Tough Love

Well, I think it is about time to implement some "tough love"... all around!

I have been living day after day spread so thin!!  I get creative channeling our finances so that everything is covered.  I run around like a chicken with its head cut off trying to get everything taken care of.
I have gotten to the point where my own health has gone to crap!!  The thing that gets me is no one really cares... they still just want what they want!!  Seriously...?!?!?  Am I really surrounded by such selfish people???  I guess so!

For my own health and sanity... and for the sake of my own family...  it is time to put some "tough love" into place!

I have found that my oldest son has been quite rude to those around him!!  Those ppl that go above and beyond to do things for him!  That really pisses me off!!  I guess he forgets that he is my Grandfather's great grandchild (one of 4)... which means the man has CHILDREN and a GRANDCHILD!!!  It seems that Josh doesnt want him to help anyone but HIM!  Guess what?  That isnt how the world works!!
I guess he also forgets his Nanny risked any type of relationship with her other grandchildren to "save" him from our evil grasp!! 
Hmmm....  maybe that is why he acts like he does... he has been treated like the only person that matters for so long!!  It would appear that he has been #1 for a very long time!

Well, in my world... which I like to call "reality"... I  have 4 children.  And all 4 of my kids are loved and treated equally.
Soooo...  when Joshua has burned through NEW brakes and rotors in LESS than 5 MONTHS...  it is time for some tough love!!
Mommy and Daddy arent fixing this one!!! There is NO excuse for this one!!!  Other then he drives like a damn asshole!

Now, Joshua just got a speeding ticket on Friday.... his car payment to us is due... his electric bill is due... AND we are now requiring him to pay some sort of rent, which is due Nov 1st!  ALL of this on top of him needing new brakes and rotors!!
WELCOME TO THE REAL WORLD!!!!!!!
I am DONE going without things in order to keep Josh afloat... just to have him take it all for granted!!  I love him... very much... which is why I think it is about time he grew up!
I already know his next course of action will be to run to my grandfather for help.  Well, I already took care of that!  Nope... no help from the great grandfather he was so rude to yesterday... when he told him he just didnt want to talk to him because he was mad about my grandfather helping with HIS damn coal bin and taking my mother along!!  Nope... not acceptable!!!  (Side  note on this one... my grandfather is also volunteering to pay for the coal to FILL his damn coal bin... that WE spent money on to build for the coal stove WE bought so he would have heat!!!)

Josh, I know you sometimes read my blogs... and we do love you very much!!  But it is time to start treating ppl with some respect and act like you appreciate things that are done to help you!!  In addition... be thankful and willing to SHARE the bounty you have been blessed with!!
The house you are living in... and have been living in... IS NOT YOURS!!!  It is ours!  You do not NEED a 4 bedroom house!!!  Your Nanny NEEDS a place to live... and that is the woman who (was stupid, in my opinion...but we wont go there) and came to your "rescue"!  Open your damn eyes... stop acting like a spoiled damn brat... and stop crying the blues to ppl about the situation! 

Everyone of us have made sacrifices for YOU!!!  And yet you still manipulate and bully ppl to get your own way. 
It is time for you to make some sacrifices.

And no, I am firm on not having my CRX leave our driveway until ALL of the changes I want to make are made!  That seems to be taking FOREVER... well, it is another one of the sacrifices I am making for everyone else!  So, let's hope you learn to take better care of your car... because without it, you will be screwed!

With that all being said about Josh...

I have 3 other kids who seem to want to take advantage of us as well!  They live the nice cushy life... have their cell phones and all of the luxury electronics.  Well, they wont after today... if they dont keep up with their simple chores and the rest of the things they need to be responsible for!  I have had it playing catch up every morning before I get on with my daily "chores"... and making sure they have a meal on the table every nite!  Nope... I am DONE with all of that!!
I AM THAT MEAN MOM... from this moment on!!
I want time for ME... and I will NEVER get it with things going the way they are!

As for our other house...
I am done dealing with it.  I am writing up final agreements... making some final decisions... and then it is on the people living in that house!  If they cant keep up with the agreements... they dont need to live there!
I damn paralyzed myself pulling weeds and trimming everything back! There is no excuse for that shit.  The grass needs cut desperately...and I am NOT doing it!
I am done sinking money into it to make everyone elses lives better.  I am done sinking time into it to make everyone elses lives better.  I am just plain DONE!

I am also DONE helping people that dont want to help themselves!  If ppl arent making an effort... dont look at me to do it for you!  Nope... that is "tough love"!  Have to learn to do it yourself at some point... what better time than NOW! 

There is no one rushing up here to help me clean my house... or pull my weeds... or scrub my siding... or put in my dog run... or help with the yota... or put on my front porch...!!!!!!   But we are so pulled in so many directions that we dont even have time to work on these things ourselves!!!  I live in a complete mess right now... AND winter is coming.... AND I am trying to get my business going!!
No one cares. 

So... I am done!  It is time to focus on ME... US... and OUR HOUSE for a change!

Am I being a bitch... maybe.  But, I will be a bitch NOT passing out from a heart issue!!  I will be a bitch who has the extra money to have dinner with my hubby on occasion!!!  I will be a bitch with a damn front porch!!! 

Ok... I am done now!   And yes.... maybe I will be able to fit back into a training bra since I got all of that off my chest!  (hell, I hope so... since I need to make 50lbs disappear so I dont die!  yea, and that is another thing.... only 2 or 3 ppl have stepped up to show they care and support me in that "journey"... And I am sooooo very thankful for those ppl!  I love them and dont know what I would do if they werent in my life!  Thank you!!!!!)