to sit down and do my 2011 goals in review... and make up my goals for 2012!! I cant believe how fast time flies!!!
Stacy and I will be making some more, new adjustments to our lives! We have mixed feelings on it... it is both sad and exciting.
All kinds of stuff came to a boiling point yesterday... and well, I freely and openly admit I stewed on things until I just jumped on acting. At the same time... I think the reaction Stacy got was grossly over reacted! But... it is what it is. He now sees things and ppl in a different light... and now we move on.
I really wish sitting everyone down together would get to some sort of resolution to the issues we have been having... but I know better. First of all... who wants to take time out of their lives to deal with ex's... let alone ex's of ex's?!?! Just seems a bit ridiculous to me. Second... it's everyone's word against eachother! How do you go about proving someones motives?? Not exactly sure what an attorney can offer to this utter insanity... but hey... whatever floats your boat. You want to waste money on that... go for it.
Just seems kind of bully like to me. And for those reading this... these are my FEELINGS... I am not making ACCUSATIONS against anyone!! There is a HUGE difference. I guess my FEELINGS and OBSERVATIONS tend to hurt others feelings... oh well. Life goes on!
And really... who is the judge and jury we need to prove anything to in regards to any of this?!?! LOL!! It is what it is. These are things we are living.
Ok... I am over it!
Moving on...
I guess we will have to have some tough conversations with the kids over the next few days. Oh joy.
And we have some tough decisions to make as the new year begins as well! We were tossing out some idea's last nite... but, I dont want to make any emotional decisions. We are going to get through the holidays... and then take a look at things.
I know that this time of year is ALWAYS difficult for me... during a good year.
This year I have had more stuff thrown at me then I care to deal with!!! No one takes the time to realize any of that... or to take a few steps in my shoes!!
-Earl passing away... and dealing with my Mom. (Seriously, this has been enough to send me over the edge)
-Taking care of Josh.
-Dealing with Courtney and her daily issues. (and boy, they sure are daily!! I am in constant communication with the school... teachers... etc. Not a day goes by)
-Preparing for her fast approaching graduation and what happens with her next.
-Dealing with Nathan's increasing issues. (Also at least weekly communication with the school... and constant battles at home... that Stacy and I just dont know what to do to deal with them anymore.)
-Ex's that never seem to go away.
-Unsupportive family members who seem to be working AGAINST us.
-Trying to start and build a business... while keeping up with the demand of being a mom and wife.
-The loss of Stacy's grandfather.
-Issue after issue with things in our house... and with things at the other house.
-Trying to maintain and afford two houses.
-Trying to do the right things... and make everyone happy in the process.
IT IS JUST TOO MUCH!
Oh well. I am human. Yes, I should have left well enough alone when Stacy handled things the best he could. But damn... I get so sick of having to ask myself why I am not good enough!!!
Ok... on with my day. I have to clear some space in the kitchen and on the dining room table... so we can BAKE once everyone gets home!!! MAY THE FUN BEGIN!!!
Today the kids have a half day... and we plan on doing some serious baking this afternoon!!! Then it is all about count down to Christmas morning!
Oh... I got my first materials (thru email 400page PDF...LOL) about our new diet program!! I am pretty excited about getting that underway. BUT, it is going to have to wait until the start of 2012... just too much going on over the next week.
Geez... I have to sit down and do my 2011 goals in review... and make up my goals for 2012!! I cant believe how fast time flies!!!
Stacy and I will be making some more, new adjustments to our lives! We have mixed feelings on it... it is both sad and exciting.
All kinds of stuff came to a boiling point yesterday... and well, I freely and openly admit I stewed on things until I just jumped on acting. At the same time... I think the reaction Stacy got was grossly over reacted! But... it is what it is. He now sees things and ppl in a different light... and now we move on.
I really wish sitting everyone down together would get to some sort of resolution to the issues we have been having... but I know better. First of all... who wants to take time out of their lives to deal with ex's... let alone ex's of ex's?!?! Just seems a bit ridiculous to me. Second... it's everyone's word against eachother! How do you go about proving someones motives?? Not exactly sure what an attorney can offer to this utter insanity... but hey... whatever floats your boat. You want to waste money on that... go for it.
Just seems kind of bully like to me. And for those reading this... these are my FEELINGS... I am not making ACCUSATIONS against anyone!! There is a HUGE difference. I guess my FEELINGS and OBSERVATIONS tend to hurt others feelings... oh well. Life goes on!
And really... who is the judge and jury we need to prove anything to in regards to any of this?!?! LOL!! It is what it is. These are things we are living.
Ok... I am over it!
Moving on...
I guess we will have to have some tough conversations with the kids over the next few days. Oh joy.
And we have some tough decisions to make as the new year begins as well! We were tossing out some idea's last nite... but, I dont want to make any emotional decisions. We are going to get through the holidays... and then take a look at things.
I know that this time of year is ALWAYS difficult for me... during a good year.
This year I have had more stuff thrown at me then I care to deal with!!! No one takes the time to realize any of that... or to take a few steps in my shoes!!
-Earl passing away... and dealing with my Mom. (Seriously, this has been enough to send me over the edge)
-Taking care of Josh.
-Dealing with Courtney and her daily issues. (and boy, they sure are daily!! I am in constant communication with the school... teachers... etc. Not a day goes by)
-Preparing for her fast approaching graduation and what happens with her next.
-Dealing with Nathan's increasing issues. (Also at least weekly communication with the school... and constant battles at home... that Stacy and I just dont know what to do to deal with them anymore.)
-Ex's that never seem to go away.
-Unsupportive family members who seem to be working AGAINST us.
-Trying to start and build a business... while keeping up with the demand of being a mom and wife.
-The loss of Stacy's grandfather.
-Issue after issue with things in our house... and with things at the other house.
-Trying to maintain and afford two houses.
-Trying to do the right things... and make everyone happy in the process.
IT IS JUST TOO MUCH!
Oh well. I am human. Yes, I should have left well enough alone when Stacy handled things the best he could. But damn... I get so sick of having to ask myself why I am not good enough!!!
Ok... on with my day. I have to clear some space in the kitchen and on the dining room table... so we can BAKE once everyone gets home!!! MAY THE FUN BEGIN!!!
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Life as we know it...
As I have been saying... We have been making a boat load of changes over the recent months. And we still have a bunch to make!!
Our next big change will be our diet. I am starting an entirely new approach to food with the new year. One that will surely make a HUGE difference in my 2 "sensitive" kiddos!! I just hope that these changes can be met with open arms!!
Stacy and I gifted ourselves for Christmas this year... we purchased an entire program for feeding special needs kids. What to feed them... what not to feed them... All PROVEN to make a big difference in their lives, and as a result... OUR lives!! BUT, not only are we putting the kids on the diet... we are ALL going to participate! Because apparently... we can all benefit from it! I am really excited about this...and actually looking forward to it!
I have also been giving a lot of thought lately to our holiday traditions.
I like them! My kids look forward to them! And I am not about to give them up... for anything!!
Friday will be our day to bake. I have EVERYTHING we need... except hershey's kisses. I cant wait to make a mess of our kitchen... and put flour hand prints all over my kids!!! :-)
Christmas Eve will be spent together, finishing up our baking... getting Santa's plate ready. I will bring down our presents... and let it eat away at the kids all evening...LOL! Nathaniel will get to read "Twas the Night Before Christmas"... which was the same book I read as a kid. I will cry... because now my kids are reading it to me... instead of me reading it to them (this happens every year). Carrots will get put out along with Santa's cookies... We will sprinkle our glittery reindeer food out back... and off we will go to bed!
Christmas morning the kids will come crashing down our bedroom door... telling us Santa was here!! Stacy will beg for a few more minutes of sleep... the dogs will join in the kids excitement... LOL!! And before we know it... presents will be unwrapped and the kids will be waiting for their visitors!! :-)
New Years Eve is no different!! I spend EVERY New Years with my kids. I have only ever missed 1 (and a half, I went out after midnite)... and they both sucked BIG TIME!!!
I absolutely LOVE the traditions I have made with my kids! And, I can only hope that they mean as much to them... as they do to me! I want my kids to always know that no matter where they are, or what they are doing... they can always come home for their holidays. And when they are all grown, and have families of their own... I will still be here... proud that they will be creating their own traditions!
It does sadden me that this year... I will only see 3 smiling faces on Christmas morning. Josh has always been able to come back home in the morning... but this year he has to work. :-( At the same time... I am proud of him, and the fact that he has a job... and is stepping up into the world of responsibility! I guess this is what being a mom is all about. Knowing when to let go. Letting them make their own decisions. And trusting that they will figure out for themselves what they want in life, and what will make them happy!
OK... well... I must be getting back to the huge list of things I have to do today.
But before I do... I want to mention that today is the 2nd Birthday of a very special little lady!! Our niece, Alexis!! Goodness... I remember the day she was born... and the craziness that came with it! She sure did kick butt... and showed EVERYONE what she was made of!! And I have a feeling, she isnt done yet!! LOL!!
Our next big change will be our diet. I am starting an entirely new approach to food with the new year. One that will surely make a HUGE difference in my 2 "sensitive" kiddos!! I just hope that these changes can be met with open arms!!
Stacy and I gifted ourselves for Christmas this year... we purchased an entire program for feeding special needs kids. What to feed them... what not to feed them... All PROVEN to make a big difference in their lives, and as a result... OUR lives!! BUT, not only are we putting the kids on the diet... we are ALL going to participate! Because apparently... we can all benefit from it! I am really excited about this...and actually looking forward to it!
I have also been giving a lot of thought lately to our holiday traditions.
I like them! My kids look forward to them! And I am not about to give them up... for anything!!
Friday will be our day to bake. I have EVERYTHING we need... except hershey's kisses. I cant wait to make a mess of our kitchen... and put flour hand prints all over my kids!!! :-)
Christmas Eve will be spent together, finishing up our baking... getting Santa's plate ready. I will bring down our presents... and let it eat away at the kids all evening...LOL! Nathaniel will get to read "Twas the Night Before Christmas"... which was the same book I read as a kid. I will cry... because now my kids are reading it to me... instead of me reading it to them (this happens every year). Carrots will get put out along with Santa's cookies... We will sprinkle our glittery reindeer food out back... and off we will go to bed!
Christmas morning the kids will come crashing down our bedroom door... telling us Santa was here!! Stacy will beg for a few more minutes of sleep... the dogs will join in the kids excitement... LOL!! And before we know it... presents will be unwrapped and the kids will be waiting for their visitors!! :-)
New Years Eve is no different!! I spend EVERY New Years with my kids. I have only ever missed 1 (and a half, I went out after midnite)... and they both sucked BIG TIME!!!
I absolutely LOVE the traditions I have made with my kids! And, I can only hope that they mean as much to them... as they do to me! I want my kids to always know that no matter where they are, or what they are doing... they can always come home for their holidays. And when they are all grown, and have families of their own... I will still be here... proud that they will be creating their own traditions!
It does sadden me that this year... I will only see 3 smiling faces on Christmas morning. Josh has always been able to come back home in the morning... but this year he has to work. :-( At the same time... I am proud of him, and the fact that he has a job... and is stepping up into the world of responsibility! I guess this is what being a mom is all about. Knowing when to let go. Letting them make their own decisions. And trusting that they will figure out for themselves what they want in life, and what will make them happy!
OK... well... I must be getting back to the huge list of things I have to do today.
But before I do... I want to mention that today is the 2nd Birthday of a very special little lady!! Our niece, Alexis!! Goodness... I remember the day she was born... and the craziness that came with it! She sure did kick butt... and showed EVERYONE what she was made of!! And I have a feeling, she isnt done yet!! LOL!!
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